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Update: 01/25/2010


A caucasian male seeking 24/7 ownership.

Fully trainable, however fully capable of jumping right in and serving fairly-well as well.

Prefer FemDom or FemDom couple, however would be willing to serve the right Dom/Domme house as well.

Things i feel i need to express:

So, why do i want to be a 24/7 slave?

  First of all i have this deep need within me to serve a Dominant figure more than any other need.  Additionally, it would be my hope that my owner could  fill this need with a 24/7 style relationship because only through 24/7 can a slave feel that he is truly owned and dominated.
  To serve a Dominant and fulfill Their needs while being held captive has so much appeal, that the words that i have are too pale to express.  But, to serve is to live.

Am i straight or bi?

  Personally and honestly i am very bi-curious but do not feel i could serve only a Master.  Since part of me sees the Female Form as One to submit to,  my need is to surrender to a FemDom primarily.  If on the other hand She would have another M/male partner that She would require me to service, i could accept that with training.
  It would be an exceptional Master that could win my heart and convince me to serve just Him alone.

What is my Domme like?

   She is taller than i, with a true heart of domination.  She would not be a pro-domme or tribute seeking prostitute, hiding behind the flag of the BDSM lifestyle.  Her true goal would be that of expressing Her domination over Her slave-property through control, training, correction, requiring services that please and One who is moderately to severely sadistic.  She practices Safe - Sane - Consensual BDSM activities and seeks a slave that will be willing to submit to Her innermost desires through proper practices.

  To Her a slave is the person that fulfills Her desires, needs and fantasies whether they be domestic, sensual or sexual.

Sex slave?

   In the beginning of the BDSM lifestyle there was a certain amount of sexual connection between a slave and their Owner.  However these days much of that has been lost.  Nonetheless, this slave understands that he may not be able to please Her sexually unless She trains him to do so.  The idea of a sexless life is not appealing' however the Domme would have complete control over this with me.

Dildo-Strap-on & Rape?

   There was a time when i was a child that i was forced, due to an illness, to submit to a enema.  During this enema, which i fought all the way, it was implanted within me the vulnerability that i had.  As i grew older and became aware of things within the life of sex, i longed to be taken by force again. 

   It would be hard, even today to willingly accept this type of play, so the added feature of being bound prior to it would be greatly needed to prevent me from fighting.   But honestly, i long for my Domme to take me, train me and yes even rape me in this way.  The rush that i felt when it happened to me oh so many years ago was so overwhelming that it has made me the submissive that i am today.

Sub or Dom, me?

Yes i do have some dominant tendencies.  The occupations i have had have required me to manage and direct large groups of people.  It would only be through 24/7 that my Domme could purge this from me or use it to Her advantage though something like making me an alpha-slave.  Either way, i have no desire to Top from the bottom nor Dom a household as the primary Dom.

Would i serve in Harem or Dens?

   Yes, if my Domme has other female and/or male slaves, i would take my place among them as directed and expected.  Actually this would be kinda fun, being the reason i mentioned it, but by no means necessary for me.

What about "public play"?

   Once owned and collared, my Domme would control my life.  If that means that She would require me to participate in public activities as a slave, (like at munches or the sort), i would obey to the best of my ability.  As i said, i do seek 24/7.

What about public "humiliation"?

   Public humiliation is a difficult subject, however as a 24/7 slave it would be my honor to obey my Domme and trust that She would not require me to do anything that would result in arrest.

What about the sissy-slave type?

   To be perfectly honest, i am not the sissy-slave type.  The practice of sissifying would not be desired, but as a 24/7 slave i guess i could not stop it because if i tried i would simply be beat until i obeyed anyway.  The hope is to find a Domme who does not want a sissy-slave or one who will be transvestite in appearance.


Willing to relocate?

   Of course i am willing to relocate.  It is my intention to do so when i find the one that wants me.  It would be my pleasure to do this without any cost to my Domme.  It is a common scam by many, (especially onliners) to try to get money sent to them and then they disappear.  The way i would do it is up to my Domme, but i would be willing to fly to Her, giving Her all the flight information so She could easily find and claim Her property with no questions asked.

Other information.

   If You like what you hear so far, please contact me so that i may provide You with the other information You require.

Respect and honor,

caleb


2/2/2010 6:50:26 AM

It is with great difficulty that i make another log entry into my journal. Since i have not actually found an Owner yet only those who want to dominate my pocket, i must voice my opinion about the “professional Domminatrix” lifestyle. 

It is amazing that there are so many “professional” Dommes. There would be no reason to have them, if there were not a demand for them. It is appalling to me that there are “professional” Dommes in the lifestyle in the first place. A “professional mistress” is only one step above a prostitute and since they are not vanilla in their profession, does not classify them as an ‘escort’.  That brings up the point of those who use the ‘services’ of a “professional domme”.  Players, slaves, those with midlife crisis, those with a desperate need in which they cannot quench themselves and those simply trying it to see if they like it; all of which give fuel to the fire laid under the feet of those who label themselves as “professional”.  If the submissives of this lifestyle would stop using “professional Dommes; the lifestyle would get back to domination and submission, rather than exploitation and browbeaten. 

