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Due to the sudden loss of my Master in July 2011, I had chosen to keep myself "at bay" from this lifestyle I adore and most of the people in it. Special thanks go out to my friends that have extended their hand of warmth during this most turbulent time in my life.
The butterfly can only rest in her cocoon so long before she finds the need to soar.
Baby steps.
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"Time is the coin of your life. It is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. Be careful lest you let other people spend it for you."
~ Carl Sandberg ~ |
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After viewing so many profiles of those "searching" for thier "One" (at one time, I was one of you), might I just suggest; live your life and do what makes you happy. If the "One" happens by...fantastic; if not, at least you still have a life of which to speak.
YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE, WHY WAIT FOR SOMEONE THAT YOU MAY NEVER FIND...food for thought. |
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OMG, a 57 y.o. "master" looking for pets 18 - 24?
ROFLMAO
Can anyone say.......serious issues???? |
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It's been one year ago today, I have mourned...You are gone...life goes on.
End of story. |
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Ok, is it just me or does anyone else find it outrageous to advertise for a "room mate" on collarme? WTF ladies....smarten up
Forrest Gump was right....."Stupid is as stupid does." |
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Over the weekend, I bought a new Smartphone AND changed my number. Sometime a fresh start is necessary. |
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"Every one of us is getting older, which is a natural process. Time is constantly moving on, second by second. Nothing can stop it, but what we can do is use our time properly; that is in our hands. Whether we believe in a spiritual tradition or not, we need to use our time meaningfully. If over days, weeks, months and years, we have used our time in a meaningful way – when our last day comes, we'll be happy, we'll have no regrets".
~ Dalai Lama ~ |
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent".
~ Eleanor Roosevelt ~ |
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Isnt it amazing how history repeats itself and yet the players remain the same (well, 2 out of 3 anyway). Im just grateful its not me.
Words to live by; " If you keep doing what you are doing, you will keep getting what you are getting."
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"To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover the prisoner was you."
~ Louis B. Smedes ~ |
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I just read an interesting profile from a Dominant who professes to be 95% smarter than the rest of us; and yet he has only been in the lifestyle 2 years.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA................get a clue! |
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Seriously people, wtf? You list your location as Arizona and your zip code is 50 miles away......?
Perhaps you should list DUMB instead of Dom as your status. |
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Nothing makes me shake my head more than when I read a profile of a dominant individual who refers to themselves at dominate. Let's get it straight people; dominant is a noun or adjective....dominate is a verb.
Another thing I've noticed....the majority of individuals who make the above error are men.....just sayin, lolol.
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"True life is lived when tiny changes occur.”
~ Leo Tolstoy ~ |
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I believe the new year will be my turning point. |
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“The first step toward change is acceptance. Once you accept yourself, you open the door to change. That’s all you have to do. Change is not something you do, it’s something you allow”.
~ Will Garcia ~ |
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Some people come into your life as blessings; others come into your life as lessons. |
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The meeting of the minds causes stimulation, regardless of ones' stature. |
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"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us."
~ Helen Keller ~ |
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intelligent conversation is appreciated. |
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when i shut my mouth and turn to walk away, it doesnt mean you've won; it simply means your stupid ass isnt worth anymore of my time. |
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"There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isnt the end of the world; its the beginning of a new life."
~ Anonymous ~ |
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"i will exile my thoughts if they think of You again, and i will rip my lips out if they say Your name once more. now if You do exist, i will tell You my final word in life or in death, i tell You goodbye".
~ Knut Hamsun ~ Hunger |
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"go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. as far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perrenial as the grass....
~ a passage from Desiderata ~ |
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while i appreciate peoples' interest in me, i am presently only interested in friendship based relationships. i am currently trying to move forward with my life and find myself once again.
patience is a virtue... |
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"when i let go of what i am, i become what i might be."
~ Lao Tzu ~ |
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"to thine own self be true"
~ Shakespeare's Hamlet ~ |
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for all of you married self proclaimed dominants who believe in "full disclosure"....does that also include your wife? since you're cheating on your spouse, how do you expect to earn my trust? seriously...you have more issues than just a bad marriage.
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ignorance and arrogance are quite often a fatal combination. |
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if you are a married or "involved" man and your significant other has no idea about your lifestyle choices, im truly not interested in your "extenuating circumstances"; the fact remains...you are cheating. do not insult my intelligence by even contacting me. i take this lifestyle seriously, and if you cannot control your wife or whats going on at home, you certainly cannot "dominate" me.......get real.
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"He who controls others may be powerful, but He who has mastered Himself is mightier still".
~ Lao Tzu ~ |
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"Anyone who loves to be trained loves knowledge.
Anyone who hates to be corrected is stupid".
Proverbs 12:1 |
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the decision to move forward in life is generally one of the most difficult decisions to make, but sometimes there are no alternatives.
my loyalty and devotion will remain with You and O/our family...but its time for me to fly. |
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a real Man is a woman’s best friend. He will never let her down. He will comfort her after a bad day. He will inspire her to do things she never thought she could do. He will enable her to express her deepest emotions. He will enable her to be confident, sexy, seductive and invincible….no, wait, sorry... i'm thinking of vodka. it’s vodka that does all that.....never mind.
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being kept "in the dark" is a very lonely place. |
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Y/you can close Y/your eyes to things Y/you don't want to see, but Y/you can't close Y/your heart to things Y/you don't want to feel. |
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love is not about leisure.....its about work. |
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sometimes W/we all just need a little time away. |
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"what is necessary to change a person is to change his awareness of himself".
~ Abraham Maslow ~ |
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"the real voyage of discovery consists not in seeing new landscapes, but in having new eyes".
~ Marcel Proust ~ |
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"you must have control of the authorship of your own destiny. the pen that writes your life story must be held in your own hand."
~ Irene C. Kassorla ~ |
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the most difficult lessons we learn are the ones we choose to learn. |
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"not what we have but what W/we enjoy, constitutes O/our abundance."
~ Epicurus ~ |
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"love is the law; love under will". |
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"to be completely woman you need a Master, and in Him, a compass for your life.
you need a Man you can look up to and respect.
if you dethrone Him, it is no wonder that you are discontented, and discontented women
are not loved for long."
~ Marlene Dietrich ~ |
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knowledge is really confined to experience; when O/our minds remain open to possibilities, knowledge occurs and growth is achieved. nature, at its finest. |
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"I've never wished a man dead, but I have read some obituaries with great pleasure."
~ Mark Twain ~ |
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losing the person you were at one time is not a death....its an awakening to possibilities you never thought existed. |
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thank You, Master....for the bruises, the orgasms, the lessons and...........Your love. |
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Master is on His way......i dont have butterflies; i have bald eagles. |
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ok, seriously, wtf is wrong with you so called doms? are you illiterate or simply "special needs" dominants that cant read? perhaps you have forgotten one of the basic elements of this lifestyle...its called RESPECT. may i remind you, this is not facebook. let me spell this out for you;
i AM OWNED BY MASTER JADEDSIN.....IF you WISH TO COMMUNICATE WITH me...GET PERMISSION..........PERIOD. protocol is protocol....nuff said. |
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it has recently come to my attention, there are a few on this site who wonder what my Master sees in me.....to be honest, im not sure; perhaps its my ability to keep my mouth shut regarding certain matters. with that being said...i am honored that He has chosen me and i am grateful for His training, guidance and love. thank You, Master.
