Ldnmastr

Hello world. Anyone want to chat make a new friend....(crickets) anyone ????

Here we are on the cusp of Christmas. As I've gotten older, I no longerr love the snow and winter season. I'm trying to move south but so far have not gotten out of Virginia. Santa, all I want for Christmas is a good submissive woman. Such a reasonable request.

It's a snowy week end coming up. Wish I was further south! 

In case you are reading this profile to find out more about me please read all you want. However, let me give you some answers up front.

I'm looking for a submissive with slave tendencies or a slave. I'm looking full time not scenes or only in the bedroom.

I want a natural submissive not someone who "thinks she might learn to be" submissive 

Redheads go to front of line but I love all colors. My girl will be height weight proportionate or will to get that way under my guidance.

Ladies, let's be able to have a discussion without using the word like in every sentence. 

Is this list to much to ask?

Made some corrections to my dated profile. Now it's off line. 

So...I'm 6'5" 255# ish average body. Been and out of lifestyle for 30 hrs.

Widowed. My wifeslave died of cancer. Now, after 10 hrs I'm looking.

Ask me anything. I seek a submissive or slave who finds her sense of purpose in serving and pleasing her Master. 

I'm in SW VA. 

 Thanksgiving is just around the corner. What am I thankful for this year of 2024?

I'm thankful for a good submissive wife who died way too young. She completed me. I'm thankful for grown kids who love me and check on Dad from time to time. :-)

I'm thankful for my health. In my mid60's and only take 2 medicine. Both for BPH. Look it up...lol

I'm thankful for the opportunity to seek a new life partner. A slave who will complete me as I do her.

I'm thankful you are reading this.

Well, here it is the middle of Oct. And I was suppose to be happy in another state. But...no such luck.

Now I'm still here in SW VA for the foreseeable  future. I'm pinching pennies and making plans.

Everyone's journal is different. Some use it to write fantasy dreams. Others use it to give a look into their world and or mind. Some use it as a daily place to record emotions and maybe vent. What do you use it for?

Me, I use it mostly to vent or express my emotions. I'm not an open book type person. I have to have a lot of trust to really let anyone see inside, this just gives a peek.

This morning I was inspired  to write  more  often  in my journal.  It is not easy sharing my self even here.

However I am going to try. Stay tuned.

It's been a year since I posted anything. I'm retired and planning a move to South Alabama.

Florida is just to expensive! I will be about 90 minutes from Gulf so I'm happy.

I wonder if I will ever find someone. I want someone who will love me and put my needs/desires first.

I in turn will own them and treat them as my most prized possession. I will care for, protect and cherish their gift to me.

I plan to move early Sept.

Im sitting here in the sunshine. I love it!!

Nothing lifts my spirits like a day of warm sunshine. I've always stayed out in the sun. Had some deep dark tans...but next week i go to get 2 MORE skin cancers removed from my back.

Still, if i had to do it all over again...i would, just a little more sunscreen next time.

Did I make a mistake ? i spoke briefly with a slave in sc. She seemed really nice. When i did a bit of background on her, i saw she lived in an upscale area and had a well paying job. 

Now, im not poor, just lower middle class. I honestly was intimidated by her most likely higher status.

Was i wrong? Yeah, in retrospect i think i was. Ive been with LEOs and other people of prominance. I dont know what happened thus time.

I love animals. I have 2 dogs, a German Shepherd and a border collie. I also have a cat i rescued when he was near death. One thing that makes dogs. And some cats special is their unconditional love. They love and live for their master. He is their world. 

Now, i bet you know where this is going...a slave is just like that IMHO. They l9ve their Master and they live for his pleasure. Somehow, the Master's joy and pleasure becomes theirs as well. There are many other similarites, Masters owned the property. They care for it, cherish it even. They take their responsibilites seriously. If they are a good owner. We all have read of owners who have neglected or abused their pets. This is a betrayal of the trust that pet puts in them The saddest part is even then, that pet still loves that Master.

Jig saw puzzles. Do you loke them? I don't, but like passing a car wreak, when i pass a jig saw puzzle i have to try and fit a couple of pieces. Are you like that too? Now what in the world does thiz have to do with BDSM... i'm glad you asked. 

Doms look for that sub who is the missing piece of himself. Submissives do the same.. We try lots of pieces to find the one that fits. Unfortunately some never find their piece. Now this could be a downer, except that i've discovered that a piece that is close can be molded and shaped so that it is a perfect fit. You must start with something reasonably close, but it can be done.

Someone commented that my journal was kinda a downer. My words not theirs. 

Looking back, they are exactly right. Its past time for me to share the good things in my life, which are many.

