my first experience  

back then i was a really unexperienced , naive, thinking of the world as a very friendly place, i also was virgin, i didnt know anything about the act of bdsm. Kuwait ,the place where i live, is an extremely conservative place, it is very hard to find a girlfriend, let me rephrase that, in here the Kuwaiti girls must be virgins to be married, any contact or dating were opposed and shamed by the community , there wasn't any fornication ofcourse that comes before sealing the deed. i could have unvirgised myself by then when i went with my friends to Lebanon but i was a good boy, i obeyed my parents and didnt do a thing that upset them . i was and still am great student, loving brother,obedient son, and very family guy. after i finished highschool my parents decided for me to study english in england, i agreed as i always do what my parents wanted and it wasnt my first time traveling , we ,my family, went there a couple of times and i liked it, but this time they asked me to live there for 6 months.

i went there like a good boy loving that i was on my own, for the first time. i was very responsible ,so a couple of weeks of boring studying for me wouldnt be bad, i didnt find it hard, it was easy but our teacher told us the best way to know the language is to read books, at the time i had a fascination for fantasy so i bought book called ERAGON the dragon rider xD and i did what most people do which is reading at a coffee shop. so everyday after lunch i would sit at the same coffeeshop, same table ,order the same coffee and read the same book. i noticed that a beautifully attractive girl did the same thing i did, the only difference was that she came a bit later. she was 155 tall, short haircut, very cute face , very nice figure ....well i noticed her alot , actually most of the time i couldnt take my eyes out of her. it was very distracting. she wasnt model like ,,, she was my type. anyway i didnt do a thing i knew better , i shouldnt talk to girls , "what a shameful thing" i thought.

One day i went to coffee shop as i always did but for the first time it was very busy but i found my chair vacant , i thanked god and went to sit on it before i lose it. at 5 pm i kept watching the door , this wasnt my first time keeping a guard watch on it because she would come from that door at this time and read her romantic books, so she comes taking my breath ,leaving my heart racing for her .... i havent spoken to her ever ,,,, i think she doesnt even know i exist. it was crowded ,very crowded. she looks like shes looking for an empty seat. i know she would be disappointed with her search. i was afraid, no i was terrified of her leaving,leaving my afternoon empty of her. it was like if she left i would die. she came by me still looking, so terrified that she wouldnt stay i did something that i would never do ever. i asked her to sit with me at my table. i thought i wasnt flirting or anything, im just being a gentlemen. well i knew deep in my heart it wasnt that but i shut that thought so my heart would beat again. she accepted, and even introduced herself.she started talking to me, telling me that she noticed i was here often.a bomb just went in my brain but i kept my cool and started telling her about school and everything. she told me she was a architect and worked near this coffee shop and she told me her age , she was almost 7 years older than me. i didnt want it to go that far, i just wanted her presence but i couldnt ignore her ,, i should have ignored her ,maybe if i did ignore her , i wouldnt be here talking about my first experience in bdsm, maybe i would stop being a control freak.

the days went by, as she would come and sit with me everyday talking, reading and sipping coffee together. little did i know that this would lead to me ending my virginity and opening my bdsm fantasy. after 5 days on from the first time we spoke ,on a friday, she asked me if i would go with her to a movie, i would definitely go, i would do anything for that girl at that time. so we went to batman the movie ,,, i love movies ,,, but sometimes when the screen becomes bright to a point i would see her face ,i would leave the boring movie and watch her extravagant face. she noticed me looking as shes drinking her coke and i stayed looking but this time i locked my eyes to hers. we kept our eyes locked for few seconds then she giggled and continue watching .i noticed her face became a little redder , i thought maybe it was the screen. the film finished i missed the story so i told her i didnt understood, wanting to hear her babbling, she tried to tell me when we are waiting for the bus to arrive but i couldnt focus. i just kept gazing, admiring her face in my mind. she fell silent all of a sudden , i was scared that i offended her by looking at her too much but she called my name " khaled" and i said " yes kate" "do you find me attractive?" her face was red. i was shocked , my heart is running telling me to do the same, my mouth was so dry , i couldnt even gulp. i dont know how i managed to say "i havent seen a girl thats more attractive than you" i wanted to say more, i wanted to say you are a goddess, angel , mermaid and even a magnificent dragon .... she was to me the world and everything in it . she moved her face to mine ,her lips started touching mine ,,, i have kissed a girl before but not like this ,,, i kissed her like she was my everything tasting her coke . she moved away but i pushed her to me and we kissed again.

after i came to her apartment she started undressing me and i did the same ,,,, we did a vanilla sex which now i think of it as boring but it was amazing , she was amazing ,,,,, anyway we did that for weeks ,,, i started sleeping at her apartment more than i sleep at mine. i loved her ,,, i really did ,,, i noticed some scares on her tushy, back, boobs, and even near her flower... i asked but she would ignore me changing the subject ,,,,, then i asked again another time and she did the same,,, the third time i told her ,,,, you can tell me anything you know that dont you ,,, she nodded ,,,, i asked her again, pointing at it while we cuddle naked in the bed, she got up and went to her closet and brought with her a bag, and started unpacking it. it was full of wipes , all kinds of it. and sat next to me and told me i like to be hurt ,,, i get horny when someone hits me . CONFUSED, very confused i was. i told her how, when , why , do you like our sex ,do you want me to hurt you , i cant hurt you .... i cant ..... but i ended up doing it that night. she told everything about bdsm , and showed me some bdsm videos and i wanted her happiness , i didnt think of ever hurting her ,,, or anyone i love . untill that night whe she came to me begging me to spank her . she came to me in a school uniform told me "daddy your little girl need spanking on her bad bare tushy, i was nuaghty and i need to be punished daddy , please spank my naked butt" and i was amazed how she kept her role. i told her "come on daddys lap sweetie ,,, daddy needs to teach his little princess a lesson " a line i took from a video i watched with her. she came to me lay on my lap her ass is so pushed up her panties started showing so i lifter her skirt and pushed her pink panties down and started spanking her , at first i was gentle. but she broke her role and told me harder i want it harder.. i heard that line everytime i vanille fuck her . well i did do it harder, much harder , my hands were num when she squirted her juice.... then jumped up and sat on my lap , her legs is rapping my waist and she started to kiss me ,,, we kissed like the first time we kissed ,,,, no it was even better.... as i rub her sore very crimson red tushy.