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well done, Mistress Lynmorata.......You are an inspiration. love You. |
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i used to blame my evil twin for the bad things ive done...now i realize i AM the evil twin. |
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"love is...realizing He has the power to destroy you, but trusting He will not." |
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smiling directly at JadedSin.....thank You Master. i love You too. |
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"we don't see things as they are, we see them as we are."
~ Anais Nin ~ |
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session with Master next week.....the butterflies have already begun. |
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studity is unattractive; disrespect is unacceptable. |
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i thought i made it abundantly clear in my profile, i belong to Master JadedSin. Please respect my Master's position; do not contact me without His permission. disrespct will lead to an immediate delete and subsequest block. thank you. |
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" to thine own self, be true"..........lesson learned
thank You, Master |
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my Master......cant live with Him, cant live without Him. |
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in the darkest hour of O/our bleakest moment, one thing remains true...life goes on. each I/individual that comes into O/our lives has a purpose; T/they teach U/us a lesson, or many, as the case may be. it is up to U/us, however, what W/we do with the lessons learned.
i love You, and as i sit here smiling, i know i always will. |
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as human beings, W/we hold within U/us a voracious appetite to protect the O/ones W/we love...it is O/our nature. however, when cries go unanswered and requests are denied consistantly, that very relationship W/we vehemently protected begins to wither. every long lasting union needs to be nurtured.
indifference equals death. |
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Women are evil by nature......
A woman went up to the bar in a quiet rural pub...
She gestured alluringly to the bartender who approached her immediately.
She seductively signaled that he should bring his face closer to hers.
As he did, she gently caressed his full beard.
"Are you the manager?" she asked, softly stroking his face with both hands.
"Actually, no," he replied.
"Can you get him for me? I need to speak to him," she said, running her hands beyond his beard and into his hair
"I'm afraid I can't," breathed the bartender. "Is there anything I can do?"
"Yes.. I need for you to give him a message,"
she continued, running her forefinger across the bartender's lip and slyly popping a couple of her fingers into his mouth.
And allowing him to suck them gently.
"What should I tell him?" the bartender managed to say.
"Tell him," she whispered,
"There's no toilet paper, hand soap, or paper towels in the ladies room."
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while W/we enjoy the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to allow part of U/us to die....whether it is O/our spirit, O/our creativity or O/our uniqueness. |
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"and those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music."
~ Nietzsche ~ |
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everything can change in the blink of an eye, but a tenacious soul is everlasting. |
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im back. clarity is a wonderful thing. |
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falling is a part of life...getting back up, is living. easier said than done. |
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continuing to dwindle in the twilight realm of my own secret thoughts |
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feeling overwhelmed, as of late....."little girl lost".
i need something......................... |
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i am better because of You, i feel because of You, i am aware because of You, i am more focused because of You, i will not give up because of You.....i am me, because of You. i love You, Master. |
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karma is truly a glorious entity. |
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if Y/your relationship has enough trust, honesty, understanding, and communication it should never require promises, terms and conditions.
nuff said
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"if a Man does not keep pace with His companions, perhaps it is because He hears a different drummer. let Him step to the music which He hears, however measured or far away."
~ Henry David Thoreau ~
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"dost thou love life?
then do not squander time, for that is the stuff life is made of."
~ Benjamin Franklin ~ |
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"friends will keep you sane, love will fill your heart, a lover can warm your bed, but lonely is the soul without a mate."
~ unknown ~ |
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finally....a good nite's sleep
sigh |
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i cherish this gift that You have bestowed upon me and i believe somber reflection is in order. needs must be met in order to maintain the staus quo; as always, communication is key. release is not an option as my goal is not to "leave the nest" but rather fly with You. |
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"it is fed with the necessity of seeing each other"
getting tired of being an "option" |
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"sometimes the heart sees whats invisible to the eye".
~ H. Jackson Brown ~ |
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happy valentine's day, Master....i love You |
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thank You for the beautiful roses, Master.....i love You too. |
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if i have offended anyone, please let me know; i might want to offend you again later. |
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i feel a Sin coming on...
~ giggles ~ |
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"nobody can give you wiser advice than yourself".
~ Cicero ~ |
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"THERE IS SUFFERING THAT YOU DON’T WANT TO HAPPEN BUT MUST ACCEPT, FEELINGS YOU DON’T WANT TO KNOW, BUT MUST ENDURE , LESSONS LEARNED, WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING, AND LOVE TORN FROM YOUR SOUL THAT MUST BE LET GO.
SUCH TRIBULATION A SUBMISSIVE BRINGS UPON HER HEART BY GIVING IT TOO SOON."
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its not about how much control you have, its about how you act when you dont have any at all. |
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if we have never spoken and have no rapport, please do not assume you may add me to your circle of friends.....that request will be ignored, denied and deleted. |
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"nature knows no right or wrong; only balance and imbalance." |
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"A submissve stands in her own shadow and wonders why its dark. For when you fully awaken, you will not know yourself. Understand this, and you will understand all."
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"dreams pass into the reality of action. from the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living."
~ Anais Nin ~ |
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thank God a new semester begings today, ive had way too much time on my hands. |
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"reputation is for time; character is for eternity."
~ J. B. Gough ~ |
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"the most common cause of failure in life is ignorance of one's own True Will, or of the means by which to fulfill that Will". |
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"Trust yourself. Create the kind of self you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement."
~ Golda Meir ~ |
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Confusious say: man with tiny dick has the biggest balls. (LL)
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"Every experience is a paradox in that it means to be absolute, and yet is relative; in that it somehow always goes beyond itself and yet never escapes itself."
~ T. S. Eliot ~ |
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what i have come to learn during my journey, is that most individuals in this lifestyle do not have a clue as to the magnitude involved. the majority of people on this site believe this lifestyle revolves around sex/kink....i feel sorry for them because they will never understand the depth of loyalty, honesty, love, and passion that i have come to learn.
when i first began my journey a number of years ago, i was privy to meet a couple quality individuals. They taught me about honor and respect and integrity. i never forgot those lessons, and i carry them even to this day. what i have been seeking all along is of a much higher plane than most can comprehend.
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thanks to all of Y/you for the many birthday wishes received...
may W/we all have a happy, healthy and prosperous new year. |
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happy birthday to meeeeeeeee |
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"pleasure of love lasts but a moment, pain of love lasts a lifetime."
~ Jean Pierre Claris De Florian ~ |
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the very best things in life are well worth the wait...
patience |
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life is good.....
merry Christmas to all |
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the best kept secrets are those we wont even reveal to ourselves. |
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dean's list (again)....
damn im gooooooooood. |
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the best relationship Y/you can ever have is
with Y/yourself... |
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"life consists not in holding good cards, but in playing those you hold well."
