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To love is to be vulnerable" - C.S. Lewis
I can't be sure of course exactly in which way C.S. Lewis meant his quote but i'll take the liberty of interpreting it my way.
I believe to be vulnerable to someone - completely, without fear, whole heartedly and lovingly- without any walls, literal or metamorphical is the most sincere gift of love one can offer.
A friend once told me about a story where Gautam Buddha said "Let it go"
I enjoy of the feeling of letting it go. Letting go of all your ego, letting go of a mask you carry around you for so long in life - and kneeling , naked of all pretense, ready to be molded. Molded, by a strong, loving, confident woman.
I yearn:
To tremble as I feel her presence close to me, knowing after she touches me I'll never be the same. My heart beating faster knowing that she knows as she touches me she'll never be the same again.
To hold my breath as I lower my eyes when she looks at me not sure whether she'll smile at my effort to please her, or push me to do better.
To feel the intense pain her lovely hands inflict on me, the pupose of the pain to push me to spheres i've never been to. The pain helps to push out everything else and only concentrate on the pain and the one giving the pain until eventually the pain disappears and all the remains is the purest bond between the give of pain and the receiver of it.
Of course, I'm also a bit of a pain slut so it thrills me to see you smile as you cause me pain :). I 'll enjoy teasing you, while I massage your feet keeping that smiles on your face.
I'll love your smile :) .......and the warmth of your hand both when you slap me(!) or when we're on long walks, or lying on the grass looking at the sky above.
I'm waiting for you.....Are you here ?
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