kansaslave202006

thank you for taking the time to view my profial /alot of you asked how i am doing and i appreciate it i am doing alot better. I was down and everything cause it has been a month since i put my son that is? now 7 month op for adoption and its been tough to deal with but i am doing much better. i have 2 kids a boy and a girl my daughter is 1 1/2 she will be 2 in june she is adopted out but i signed my parental rights to be gone 12 hours after she was born coping with that was hard cause i carried her and then in a blink of an eye she was gone after the kicking and being in my rib cage, indigestion al of it and then she was gone. For my son i got knocked up 2 months after my daughter was born i wanted a family sooo bad that i thought i could really do it at the age of 21 and onl y a cna and no car. came to find out it didn't work and i didnt want my son to grow up in the projects and not have a good education or the finer things he does need. i am realizing it now that if it takes two to start something it takes two to finish it. And i wasn't getting anyone's nor help from my parents and i knew why. They didn't want to get stuck rasing a chil d that isn'tthere's that sooo many young mothers do and they dont realize. i know some people on here don't believe in adoption but i do and i know that i made my son and daughters better by doing so. and if anyone is going to say anything negative don't. i was putting this on here so if i do write a journal entry in here and it sounds depressing then its cause i miss my babies and i will? i am going through grief and it isn't going to take over night to fix it. now i am done have a great day E/everyone!xoxoxo jess