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katrinacarenne

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i have always known that i needed a Strong, Controlling, Dominant Man to own me, to possess me. i have always been drawn to pain and humiliation; i have always wanted to place the pleasure and desires of my partner above my own. For many years, i lived as property, and i loved it. i am free now, but i feel lost in that freedom. my desires to serve and obey are unfulfilled.

Until i wear a collar once more, i will not truly know happiness.

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1/27/2008 9:49:42 AM
I have had a difficult time recently being able to describe just what I am looking for.  I suppose it might be a result of 11 years of service in which I was told what to expect and it didn't really matter what I wanted.  If he wanted poly, then I opened my home to other girls.  If he decided he didn't want poly, then all of my attention went to him and I put the thought of girlfriends out of my mind. 

Now that I am on my own, and have been for six months, I have an idea of what I want, but I'm having a hard time describing it.  I'm also finding that I don't think I deserve it, which is strange because I'm not sure where that thought is coming from.  And since I don't deserve it, I feel like I shouldn't ask for it.

I want a relationship with a strong, dominant man who isn't already tied up emotionally with another girl.  I've done poly before.  I love girls.  I'm not willing to risk getting hurt by a poly relationship again.  I want to serve a man's wishes and satisfy his deepest desires...  for a lifetime.. not a weekend.  I want to have dates where we get to know each other outside of BDSM.  I don't want a race to sex.  I love sex.  I miss it a lot and find it very hard to go without.   But, I'm not going to have sex with a dozen different men only to find the next day that none of them are what I'm looking for. 

I'll probably never find what I'm looking for, but at least now I've said it.



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Princesslexxxi
 
 Age: 20
 Worcester, Massachusetts