I am a deeply submissive woman but not in my everyday life. I am thus for only one special man. I want a man who is dominant in the same way. I want a TPE
relationship...which to me means 24/7 ownership, consensually nonconsensual
slavery within a monogamous, committed, long-term relationship. A relationship that is built on love...being in love, friendship, respect, mutual interests and common goals. One in which both parties are challenged on all levels and grow as a result of the challenges.

The man I seek is of an appropriate age for a woman who is 48. He is
financially stable...and not because I am looking for a meal ticket, responsible, capable and mature. He speaks English with sufficient fluency both in writing and verbally so that we can communicate. He is intelligent enough to challenge me mentally. He is at peace with who he is. He is extremely proud, dignified and self-confident.

I am looking for the freedom of containment and obedience, the wonder of
living as the woman I am, and not as the woman I am expected to be. I want
bone-crushing, soul-freeing intimacy on all levels. I want the liberation
that brings. I want to be the wanton, sexual, sensual woman I am and to be
that freely. I need my master to set the wanting and needing free of the bounds of inhibition and defensiveness with which I protect those vulnerabilities.

I want master to be a term of love, respect, surrender and joy...and not the
distorted thing it has become which I find awkward even in writing. I want
stability, consistency and clear boundaries. I want what I have to give to
be a thing my master desires to receive and even demands and takes if
necessary, when the giving is a thing that scares me. I want a partner I can
talk to about anything and everything.

I want acceptance of who I really am in the deepest, darkest places of my
heart and mind and soul. I want to be liked and approved of. I want mutual
loyally and commitment. I want a man who understands that this isn't about a
fifties marriage laced with a dollop of kinky sex. I want a man who
understands that submission really isn't a gift, nor is it a sometime thing
with time outs from ownership, while also knowing that I am trying as hard
as I can within the boundaries of the reality of the enslavement process and
the resultant on-going lived experience.

Thus, I want a man who knows that the submission, surrender and ownership he
craves from me is something he must take from me even as he earns the right
to it. I want a man who knows that submission isn't something that comes
naturally to me, even if I am submissive...meaning living submissively goes
against every defense, coping mechanism and aspect of socialization I have
learned in 47 years of living. The man I want knows that I will fight,
react, hide, defend and resist with everything in me on the road to
surrender and will handle it, rather than telling me it's my fault for not
being submissive enough. He will not see the free expression of emotion or
opinion as a thing to be punished, even if the expression is not what he
wants to hear. He will also know that my submissiveness is something that defines me.

He is a man who knows that it's up to him to dominate me, not me to dominate
myself. He knows that submission is not a gift. He takes it, he holds it,
and he keeps it.

I want a man I can literally trust with my life, because that is what I am
doing and must do to go where we both want me to go...enslavement to
him...and only him...forever. Powerlessness, total powerlessness on my part
is the object of the exercise.

I want to be dominated, powerless and helpless in his hands...and I want to
love it. I want the rigid, all encompassing control I have of myself taken
from me and shattered into smithereens, thus revealing in all its glory the
submissive woman I am.