After a great session with Master and being used very well, i reflect back on some suttleties of the session.

Let me preface this by saying in my search for submissiveness and a Master that will foster my growth and developement in many ways, i have wondered what type of kink and control would best fit me.  i read on here about all types of Dominance and all types of levels of control, humiliation and kink and still don't know where I fit yet. i have 2 wonderful Leaders that are trying to help me find the answers to this but one thing i have discovered recently is this.

I do not need to be forced into submission. 

I thought i needed the hard, stern and slightly mean Master in order for me to feel his power as i have been so powerful in my own life for years. i thought i needed to be punished and have fear instilled in me to obey without hesitaion when my Master wanted me to serve him and i may have other ideas of what i would like to do.

i have discovered that when the training and the trust develops within a healthy union that my need to submit and serve my Master was just there. i have been taught a few lessons at the hand of a very loving Master and Trainer and trust both of them. i do not fear them in the way i thought i needed to.  i realize i already "FEAR" dissappointing them more than fear their physical power. 

As i instinctively closed my legs in reaction to a negative stimulus my Master said one word very quietly "Open".  My legs fell open and remained there like a well trained slut.

i did not do this from fear of him as i would if he yelled at me, pulled my hair or threatened worse. i honored him by doing his wish and not denying him the pleasure he sought. i felt pride in my instinctive reaction to do what he asked of me without hesitation and to respond back after with fervor and lust not with reluctance and disobediance.

The submissive slut i am is understanding herself more and more each day. i am understanding my need for submission, my want to please and my desire to give my whole self, mind and body to the Master that i best fit with.

A new day without feeling any remorse about dissappointing very important men in my life.  i have done my assignments well and ontime. i have done things that make myself feel good. Simple things that i like doing such as cooking a nice meal for my family, planning Easter surprises and getting errands done. 

i enjoy cleaning up the clutter in my life to include both physical and mental clutter.  Today my mind is clear, my thoughts are on growing as a submissive slut and making others happy with the gift of myself. my inner animal sexual needs are sated and calm instead of in overdrive like a bitch in heat.

Today, i am content with who and what i am................

submissive slut in training

My newest picture is the results of a correction i received last night at the hands of a firm and loving Master that saw fit to work with my Trainer and teach me a very valuble lesson in respect and patience.

Thank you for this correction, Thank you Trainer for allowing me to grow and learn under your guidance

Respectfully,

a submissive slut in training