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	OK let me put this straight and to the point for all to see . I earned my Title "knight" and I got it the hard way . I have had it since I was 18 . It was Night-runner because I loved the night and that was when I was at my best . The K was added as a joke because I turned from my darker side and started to help those I over looked . At times I have not earned my name but I try to live up to it . I am looking for someone . I have a dark side that needs to feed and a light side that is mostly me . I have done 24/7 & vanilla . I want a mixture of both . Not a half and half but a true mixture of both sides . I want to be able to creep into the shadows and enjoy both sides with you . There is some much I want to see and do but only with the right person . Before you even thing about it know this . My friends are few and come before even me . When they call for my help I am gone and will leave you behind if you won't stand by me . I may not always tell you the truth but I will not lie . A friend once said "to know you is to love hate and fear you . It is also to know that you will always be there for us . Even if it means your life ." This is me Light Dark Good Evil what ever you need or want . I will scare you and love you . Bring you pain and joy . Once I give you my heart I won't take it back even if you leave .

7/21/2009 6:42:52 PM

Well 45 days left and things are going good . I have a few things ordered that I will take with me . Still I am thinking I should just go unarmed and try The Gandhi way but then what if it goes wrong . There is only 2 ways out and if I am taken to the back "offices" only 1 way in and out . Thinking back to some of the things I have done this is going to be the best . My blood boils just thinking about it .
I have made arrangements should it go wrong and if it should you will be contacted . Just follow the directions given and you will find everything I have left . I ask you to do this because I trust you above all others . Thank you for following my request .
Work out is going good dropped a few more pounds and chest and arms are tighter . I am going to the beach and talk with Mother one last time . Here I will sing my songs of life love war and death . I will draw on the power of Sister again she will be at her fullest and I hope for a clear night .
I have feelers out to find out all I can about this "group" and to learn how to talk to them . I had to call in the last of old favors to do this but it'd worth it . Everyone wants to know why I have come back after so many years . Most won't talk to me now and I don't blame them . To much time and to few words . What can I say to them "i got tired of burying you " . Way to many funerals. To many lost friends .

7/15/2009 6:34:44 PM

For years I have tried to live a life that was as close to honorable as can be in this day and age . I have failed many times . So many times I thought I would leave this world having never done anything to make a difference in someones life . A lasting impression that they would carry on and let other know that there is a better way . I never thought I would get that chance Until now .
I now have that chance . I have the chance to change 1 life and maybe with that 1 life others . I have started working out again and training starts Saturday . I am going to get back to battle weight and be at my best when the time is right .
I am writing this here because I want a record of what is going on should I fail at my mission . If I am not heard from within 3 days of my final entry then I have failed and payed for my failure .
Death and I have seen each other many times but never have I had the chance to dance . Maybe this time I will . I am thinking my life is to be long . I have many things to do before I am given the chance to dance and join those who wait for me . It has been so long a journy in this life I tire of it but I have my duties to do and I can't leave till I am called .
Sorry I ramble . So much to say and little time now . On day 51 I will leave everthing you need to know has to what to do and what goes where and to who .
Just rember 1 thing I want bagpipesand a true Irish wake none of that damn cring and talking nice about me . I am a shit and I know it . I have loved lost and hurt as well as been blessed .
So Scotty Too Hotty if your reading this I have loved you like a brother and as the best friend a man could have . Don't cry ( I know your are ) I have made this choice not you or anyone else . She did not ask for my help but if she made it please help her as I would have . Yes she has my heart but does not know it and should never know it . Just give her the help you have given me . Thank you . I love you big guy give Poppie hugs for me and let him know I had the shirt he gave me on when I went in .
OH before I forget why here ? It is the one place no one can look at ask a bunch of questions or try to stop me ( not that you could ) . Also no one will read it here before it is over . End day one .