Juneisnobody

Sounds like this is a bit a diary i have a terrible headache but some of you have show me things and i try to order it to see what to call /name/see me 

Normal Growing up humans are able to 

.say no when they dont want something 

Are liking sex and have it on free Will 

Can be in a busy society 

Can run a household

Like to be around People 

Can hug with others 

Can tell others what they want 

Dont feel weird around People 

.dont feel guilty being free 

Than you have me : 

.i hate sex BUT accept it by force and Will Freeze with open legs so they can do what they want so they Will feel happy 

Icant say no 

I dont like the society cant deal with lot noises or busy surroundings

Im clumpsy and dumb so running a household? Its better to stay on one place 

Dont like to be around People often also they dont like me too

I CANT hug i Will freeze but i believe in beatings to help it stay low 

I cant tell others what i want because they never counted

I shouldnt be able to talk with I because i was seen as it 

And last for now im much sweeter better easyer to handle when hold isolated in a small area without being able to see or go outside or being part of the free society 

What is it what i am ? 

Dear everyone 

Maybe it was a mistake to search here for knowledge or for " healing" 

 Also i dont wanna dissapoint anyone im really someone who feels bad when i think i m not doing it right i really try to answer ALL of you but im sorry I CANT be online everyday or whole day thats not personal but i have to deal with low energy have to manage laundry and have to walk my dogs 

I know i Will dissapoint a lot im sorry for that

see thats why i hate myself   i cant even answer  quick enough

Cant sleep but have to but suddenly this came to mind

It can look same as a human doesnt say it is     

Maybe this is true 

Also thanks everyone     

.also please everyone who have not message stop message me please for now try it in 2 weeks 

I feel drowned in them that make me feel guilty

Hi all

Again thnx for all messages if i have not replay but had promise to do please send me a New one in a couple days its not that i dont want to answer but at moment its to much im very sorry 

I also have no idea if it was a good step to Come here i was hoping to find some who understand me because almost no one does including myself  

My upbringing was different from others ! That had making me have no self Esteem ( but maybe thats not needed too ) and very insecure some days i wish i was exist but not thinking or exist and being good for others 

But it seems like im to complex and a burden including for myself

I cant  suddenly  send messages back but cant share the screenshot  1of it  dont know  why 

I try later 

Sorry 

  please please  please  stop send me messages please i have ao many and feel guilty if i cant answer them 

Thank you very much 

also please give me some days to respond  i wish i had more time and energie to replay all of you but i cant  yes i fail again 

I Will answer please be patient im sorry