~ Josh Billings ~ |
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im just wondering.....is there a flag on my profile that says
"losers....please contact me"?
i just got an email from a moron that thinks im so pretty;
wonderful sentiment, however my ass is the only body part visible.
nuff said.......
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ok, laughing my ass off again....
this time a sub is looking for a Master to teach her how to be submissive,
on the phone to start but if things progress she will give up her boyfriend.
wtf........this shit kills me
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school's out for the summer....
oh wait, wrong month,
lol
happy holidays |
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i just saw a profile that made me laugh my ass off
"I am a serious Master"....wtf?
so whats the alternative?
"ooooops, I was just kidding"?,
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i know that someday, Someone is going to walk into my life
and make me realize that i can't live without Him
and why it was never meant to be with anyone else.
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"the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
~ Eleanor Roosevelt ~ |
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patience is not one of my virtues...
when will i learn |
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"each friend represents a world in us,
a world not born until they arrive,
and it is only by this meeting
that a new world is born."
~ Anais Nin ~ |
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self discovery is a painful journey. |
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"do not dwell in the past,
do not dream of the future,
concentrate the mind on the present moment."
~ Buddha ~
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"ive learned that people will forget what you said,
people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made them feel."
~ maya angelou ~ |
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"Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states
we have to go through. Where people fail is that they
wish to elect a state and remain in it.
This is a kind of death.
~ Anais Nin ~
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"how wrong is it for a woman to expect
the Man to build the world she wants,
rather than create it herself."
~Anais Nin ~ |
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"the only true wisdom is in knowing
you know nothing."
~ Socrates ~ |
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"thou art to me, a delicious torment."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson ~ |
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people say that today's vote will
send a message to the white house,
i hope its an eviction notice... |
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From: RomanceTooNY Dated: 10/31/10 4:08 PM What a classless, uneducated, self-absorbed twat. Another desperate old lady showing a blurry photo from twenty years ago...living in the past. No wonder you can't find a man and have been single for YEARS...
wow, did he really cally me a twat? ~giggles~
this was his response after i requested a pic...LMFAO...need i say more? |
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sometimes i wonder...
am i sitting on the right
side of the fence? |
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(scratching my head)
how can a man who cheats
on his spouse/significant other
call himself honest and say
he has integrity? |
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a man who cheats on his spouse or significant other
is not a Dominant...
he's a loser; i feel sorry for her
and the children involved.
at some point she will take everything you have...
good for her!!! |
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if male Dominants sought financial domination
they would be laughed out of the lifestyle.
why are things different for their
trashy female domme counterparts?
what a joke, lol. |
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unwritten rule of the day:
don't make eye contact while
eating a banana
~ giggles ~ |
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"i was born with an incredible need for affection,
and an even greater need to give it".
~ Audrey Hepburn ~ |
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this girl is searching for a true lifestyle Dominant,
not a man who "thinks" he is but someone who has actually
lived this lifestyle for a long period of time...
there's much to be said for experience. |
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~ yawn ~
integrity is a lonely place to be,
but worthwhile... |
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"meet and greets" become
tedious after awhile
~ deep sigh ~ |
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very curious...
why would a submissive
ive never spoken to,
have me blocked? hmmm |
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8 weeks, smoke free...
gotta love it |
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wow....enough if enough.
if im not interested,
get over it already. |
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why is it, when a submissive
rejects a Dominant she is perceived to
be a bitch, or even worse, a switch?
honesty and integrity are cornerstones
to ALL relationships, not just D/s.
might i suggest you get some
without striking back with
resentment. |
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i will only respond to
substantive emails
with pics,
all others will be deleted. |
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i give up...
why is it so difficult
to find who you want
as well as who you need? |
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im wondering....
how much trouble
can i get into
this weekend..... |
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amazing....
as of late, this site has
become more tedious and
boring than vanilla...
what fuckin eva |
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"the revelation of thought
takes men out of servitude
into freedom".
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson ~ |
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"i have the simplest tastes,
i am always satisfied with the best".
~ Oscar Wilde ~ |
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the main reason Santa is so jolly
is because
He knows where all the bad girls live.
~ giggles ~ |
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my 12 year old is trying
to fix me up...how depressing.
on a happier note,
football and homework...
~ sigh ~ |
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"the only way to get rid
of a temptation is to
yield to it".
~ Oscar Wilde ~
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"thou art to me
a delicious torment".
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson ~ |
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how do you let a Dominant know you are not
interested,
because you dont find Him
attractive?
i try to be tactful, but some
Doms are assholes....
lets face it, W/we all have to find O/our
partners attractive,
if thats shallow?...oh well...
it is what it is. |
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ok, enough time wasted on
the past....
time to move on.
in retrospect, it wasnt that good anyway,
just a way to kill time...live and learn.
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evidently someone has mastered the
copy/paste feature on this site
and has duplicated my profile and has
been viewing Dominants, not that that is
really a big deal, (at least they're attractive Doms)
but it makes me curious, hmmmm,
who would do such a thing?
perhaps a disgruntled ex or maybe
his current whore....
in any case.....lmfao |
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apparently, the collarme support team
did not appreciate my last journal entry because i "named names" and violated protocol, so to speak.
that's ok, it is what it is and those
of you that are my friends know the situation.
in any case...on to my rant...
it amazes me that an individual
can post their sexuality as
being straight on one site and
bisexual on another. i wasnt aware that sexuality is interchangable.
more often than not, if an idividual isnt sure
of their orientation by their middle ages,
they have serious issues.
perhaps therapy is in order...
live and learn. |
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liars and cheats and swingers...
oh my
lmao |
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there are some
(who shall remain nameless),
that have no sense of humor.
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straight Dominant males only;
NO bisexual males
NO switch males
No kidding |
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a number of years ago, i was a newbie and collared to my first and only Master. He was somewhat Old Guard and very high on protocol. He taught me about the beauty and wonderment of the D/s. He taught me that these relationships are full of ups and downs and pleasure and pain ( sometimes simultaneously). but He also taught me that the D/s is not about pain to the heart or soul, it is full of trust, and honor, and respect, and integrity, and yes, love.
during the last year and much retrospect, i often wonder what happened to the D/s. i suppose like everything else, it has changed and unfortunatley not for the better, at least not in my opinion.
trust when i tell Y/you, i have met my share of fakes and dreamers and those only interested in the sex and kink. i feel sorry for them because they have not experienced the beauty of this lifestyle and the D/s that i know to be true.
so in the meantime...i will live my life and wait for the Dominant who one day i can serve with my true self, the One who i can again one day call,
my Master.
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greetings and a special thank Y/you to my
dear F/friends on c/m.
Y/your words of
encouragement, praise, love,
and kindness have made
this difficult time in my life
much more bearable.
i love Y/you A/all.
~ leather ~
xoxo |
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the next time you are having a bad day, remember, you could be a conjoined twin stuck to your gay brother who has a date tonight and you are the only one with an ass... |
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4 weeks, 1 day
~big smile ~ |
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you are an inconsequential pest,
and a case of mind over matter...
i dont mind because you dont matter. |
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"THERE IS SUFFERING THAT YOU DON’T WANT TO HAPPEN BUT MUST ACCEPT,
FEELINGS YOU DON’T WANT TO KNOW,
BUT MUST ENDURE , LESSONS LEARNED WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING, AND LOVE TORN FROM YOUR SOUL THAT MUST BE LET GO.