For anyone who reads this, bear with me as i gather my thought and begin again.

Well well well. Here i am again. Time has past, I'm  older but no happier. I dont get on here much or the F--life site. Whats the use?

Im not feeling sorry for myself just being realistic. There is no one for me. 

Happy New Year.

Life can be very difficult. Lost my best friend to cancer. Promises to move on seem much harder now to keep. Doesnt feel like anyone cares, but I know thats just emotion.

Anyone want to chat?

BDSM is such a complicated world. There are so many different aspects to this world. I understand when a sub says she doesnt know what she is exactly or what she wants.

I've been in it for years and some days I don't know exactly what I want..lol..Learning about this world takes both "book learning" and hands on training. Or if we prefer, "learning the ropes" It really is amazing how diverse we can be.

RANDOM THOUGHTS...

I find it curious to look at a profile and see the sub is "lonely' then as I check out the full profile I find she has 30-40 friends.  Just doesn't seem to fit in my way of thinking.

Had a sub in Cali write me this AM...how she got my profile I'll never know. I suspect it was just a scam artist at work. Sorry babe, no sugar daddy here.

I need excitement in my life. I've been living very vanilla for a while and it just hit me how colorless and empty it feels. I may look into skydiving again, or rock climbing.  Not as good as a devoted sub, but better than vanilla ...

I was wondering this morning as I looked at profiles, "why don't you just contact a bunch of possible subs and talk with them all and see what happens?" and yes, I do talk to myself :)

I answered myself with this..assuming I do start a dialog with 3-4 submissives and find at least one that is a good fit..how do I tell the others, sorry, you're not good enough, for that is what most will hear regardless of how I say it . Rather than engage several, I will just continue to try and speak with one at a time.

A slow process but best I think for right now.

BRRrr it's cold! Winter seems to be moving in quickly. The time change also brings darkness sooner. all in all leaves me feeling bummed. I'm kind of lonely, wishing I could have someone to talk with that was be a possible playmate, student.

So drop me a line.

Good morning CM world!

Today I'm fighting a monster headache, but I'll survive.LOL...

Was talking with a sub a couple of weeks ago, she wanted to "learn" more about the life, wanted a good spanking and more, so I made plans to meet with her, then she stopped responding to my messages and has disappeared.

I know there are players among the sub set, just like there are "Dom" who are players. I just wish people could be honest; could say, I'm afraid to meet in person, I'm not as sure now if this is what I want, or even, sorry no longer interested.

I love to teach and be a mentor, but a student must follow the teachers instructions to learn...

Here I am again. Guess I'll blog a bit here. I miss the old days...LOL..the yrs 2005-2010 when BDSM was not so trendy and there were not so many players and pretenders around. I helped several ladies discover their place in a submissive lifestyle and we both enjoyed the training.Now, its just not the same. "Looking for a Master to own me" yeah, sure you are sugar, until he tells you something you don't want to hear, like "bring me the cane and lay across the bed". These folks just really want some kinky sex and a BDSM roleplay for a few minutes. That is all fine if everyone knows that is the goal and the limit, but please don't tell me you want to be owned 24/7 and then tell me all the things you will not do.

It's been a long time since I wrote anything here. No one reads them, so why bother, right?  Then the other day someone dropped me a line and told me they agreed with something I had written. Surprise! Someone DID read this. So maybe I'll try and resume writing.

50 shades of gray..love it or hate it, it has certainly made BDSM a point of conversation around the water cooler. My opinion is that is has done more damage than help. Now so many people take a romanticized view of bdsm. Read teh books and you are now a Dom. Read the books and this is how a submissive behaves...sheesh! What it is we do (WIIWD) is now seen by many more people, mainstream almost, but it is seen through a screwy lens.

  It's been a while since I posted or even check things here. Doesn't seem to have changed much. I'd hoped to make some friends here but it seems I am either thought of as a cheater, since married, or a loser, or who knows.
  Pity people will not even give you a chance by talking and getting to know you. This area..SW VA/TN seems to be the rudest place I've ever lived, at least as far as BDSM is concerned.
 Anyone want to prove me wrong? Please?

     Ok...here we go. My first journal entry here on collarme. I had a site on Yahoo360 for 4 yrs..that of course is now gone. Still I know I can blog and enjoy sharing thoughts with others.
    Why am I here? I've had a profile on here for a while but have not watched or even care much about the site. The last move and the release of my slave has I think wounded something deep within me. My desires have waned, maybe I just don't want to get hurt or hurt another, but also I'm tired of the games and the players.
  So..if you DO read this, you're welcome to comment and contact me. I'm open right now for chat and giving advise to the curious and new.