laylabbey

today i learned something new, a friend of mine after weeks of being abandoned shared with me her thoughts and feelings. that regardless that she was abandoned, she still hoped happiness for her owner. to me at the moment was silly but from her eyes all she wanted was to serve and please her owner or in this case ex-owner.

is this what a part of submissive or should i say what total surrender is? to surrender totally but then even at moments such as this still hope for the best for them?

i see it that the owner had broken her trust. she still offers prayers for him regardless.

i was abandon but i understand part was my fault. but in her part was for no reason. it is interesting how different each and everyone is.

i pray all the best  and hope a better path lays ahead for you princess *hugs*

at times like this - ice cream calls to cool things down (^0^)

*i had to write this down, cause i know i'll forget what i think later on.

how does a sub suppress the needs to serve and please? this has been on my mind all day long. (-_-)

i thank you for all the kind words, offers from all the Dom/Dommes, even suprisingly by a few submissive,

however i feel this is why i should walk at my own pace and just enjoy the ride. in this also i have to becareful of all the scammers out there. i received an offer by a dom who was also or already collaring a friend of mine and she said he does not believe in poly. but i don't have the courage to tell.

a chapter ends, begins another. again thank to A/all.

i am sad... takes a while to recover from the bad things i have done. but what has happened can't be undone, and no matter how bad things are, it can always get worst. so it is best to just accept and move on.

Sir was kind enough to message and ask how i am, but i am ashamed. i hope all the best for Him and His slave. may He always be happy and she be in submission bliss.

slave is happy that Master has taken slave back after the incident with the other Dom. though now Master is already seeking another slave.

slave is unable to take this without the feeling of jealousy, and that maybe i am no longer pleasing to Master. slave feels so sad.:(