SUCH TRIBULATION A SUBMISSIVE BRINGS UPON HER HEART BY GIVING IT TOO SOON."
thank You Sir,
that allows me to see things
from a different perspective. |
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“it takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before…
to test your limits…
to break through barriers,
and the day came
when the risk it took to
remain tight inside the bud
was more painful than
the risk it took to blossom".
~ Anais Nin ~ |
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i dont know what i want...
anymore
~ sigh ~ |
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my "level of submission"
was, is and shall always be
a direct response to a Dominant's
ability to seduce my mind...
physicalities are secondary.
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i am currently making some
changes in my life;
if You dont hear from me...
You're one of them.
have a nice day. |
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calling yourself a dominant means
about as much as standing
in a gargage calling yourself a car.
in my experience, a Dominant commands
with His presence not His label...
damn, is it getting hot in here? |
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Dear Interested Dominants,
if You are going to take the time to contact me, please create a substantive email. if Your message bores me to tears prior to a meeting, i can just imagine what a scene would be like with You (rolling my eyes, laughing out loud)
let's get real here, shall W/we? |
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ok....check this out,
now im not tooting my own horn
exactly, however,
ive been on the Dean's List 4
consecutive semesters and
somehow i keep attracting "Dominates".
can someone please explain to me what
the hell is a Dominate???
obviously they havent taught me what
i need to know in school and i cant seem to find that word in my thesaurus....
damn...wtf |
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Dean's List, again
yay for me...
school starts tomorrow
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benefits of being alone (part 3)
12. i can be my own amusement
13. i keep my promises
14. i have forgotten the meaning of protocol
15. i have no eye restrictions
16. i pee when i want/need
17. i serve myself, which makes me happy
to be continued... |
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benefits of being alone (part 2)
7. i don't have to feel guilty about wanting/doing something for myself.
8. i'm dont have to give a BJ when He has a wake-up woody...:)
9. if i want attention, i find it myself
10. i can inflate my own ego, instead of His....
11. i dont have to wear those tight assed corsets
to be continued... |
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there are benefits to being alone...
1. i answer to noone
2. i come (cum) and go as i please
3. i shave when i feel like it
4. i have removed "may i Sir" from my vocabulary
5. i sleep soundly, without a snoring Dom next to me
6. i can eat vegetables other than corn
to be continued... |
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almost 3 weeks since my last
cigarette
~ big smile ~ |
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oh hell...
back to the
drawing board.
~ sigh ~ |
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"there is a road which only thou can take.
ask not where it leads,
take it."
~ Nietzsche ~
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i will not be with a Man
who cannot admit
when He's wrong
and will not apologize. |
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You keep viewing my profile,
its redundant.
i do not regret my past;
i regret wasting my time
with people from my past. |
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smoke free ~ 18 days
and counting... |
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" it is not when truth is dirty,
but when it is shallow,
that the lover of knowledge is reluctant
to step into its waters".
~ Nietzsche ~ |
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after numerous failed "relationships",
my Mom suggested
i find a nice Man to date.
WTF...why didnt i think of that? |
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hypothetical situation;
a sub asks her Dom to make her a promise,
which He does.
a few weeks later He breaks that promise.
is the sub justified in her anger
or is she just naive and ignorant for
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finally made it to double digits,
smoke free...10 days.
woo hoo
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hey mel...grab the flogger
and come spank my ass ~wink~
im so tired of fucking bullshit from Doms.
maybe i should just go back to
being a bitch in a vanilla world...
yeah right, then id never get laid, lol.
omg, wtf am i saying??? must be the
happy pills, teehee |
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i have had a week from hell,
i am in serious need of some tlc
and romance.
God ... i miss romance |
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smoke free ~ 8 days
haven't used the patch in 2,
someone made me feel less than worthy,
needing a crutch for my addiction.
yay me ! |
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im not sure how much more
simply i can put this
but i shall try...
YO ASSHOLES...
I DONT WANNA MEET, I DONT WANNA DATE,
AND I DONT WANNA FUCK
JUST BECAUSE IM HERE DOES NOT MEAN IM LOOKING TO GET LAID,
(im sure my dildo is better than most of you, anyway)
JUST PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE...
(friends excluded, Y/you people are my support, and i love Y/you all) |
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searching my soul
for answers to questions
of the heart.
W/we make decisions based on
knowledge and past experience.
when O/our fount of knowledge expands
so does O/our wealth of information.
but yet, the fact remains...
it is what it is.
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smoke free.....day 5
i feel like im accomplishing something,
im proud of me.
~ smiles ~ |
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occassionally a Dominant will misjudge His submissive and administer 'tough love" when only understanding and tenderness is neccessary.
at those times He must "step up to the plate" and apologize in order for her to forgive. |
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smoke free 57 hours,
my sense of smell
and taste is improving. |
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smoke free...
19 hours and counting.
this is the most difficult thing
ive ever done. |
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its official...i quit smoking
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr |
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a friend is a friend,
it is what it is.
if she feels threatened, so be it,
tell her to bring it on...
~ grins ~ |
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the countdown is on...
2 days to go,
im ready |
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be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
~ Dr. Seuss ~ |
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7 days
til
i quit smoking... |
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sometimes...
i believe i am my own worst enemy.
insecurities
get the best of me
and i am of use to noone.
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A woman, in her fifties, is at home happily jumping unclothed, on her bed
and squealing with delight.
Her husband watches her for a while and asks, "Do you have any idea how
ridiculous you look? What's the matter with you?
The woman continues to bounce on the bed and says, "I don't care, what you
think.
I just came from having a mammogram, and the doctor says that not only am I
healthy, but I have the breasts of an 18 year-old.
The husband replies, "What did he say about your 55-year old ass?"
"Your name never came up," she replied. |
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im thinking,
perhaps, i should
learn to spank my own
ass |
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i hold my head up high
when i refer to myself
as a submissive...
labels are good.
~ grins ~ |
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ok, i have a question...
how does a Man know He's a Dom?
does he prove his dominance by
degrading his woma(e)n?
does he abuse her to the point that
she cannot distiguish between
mental abuse and discipline?
does he degrade her and share her with others?
in my opinion, this is not a Dominant,
that is a domineering asshole with a tiny pecker and an even smaller self worth and self esteem.
~ rant over ~ |
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is there any other reason to be on collarme on a sat. nite other than sheer bordem...
i should be working on my paper.
i guess i need a spanking.
~ grins ~ |
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im feeling a little bratty today...
perhaps i just need a good flogging.
~ smiles ~ |
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if she is worth it,
don't give up on her.
if You give up...
You are not worthy. |
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"one ought to hold on to one's heart;
for if one let's it go,
one soon loses control
of the head too".
