LaurenINTX

I haven't found the right person yet to fulfill my needs, although I haven't been looking as hard as I should (my bad, I should get spanked for that).

People are always asking me what I want and what I need.  So maybe this post will clear it up.

I'd like someone who is clean, and won't push my hard boundaries.  I'd love someone who truly appreciates humiliation.  He or she does not have to be single and I'm open to participation with partners.  I do not wish to have sexual contact (no kissing, no licking, etc) with anyone.  I'm open to being naked but my humiliator should be willing to stay clothed.  That makes it more humiliating to me, doesn't it to you?  I'm totally ok with you having other sexual outlets.  This is just different.

I want someone who really enjoys humiliating and is super creative.  To me, humiliating is to be put in vulnerable positions or situations.  Several creative ways come to mind.  I will list some ideas to get your creative juices flowing:

1.  Bengay, ouch,

2.  Letting your friends watch/touch me

3.  Intentional nip slip, or bend over in public

4.  Asking someone to remove a clothes pin from my clit.

5.  Only touching me with toys, sticks, gloves

6.  Never letting me cum

7.  Forcing me to hold in cumming, then tying me down and making me cum in front of an audience, for a set amount of time. 

Just some ideas...

I show up in a dress and underwear, no bra.  I'm told i'm not allowed to say a word (except for safety words).  We go into a hotel, and you hand me a mask, not a blindfold, and leave blinds slightly open.  You order me to take off my dress, and get on my hands and knees.  I'm embarassed because my tits are saggy.  You take a stick, or like, a skewer, and start poking my body in different spots to irritate me (not hard but just to test out sensitive spots).  Then, you order my undies off. 

Next you blindfold me and tell me we are going to play a game.  You have 12 things in a bag, and you tell me what they are.  One by one you pull each out and i have to guess what it is.  Every time I get it right, i get a reward.  Every time I get it wrong, i get a punishment. 

A list of punishments and rewards as I see them, and you're welcome to add, help me change them, etc. 

1.  1 spanking on the clit with a riding crip.  Not super hard, but hard enough to make a point.  In order to receive the punishment, I have to be in position.  Anticipation is everything.

2.  Maybe bengay or something on clit. 

3.  Old fashioned spanking, just one but again, anticipation, not pain. 

4.  Clothespins, maybe 5 of them to put anywhere for 5 minutes. 

5.  Tie foss around my clit or nipples and thread them thru my shirt.  Depending on where we are at, you can ask certain people to pull them, and if they say no, it's embarassing, but if they say yes, you can ask if they want to see why.  Either do it for a time limit or a person limit. 

6.  Numbing cream so i can't "enjoy", really applipcaple if we have another person visiting.

7.  Asking a maid or something for more towels and opening the door up wide.

8.  We can discuss backdoor, but i've never had anything up.

Obviously we need more, but those are some "interesting" ideas, that aren't just "spanking, spanking, spanking" and it's very deliberate and clear on what's coming. 

Some rewards would include cancellations of punishments.  I guess i don't really see how i'm worthy of a reward. 

My hard limits are you must stay dressed at all times, no kissing, no licking, no hard pain, no pee, no poo, nothing to get me arrested, nothing to get my face on camera.  This gives a starting off point for discussing, where shall we go from here, or what questions or ideas do you have? 

Another situation I'd like to try is this.

We spend time online coming up together with punishments, rewards, etc.  We roll the dice and if it's evens, I get a reward, if it's odds, I get a punishment.  We have to pull it out of the jar so they are random.  They are very specific.  You get to choose who performs them. 

Thank you for reading this journal entry.  I figured i'd use this space to write about different experiences/scenarios that I'd be open to, and maybe someone somewhere out there in cyberland will want to participate. 

This scenario assumes we've met, have some trust, etc. 

We meet up for a 3 to 4 hour session.  I am a tshirt and sorts, no bra or undies.  We go to a hotel room.  You decide this is the day you are going to truly humiliate me.  Push me to the edge. 

I haven't been allowed to shave my pussy for two weeks.  You order me to take off my shirt and get on my hands and knees.  My boobs are hanging, touching the foor, when you open the door wide and let you friend in.  Your friend starts telling you how saggy my boobs are.  Then you both take sticks and poke at them, making them swim back and forth. 

You then make me completely naked and tell me not to say a word.  You both laugh at my hair and talk about how ugly my pussy is.  I have a big clit, and it's super sensitive.  You pull on my pussy lips and speck my clit.  I scream. 

You roll a dice to decide how many minutes of stimulation I will get on my clit before you stop but i'm not allowed to cum, as i'm not allowed enjoyment.,  I get the same amount of spankings on my clit as minutes of vibration.  You do this a couple of times.

Then you send me out to get ice.  Of course you put a very revealing dress on me, and clothespins on my nipple/pussy.  I walk weird.  You walk up to a random stranger and ask them for help removing my pins.