The truth is, that many (“professional Dommes) would have no profession if it were not for those who choose to use their services. (Now who is the Dom and who is the slave?)  Money dominates the “professional Domme, like nothing else in their pitiable life. If it weren’t for money, i guess they would have to slither back into their vanilla life where they would become vanilla, having to rely on education and/or talent; or begin again as a Lifestyle Domme, attempting to find fulfillment in the lifestyle that they say that they enjoy. It is also curious that the “professional dommes” have stopped having sexual contact with their ‘clients’ as a means of domination.  It is actually only a means of showing their inability to have a commitment to a slave or slaves within the lifestyle. Of course they want it their way and only their way, afterall they are Dommes; but the loving intimacy that a slave develops for their Owner happens. The “professional Domme” cannot fulfill this longing and the love turns to resentment and eventually the lack of interest (or money) causes a separation between the slave and the “professional domme”.

Also odd, is that there are no professional Doms for the most part.  If you were a slave (male or female) and wanted a professional Dom; would you hope that that Dom would take you sexually? Would you pay him? Want you hope to be allowed to lay with him to please him? It is my opinion that you would. Most slavegirls who seek Lifestyle Doms/Masters, all have that hope. In fact, most slaves period what sex as part of their relationship with their Owner.  It is also very likely that the male Owner also wants this sexual relationship with their slave. However, the “professional domme” simply wants to assert herself over others for the single pleasure of money.  For those who want to bring the lifestyle back into a lifestyle of domination and submission, it is recommended that you do not succumb to the temptation to use a “professional Domme”.  They have many methods, and will try to get you to join this website and that website, use your credit card to “verify your age”.  It is all BS and all simply a very cleverly laid trap for you and your finances. If there are those who are “professional Dommes” who do not like what i have said, than i guess i have hit too close to home.  Collarme itself has said on their site, “DO NOT SEND MONEY TO OTHER USERS FOR ANY REASON! It is up to you if the lifestyle is lost in a pool of c0rruption. Beware also that many of these “professional Dommes” are using pictures of young girls with very few words on their profiles.

It must also be added that, “professional dommes” are not the only women who attempt to get money behind the guise of the BDSM flag; and what they want…being money is all that is really on their mind.  Again, the men are the targets of these great deceivers.  The dominant slaves do the same thing, only with other methods.  I will refer to them as “relocation slaves”. They will say anything and everything to a potential Owner to get the Owner to relocate them from his own money. When the potential Owner will not do it, the “relocation slave” moves on to find a profile page of a sucker who will. Eventually they find one, take his money, and move on to the next sucker to do it all again.

Owners should remember this before relocating a slave.  You will own them, feed them, care for them when ill, and give them room and board for the entire length of their contract/term.  If they cannot scrounge up a few bucks to come to you, are they really worth the risk?  That is a stupid question because anyone with any common sense wouldn’t even consider it.  Let U/us all get smart and return the Lifestyle to what it is supposed to be about.  If you cannot afford a slave, you do not deserve to be a Dominant.  If you cannot afford to relocate to your Owner, you do not deserve that Owner.

1/28/2010 3:36:26 AM
Perhaps i have been wrong by expecting to find an Owner that fits the mold that i have created over time.  What i should have been doing, was to find an Owner whom i could fit into Their life; and make positive contributions to Them, Their house and Their life.

i have the idea/notion that a slave is 'usually' naked and wearing only his Owner's collar.  Being a slave to a worthy Owner is an honor to any slave, however it has been imprinted by the "community" that in doing this one must be naked, collared and wearing the bells, piercings or other items that an Owner deems necessary to bestow upon Their property.  The clothing, for a slave, would simply be a covering that will allow them to exist in the vanilla world, to avoid breaking the laws of the land.  It was understood by me that the Owner's household and or other times deemed appropriate to do so, that the slave would remove their clothing as a sign of obedience; and in doing so would extenuate the Owner's collar upon their body.

Uniforms for the sake of guests, parties and or traveling outside into the general public are totally understandable.  In fact they could be quite interesting at that.  Although i have never worn a uniform for the Lifestyle, i definitely would not bock at such an idea.

In no way would i presume to expect an Owner to succumb to the concepts that i have envisioned; i would hope to find an Owner that is understanding about them.


1/28/2010 3:07:44 AM

It has been brought to my attention that by not completing my journal regularly, that i have been in error.  i had envisioned beginning this when i began my r/l journey.  However, this journal will now be offered as a testament of my ideas, desires, likes, dislikes and learning experiences as a means to allow my future Owner an avenue to learn more about me through them.

1/27/2010 8:39:53 AM
What ever happened to the FemDoms that want to own a slave and want him to fulfill All Their needs?
Contradiction
 
 Age: 32
 Portage, Michigan