~ Nietzsche ~ |
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what makes U/us unique
are the roads W/we've traveled,
the lives W/we have lived,
and even the things W/we have survived...
commonalities are only a basis for friendship;
but it's O/our imperfections
that make U/us perfect
for each O/other. |
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why do submissives find it
neccessary to show their
body parts on their profiles?
wtf?
i am so much more
than tits and ass.
do subs really need
possitive reinforcement,
to the point that they will degrade themselves?
thats sad
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~ smiles ~
all i can say is...
thank You Sir
xoxo |
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"to forget one's purpose
is the commonest form
of stupidity".
~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~
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wow
i dont have anything
to say today...
wtf? |
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affairs and cheating
are for mindless fools...
use you brain and grow some
balls. |
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i cannot believe the nerve
of some ...
wow
i guess some people cant have it "my way" |
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off to the bikes and blues fest
with my Dom...
enjoy Y/your day,
i know W/we will! |
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* smiles *
Sir is on His way...
let the fun begin
~ yummy ~ |
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sometimes....
a slap in the face is what's
required,
to bring things into
perspective |
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discreet play = married, commited
individuals.
if the cheater wont leave their
significanat other for themselves,
what makes you think,
they will leave for you?
(rolling my eyes) dumb asses. |
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"W/we cannot go back and
start a new beginning,
but W/we can start today,
and make a new ending".
~ unknown ~ |
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do not refer to me as an "it".
i am many things...mother, lover, friend, confidante, daughter, student, woman...
but NOT an "it".
i have a brain and a backbone
and my Dominant will attest
to that.
i do, however, feel sorry for those
that feel the need to
degrade themselves as such.
there is a cure for low self
esteem,
its called integrity...get some. |
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ok...i dont get this.
why do Doms/Masters place pics of their subs/slaves
in their profiles?
is it a power trip? wtf?
get a clue you morons.
no self respectong Dominant wants
to share His gift with the world.
can you say....
low self esteem? |
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"the true Man wants two things;
danger and play.
for that reason He wants woman,
as the most dangerous plaything".
~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~ |
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"a woman may very well form a friendship with a Man, but for this to endure, it must be assisted by a little physical antipathy".
~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~
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i adore seeing the smile
on my Dominant's face...
and i love it even more,
when i know i'm the one that put it there. |
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trust is an aphrodisiac...
thank You, Sir |
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"love is...
giving Him the power to destroy you
and
trusting He will not". |
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calling Yourself a Master or a Mistress
within O/our lifestyle doesnt
make it so,
any more than standing in a garage
makes You a car.
earn the title...then live by it. |
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i am a submissive and i cherish
that fact.
is that all i am?
i think not...
i am a woman, mother,
daughter, student,
and friend.
i am intelligent, spirited,
dynamic, and loyal to those i love.
i also have my fears and insecurities,
but do not misjudge that
for weakness.
do i possess slave tendancies?
no,
will i ever?
absolutley not.
am i a switch?
hell no, been there, tried that...
failed miserably.
i am what i am.
i adore and respect the D/s and this
lifestyle W/we choose.
do i have limits...
yes,
but i trust the Dominant i am with,
with my life,
therefore
limits are not neccessary.
i am a submissive,
and im proud
to bear that title.
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teach me, dear Creature,
how to think and speak.
lay open to my earthy, gross conceit,
smothered in errors,
feeble, shallow, weak,
the folded meaning of Your words' deceit.
against my soul's pure truth
why labour You
to make it wander in an
unknown field?
are You a God?
would You create me new?
transform me then,
and to Your power i will yield.
~ Shakespeare ~ |
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from the moment W/we met,
my life has progressivley gotten better.
i strive to please You
because i know it makes me a better
person.
i was blessed the day You found me
and i am amazed that O/our
relationship keeps getting better.
i am in awe of Your patience,
understanding,
and kindness.
You, dear One,
are my strength and
voice of reason.
i am proud to be Your
considered one.
thank You, Sir. |
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"the price of anything is the amount of life
Y/you exchange for it".
~ Henry David Thoreau ~ |
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i will not serve a domme...
get real |
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yes, i know...lately ive been on a Shakespeare kick, for which i will not apologize. this is truly one of my favorites.
" weary with toil, i haste to my bed,
the dear repose for limbs with travel tired;
but then begins a journey in my head,
to work my mind, when body's work expired;
for then my thoughts, from far where i abide,
intend a zealous pilgrimage to thee,
and keep my drooping eyelids open wide,
looking on darkness which the blind do see;
save that my soul's imaginary sights
presents thy shadow to my sightless views,
which, like a jewel hung in ghastly night,
makes black night beauteous, and her old face new.
lo, thus, by day my limbs, by night my mind,
for thee and for myself no quiet find".
~ William Shakespeare ~
Sonnet 27 |
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good day to A/all...
im in an incredibly good mood today,
not sure why but
ive learned not to question a good thing
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ive recently discovered two new phrases within this lifestyle W/we live...
personal disclaimer: my Dominat does not fall into either of these catagories...thankfully.
1. 3M (aka) Micro Managing Master - this is a Dominant who must know your every move, literally, including but not limited to: urinary habits, bowel movements, dietary intake, sleep rituals, personal contacts...and my personal favorite...breathing pattern; how many breaths do you take in a 24 hour period.
Can you say .... Master Babysitter?
2. DD/s (aka) Dyslexic Dominant/submissive - this Dominant has a condition involving difficulties in acquiring and processing different roles. this poor Sir forgets which way it up...literally. unfortunatley, this condition manifests itself into "topping from the bottom", whereas the Dominant thinks He's the bottom.
just thought i'd share a little humor on an otherwise gloomy day.
oh, one more thing...apparently there are some who are offended by my journal entries. well, ummm, it is my journal, therefore i respectfully say, get the fuck over it. |
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"it is not in the stars
to hold O/our destiny
but in O/ourselves".
~ William Shakespeare ~ |
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happiness equals reality
minus expectations...
i am a very happy submissive.
~ smiles ~ |
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~ new rant, old subject ~
i am simply amazed by the number of married "Doms" who claim to be "honest and sincere".
ok so, let me get this straight...you're searching for an extra-marital affair to cheat on your spouse...does that mean the ONLY person you're lying to is your significant other?
yup....thats honest |
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"women have a wonderful instinct
about things...they can discover
everything except the obvious".
~ Oscar Wilde ~ |
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my wish to A/all of Y/you
is to have a
wonderful weekend...
i know my Dom and i will
~ big smile ~
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"any piece of clothing can be sexy
with a quietly passionate woman
inside it".
~ anonymous ~
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without Your Dominance,
i cannot submit...
without my submission,
You cannot Dominate.
life is good. |
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"it is difficult to know
at what moment love begins;
it is less difficult to know that it has begun."
~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow ~
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"thou hast been...
a Man that fortune's buffet and rewards
has taken with equal thanks...
give me that Man that is not
passion's slave, and i will wear Him
in my hearts's core, aye,
in my heart of hearts
as i do thee".
~ William Shakespeare ~ |
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its been a fantastic weekend so far...
good food, great family and
an excellent Dominant.
life is good. |
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life lesson #1
expect the unexpected |
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to surrender does not
make one weak...
it simply means, one
is strong enough to let go. |
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"for it was not into my ear You whispered,
but into my heart.
it was not my lips You kissed,
but my soul".
~ Judy Garland ~ |
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sometimes...
the past comes back
to bite U/us on the ass...
not neccessarily a good thing. |
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seduction is not making S/someone do what T/they do not want to do...
seduction is enticing S/someone into doing what T/they secretly want to do already. |
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"a true Man wants two things;
danger and play.
for that reason He wants woman,
as the most dangerous
plaything".
~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~ |
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dip me in chocolate,
and call me dessert...
please |
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wonderful day...
long day...
very sleepy
gmite |
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family events happening today...
its all good |
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mmmmmm
dinner,
the races,
and earth shattering sex...
does it get any better? |
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another deliciously decadent afternoon,
You're spoiling me Sir...
yummy |
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why are 19 year olds viewing a 50 year old sub's profile????
maternal issues perhaps?
ew...can a 19 year old dominate anything?
ew...ew...ew
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not going to school today...
dont feel like it |
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my submission is not about being "submissive enough".....its like being a little pregnant, you either are or you're not. the desire to please One individual needs to be there, and very often that is preceeded by inspiration. a submissive will "feel" a closeness to her Dominant and her desire to please Him will become overwhelming.
experience is a wonderful teacher and the only training neccessary is that of the One a submissive chooses to serve. time, patience, and tenacity are key factors within this lifestyle W/we choose.
noone ever said this journey is an easy one for all parties concerned, however it is well worth the time invested when all the pieces fall into place and T/two become O/one. |
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i recently met a Dominant, who i believe,
"get's me".
now, let's see if He can handle
a "handful", lol
let the journey continue...
smile Sir, just as i am. |
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bike blessing, yay!!!!!
cant wait |
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sapiosexuality (n.) a behavior of becoming attracted to or aroused by intelligence and its use...
enough said |
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i dream of the day when i can wake up to the face that knows the pain and fears i have endured,
and can make me forget they ever existed. |
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a brand new day...
a whole new set of possibilities
~ smiles ~ |
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"nothing is so strong as
real gentleness,
and nothing is so gentle
as real strength". |
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ok, a new rant...
if you are a married man or
have a significant other,
im sure you have a wide variety
of reasons to justify your infidelity.
however, please be advised...
i dont give a fuck.
if you cant top your spouse,
you certainly dont have balls big enough to
dominate this girl.
yes, yes, yes...i know,
she doesnt understand you,
she thinks kink is disgusting,
you're staying for the children,
or my personal favorite...
you're "saving up" for a divorce.
that being said,
i dont give a rat's ass about your
problems.
truth be told, you are a
self serving, self centered,
selfish individual who cannot
honor a commitment.
so let me ask you a question...
why would any self respecting submissive
get involved with a man
who lies, cheats and
cannot be trusted,
certainly not this one.
get a fucking clue...
rant over
p.s. one last thing:
my apologies to my married friends, but you are all well aware of my feelings regarding this subject.
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a number of years ago, my former Master informed me which local doms to stay away from...if i dont reply to your messages, you're probably one of them. |
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this girl can sum up what she has learned
about life in 3 words...
it goes on |
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needs to learn patience....ugh
~ sigh ~
is glad its bedtime... |
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girl has learned so much from her mistakes, that she thinks she will
make some more |
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the only things in life this girl regrets are the risks she didn't take... |
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trying to be as patient as possible and let things work out on their own but it's got my stomach all twisted in knots because i just don't know... |
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someday....
i hope to be Someone's priority,
not just an object to fill a void.
perhaps i'll find that One,
someday.... |
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good judgment comes from experience...
experience,
comes from poor judgment.
live and learn. |
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sometimes...
when a girl fucks up,
the hardest person to admit it to,
is herself. |
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loves blooms day by day,
as does a
yellow rose |
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thank you, dear one, for a truly wonderful time. it is a fact...
gentlemen do exist. |
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delicious, delightful, decedant
desires... |
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its not what a woman wears that makes her sexy....its her attitude,
but the attire helps.
~ smiles ~ |
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thinking about.....
feeling delicious...mmmmm |
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life's journey is about choices...
and life's choices are about chances... |
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the thing about gray skies...
they always clear |
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things are looking brighter...the journey continues... |
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new semester starts wednesday...cant wait! |
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the longer this girl is on this site, the more she realizes those of substance are few and far in between. her wishes are conveyed through her profile and yet she has to muddle through the waste.
wise Ones have told her not to give up the search....all is not lost, but with all due respect, she disagrees. obviously quality I/individuals no longer meander this site and as she sits here and shakes her head, she wonders whatever happened to the lifestyle she adores. she has learned through experience, that the D/s is the purest form of trust and respect and yes, ideally, love. that seems to have been lost to sex and kink and stupidity.
she understands more than some that O/one must take the bad with the good...but when the bad and unworthy outnumber the genuine and respecful, its difficult to keep a positive perspective. |
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one week till D-day, lol.....cant wait til next weekend |
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sighs...
this girl needs a night
out |
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the girl does not understand why she's not being understood. what is there not to understand? a Dominant knows what He wants and so does a submissive. when the two do not mesh, there's no sense in forcing the issue; just let it be. if He has an ounce of a brain, He'll know im talking to Him. this girl has been hit on by everything imaginable, and she's growing weary.
she sits back and wonders....why cant He find her, her One, the One she wishes to devote her life to and share all the nuances that can make life spectacular.
she is so forelorn and dejected and is so close to giving up hope. please Sir, find me and find me soon.
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a Man who always seeks to be the best He can be for you is the only Man truly worthy of being called Master.
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still basking in the glow
of her 4.0
yay me! |
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"a collar isnt neccessary once a girl's heart, mind and soul are bound" |
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if you learn one thing
from a bad choice...
then it was worth it |
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a wise Dominant told the girl
"a slut belongs to One, a whore belongs to no one, but is used by everyone"
and
He told me "i am no whore..."
well put Sir...thank You
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its official...
grades were posted
4.0
damn, the girl is good
WOW!!!! |
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a "slut" is an earned title of endearment, given to her by her One....a whore is simply that, just a common whore...
big difference |
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"The only hurt you will experience is that which you desire"
yummy |
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knowledge is power...putting that knowledge to use...is wisdom |
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today the girl was called
"a diamond in the rough"
thank You Sir |
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apparently, needy = wanting to spend time
with your Dom...
note to self:
dont do that again,
especially when He's
playing with another
(unbeknownst to you, of course) |
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not into trans, bi's, subs,
couples or
men from rochester
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the girl dumped her Dom and all of a sudden she is impatient, needy and a loser,
giggles...
go figure |
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when two P/people are not on the same page...it's time to close the book |
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uncertainty is hell
indifference...
is worse |
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searching for the "One" who can
seduce her mind,
capture her heart,
and
touch her soul
is craving and desiring her "One".
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this girl will probably get alot of shit for this but she really doesnt care....she has read hundreds of posts from women claiming to be Dommes who's opening line on their profile reads , "you must adresses me as this or you must respect my title or you must offer financial servitude". give me a fucking break. any true Dominant male knows that He must earn the respect of His potential submissive. there should be no difference for a true Domme.
this girl has been on and off this site for a number of years, and it always amazes her that a Domme does not seem to be held accountable, as that of Her male counterpart. the girl has never had a Dom demand money or anything else for that matter, until He has proven Himself to be trustworthy and respectful.
this girl's opinion is this...if you ladies demand perfection, be perfect, if you want substance, be substantive, if you demand money....earn your own.
you cannot expect something for nothing.
a submissive is not a rug to be walked upon. like you, we have a mind, heart and soul...
get a clue |
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if the girl doesnt respond, she's not interested,
period...
get over it |
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the relief this girl feels at this precise moment is overwhelming...
school's out for 15 days
yay!!!!!! |
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working on another 4.0....yay!
the girl is a smart one...
~giggles~ |
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the mouth can speak anything, but the eyes tell the real story |
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spent last night all alone...
did some quiet reflection,
that was depressing.
ate a ton of ice cream,
that was even more depressing.
i think my vanilla is showing,
sigh... |
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i feel like i have been on a rollarcoaster this week. the end of the semester is taking its toll on me and has somewhat clouded my judgement on personal matters. i have been short tempered, bratty, impatient, bitchy and just plain old hard to get along with. today is a new day, however...hopefully the skies will begin to clear.
to those of Y/you that i have angered or upset, please accept my humble apology |
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for this girl, submission is not just a journey...it is a process and a progression |
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tenderness and kindness are not signs of weakness or dispair but rather manifestations of strength and resolution |
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every journey teaches U/us something
but
its up to U/us to learn the lesson
actions speak louder than words |
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finals this week, been working my ass off...i need some serious D/s time...hint, hint
lol |
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thank you kind one, you simply have no idea what your gesture meant to me...
"i get by with a little help from my friends".
and you clearly are a friend, i can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. thank you. |
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mindbound...leave me alone |
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isnt it ironic, that those who have no clue about the intricacy/simplicity of the D/s are the ones that are quickest to make judgements |
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my love, my respect, my adoration and my passion is directly proportional to His ability to Dominate me |
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dear Sirs,
if W/we have not had prior contact please do not add this girl to Your friends list and assume she will accept. You will be mistaken. thank You |
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read the profile Gentlemen
the girl is not interested in long distance
get real
local ONLY |
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i am a woman who is direct when it comes to boundaries and expectations.. yet when in a relationship, i'm focused on pleasing, perhaps to the point where i lose my sense of "self". so to protect myself from mistakes and misjudgements, i may be a bit tough at first, but You already know that. when i feel its right for me, my surrender is potentially deep, and from the heart.. i love deeply, obediently and completley. i surrender fully.. but i'm waiting for the One i can trust enough to give this part of me. my initial toughness makes me uncomfortable at times and causes me doubt and introspection. but i have learned to stick with it, i am tenacious, and i weed out the ones who sounds great for a month, but disappoint soon after...
i want more than anything, to be called to my Dominant's lap, to see his eyes as i obey him, anticipating the sense of safety and security i find there, and embracing the vulnerability i feel once i curl up where i belong.
i am almost to a point where i am desperately thirsting to serve. i will only be happy and satisfied when i am at His feet, where i belong... i desire to be totally honest and open so that i can surrender and serve beyond my Master's wildest dreams. i long to be His. i realize that the only way i can be adored is through my complete surrender...and that my submission must be total... for my love, my respect, my adoration and my passion is directly proportional to His ability to Dominate me | |
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wanted:
one Dom with bigger balls than me |
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happy easter
to
One and A/all |
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the girl needs to step back and regroup |
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the time T/they spend together are etched in her mind
could He be the One?
she smiles...touches her lips
and thinks of Him |
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dear Sirs,
if W/we have not had prior contact please do not add this girl to Your friends list and assume she will accept. You will be mistaken. thank You. |
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will You ease my fear
will You break down my walls
will You take me to new heights
will You respect my limits
will You forgive me when i err
will You catch me when i fall
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she yearns to come to Him
with defenses down
she craves His touch
so gentle, yet firm
she desires the passion
that few possess
she will see His pride
as she serves her One |
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things one should never say to a Dom:
1. You expect me to do what?
2. You're kidding me , right?
3. wtf?
4. are You done yet?
5. is there a point to this conversation?
6. yeah, ok....whatever You say,
7. i want ________.
8. can W/we just get this over with?
9. whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
10. dumb da dumb Dom.
again a word of caution...be ever so careful what you ask for...at some point, you will get it, lol. |
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its time for this girl to explore new horizons, stretch her limits and reach for the stars.
replaying pieces of conversation in her mind...
could she...would she...should she
"life is a dance, we learn as we go"
pondering the possibilities |
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this girl cannot receive chat requests on this site |
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yes, i know my profile is long,
buts it candid
and
allows the Reader to know
exactly where the girl is coming from |
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when one chapter ends
another begins...
live, learn
and
forever be happy |
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just got my cartiledge pierced yesterday
ouch
thank God i can tolerate pain
lol. |
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after a brief hiatus
and some much needed soul searching,
i have come to the realization,
that life is absolutley
a wonderful gift.
when one door closes...
another door opens,
it's almost a given.
what we think we want
is not neccessarily what we need, and sometimes we have to think...
did we ever really want it to begin
with or was it just
circumstance? |
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submission is not about sex, its a mindset. its a beauty that comes from the very soul of a submissive. it is a breaking down of the walls built up in her lifetime, allowing the trusting, sensual woman to come forward. submission is about sensuality. its about trust, communication, vulnerability, caring, and honesty. its about being the graceful, sensual, beautiful woman that resides within. submission is about knowing who you are, and what you want. a submissive is not weak, but just the opposite....she is strong, intelligent, loving, giving, often opinionated and sometimes bratty. she has much to offer to her One, but in this girl's opinion, He must prove Himself worthy.
there's much to be said for rules and protocol...
how can a submissive offer her servitude
if she doesnt understand His wishes and/or
expectations.
this thing that W/we do is a lifestyle, not a game.
it comes from within and is every bit as important as the vanilla life we
lead.
this girl finds that she cannot reach her potential without
structure...she needs it, just as the air she breathes. |
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a dear Dominant friend of mine wrote the following entry and i found it to be beautifully and passionately written. i asked his permission to post it in my journal, which He allowed.
it is also this girl's sentiments exactly.
I love perfect kisses … those you never want to stop …
Kissing is mechanical. Put your lips together and place them wherever you wish to plant that kiss: a cheek, a hurt hand, another set of puckered lips … In any case, it doesn’t take a lot of effort; it doesn’t take a lot of talent; it doesn’t involve thought or emotional involvement. Neither party is really invested in the act itself or in the outcome. It is just what it is.
Now … a “perfect kiss” is quite different. A “perfect kiss” engages every fiber of your being. It awakens, arouses and stimulates every sense. It stirs your soul. And, it moves you mind, body and spirit into another dimension. That other dimension is timeless and belongs only to the pair of lovers sharing that kiss: for the duration of that kiss nothing is permitted to permeate or intrude. Time is frozen as neither lover withdraws and each seduces the other deeper and deeper into a more intimate space – it is a binding and luscious commitment.
The mind is fully engrossed in a “perfect kiss” – it’s the first bodily dimension to engage. The mind’s eye sees what is not in the real physical world. Eyes shut tight, the mind imagines, fantasizes, magnifies that moment in time. Neurons fire in sporadic and uncontrollable bursts that create vivid and vibrant colors, and brilliant imagery opening the door to deep-seated and long repressed fantasies and the primitive forces within. The mind is the gatekeeper of your dormant passions and desires; your most potent sensual and carnal appetites; and, your conscious and unconscious cravings. The “perfect kiss” is the key that releases these latent forces.
The “perfect kiss” has an indescribable taste: one that is intimately familiar yet radically distinctive for no two lovers may produce the same flavorful blend. It is wet, luscious and delectable growing more so by the millisecond as the salivary glands are aroused, enraptured by the mingling of one lovers seasoning of the other. The tongue aches and probes more deeply as each taste bud yearns for stimulation, each desperately seeks satiation.
The “perfect kiss” has a unique fragrance produced by the co-mingling of bodily scents – the chemical blending of two sets of aromas – creating an entirely new, separate and distinct bouquet. A scent no other pair of lovers could replicate. During the “perfect kiss” the body becomes fully alive. Perspiration surfaces on the skin – a pervasive tingling sensation intensifies – heightening the flow of electricity which promotes the secretion of bodily scents and further delights the olfactory system.
The “perfect kiss” resonates with its own vocabulary: guttural, primitive sounds that emanate from deep within your body, escaping gasps and whispers that originate from the depths of your lungs and release involuntarily. It’s the wheezing of your own breathlessness; the pounding of your heart; the throbbing of your blood-flow accelerating; the pulsing of your intensified electrical flow – all sound vibrations which speak of your body’s awakening, and the stirring of forces buried deep inside and their indefinable yearnings. But there is also an orchestrated harmony as your partner’s sounds begin to play-off your own. As that “perfect kiss” builds so too does the crescendo of that involuntary harmony.
The “perfect kiss” has a physicality to it which is triggered by the activation of each sensory system – the body is unable to resist where the mind, and the other senses, are taking it. Your pulse quickens, your lungs search for air drawing harder and pulling deeper, and, as they do they enliven the taste and smell and hearing sensors already stirring. Touch receptors throughout the body scream for activation – for stimulation – they demand their equitable share of sensory involvement and participatory bliss.
The sensory system overloads producing the perfect state of arousal. Your soul calls out for ineffable ecstasy, while your mind, body and spirit in unison unleash your primal energy: a furious, primitive force buried deep within you that desperately wants liberation, urgently needs release. The mind, although first to engage, cannot reassert control once this most primitive beast within is awakened, and the beast will not rest until sated. The “perfect kiss” represents a wholesale surrender by one … and the complete consumption by the other … and the absorption of one lover by and for the other is complete. |
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i read this in a profile earlier this evening and i found it quite eloquent and ohhhh so true.
The D/s Paradox...is the tenderness of Dominance, the freedom of restraint and the pleasure of pain.
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i am a woman who is direct when it comes to boundaries and expectations.. yet when in a relationship, i'm focused on pleasing, perhaps to the point where i lose my sense of "self". so to protect myself from mistakes and misjudgements, i may be a bit tough at first, but You already know that. when i feel its right for me, my surrender is potentially deep, and from the heart.. i love deeply, obediently and completley. i surrender fully.. but i'm waiting for the One i can trust enough to give this part of me. my initial toughness makes me uncomfortable at times and causes me doubt and introspection. but i have learned to stick with it, i am tenacious, and i weed out the ones who sounds great for a month, but disappoint soon after...
i want more than anything, to be called to my Dominant's lap, to see his eyes as i obey him, anticipating the sense of safety and security i find there, and embracing the vulnerability i feel once i curl up where i belong.
i am almost to a point where i am desperately thirsting to serve. i will only be happy and satisfied when i am at His feet, where i belong... i desire to be totally honest and open so that i can surrender and serve beyond my Master's wildest dreams. i long to be His. i realize that the only way i can be adored is through my complete surrender...and that my submission must be total... for my love, my respect, my adoration and my passion is directly proportional to His ability to Dominate me. |
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The Dominant and His submissive
Theirs is a relationship like no other. Lightly formal within their interaction with one another yet at the same time, deeper and closer than most people will ever have the luxury to experience. Their closeness comes from the knowledge and acceptance that the girl is His. His sub. His property.
He owns her to the core of her being. He not only loves her, with a greater passion and depth than He has ever known; He also cares for her. He cares for her that of a thoroughbred or fine luxury automobile, for that is what she is to Him. His possession. His most prized possession, to be handled with the greatest of care. He makes sure she is of top form physically and mentally. He wants her to be the best she can be at all times to serve Him as He wishes. He wants her fit and flexible so He exercises her daily, keeping her body sensual and strong, not only for His use and view when He looks upon her, but also for her own confidence in the beauty of her naked body when taking any position that He orders. He keeps her healthy feeding her only nutritious foods. He keeps her clean and beautiful, making sure her hands and feet are well manicured so that they are soft and supple when they touch upon His skin, Her hair is soft and silky when He runs His fingers through her hair should He desire to. her face is well kept and softly made up only enhancing her beauty should He care to gaze upon her face or into her eyes. He keeps her mind clear and fresh, free from toxins and impurities so that she is alert and bright in her servitude to Him. He shows her unconditional love and tenderness, as she is also a woman who needs to be shown she is desired, loved and cherished. He is kind and good to her, never breaking the undying trust she puts in Him. He keeps her from harm and protects her, keeping her safe, as she is His. He uses her for His pleasure. He enacts through her every desire and whim His dark deviant mind conceives. He is free to completely fulfill all His desires and fantasies with her. He takes her to her sexual peaks and edges, pushing her further each time. He exacts his luscious torments upon her trembling flesh as it pleasures His sadistic nature to do so. He is withheld nothing of her body or mind and He uses them both at his will. He keeps her submissive to Him. He holds her firm. Though speaking in kind manner, He orders directly to her as He would in giving a command to His trained German Shepherd. He does not mince words. He does not cruelly tease or torment her. He is forthright. He is honest. He orders her, asking her knowing she will obey without question or hesitation. He marks her. He whips her for she needs it to know she is His. He disciplines her, swiftly and effectively should she displease Him. He does not wait nor make promises of later. He lets her know she has displeased Him immediately, He tells her how to correct herself, as she should have done, then His punishment comes swift and exact. He does this so she will always know she will get away with nothing. She should never try. When He has punished her and she has suffered His wrath. She is forgiven. She is tenderly kissed and shown that she is still loved and treasured as the prize that she is to Him. He is beyond words with how deeply He loves this girl, this submissive that has given herself to Him to completely to possess for all her days.
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