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NOTE: I am *not* looking!
New to BDSM, I am looking to learn more about D/s and explore the ensuing emotional/physical feelings that accompany it.
Polyamorous by nature, I am recently parted from my wife of 12 years and I am marrying my fiance on NYE 2007. I do have a life that is very much the housewife/soccer mom type...meaning my time is precious. My fiance is a switch but he prefers to be to be submissive to me.
I would have to say my motivation to be here is to learn. I am drug and disease free. Not sure what else to say, so I'll list a little personal stuff
Things I enjoy:Running (I'm training for a marathon)
Singing (anywhere...lol)
Writing
Reading (care to recommend any?)
Wide open spaces
Being with family
Things I fear:
Social situations (its actually a love/hate thing)
Flying (though I have done it...not happily)
Heights
Giving opinions
Being perceived socially as stupid
Things I hate:
Closed minded people
Assumptions that polyamorous means easy
Assumptions that bisexual means easy (lol)
Anything else you'd like to know, message me. :)
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On December 5th I received my collar from Master. The two of us shared a wonderful day together just being together and searching for holiday gifts for others.
It is hard being away from Him. Though we talk every day, I still ache to be with Him.
My back is acting up and it is hard to sit here and type. I don't know how I'm going to get through taking Mistress to the train station tomorrow. It hurts to drive. But when I take Her, I can stop and see Master if I'm lucky. I'd endure it for that. *smile*
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Mistress and I were discussing some things a few days ago that had been perplexing me. And what She said really hit home. Whether or not anyone has ever accepted us, the two of us have always done what has pleased us and worked for us, the world be damned. So, why should I feel confused at all...because I can't find the "right way?" Who says what is right?
There is only what is right for us. And what is right for me. And what is right for me is to serve my Mistress and my Master. I am not confused any more. It truly amazes me the way She can put everything in perspective for me. |
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So...very...happy.
Oh I miss him. *sigh* Gawd I love his long hair. I just want to touch him all the time.
Thinking of him...
I am so glad Mistress likes him. She's very happy for me. I love Her so much. *happy sigh*
Yes, I am so very girly. LOL, totally femme. I wouldn't want it any other way, and They love me for who I am.  |
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So, things are going well with the Dom I met through CM. He is absolutely awesome and makes me feel totally at ease, even when he's teasing me to blushing. It is frightening to me the romantic vanilla emotions that come to the surface just talking/thinking about/being with him, but we both seem committed to take things as they come as slowly as needed. And that in itself is reassuring. His wife is so pretty.
He is so delightfully evil. 
I keep daydreaming about him. hee hee. |
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Mistress and I met a Dom that I'm interested in last night. *swoon* Wow, he's awesome. |
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Sometimes I feel like an ass when I get all girly giggly. I'm almost 30...when do you stop getting crushes on people? How mature is that? And like Mistress has said before, "How many is too many?"
Going to try to sleep now. Maybe dream some happy dreams. ^.^
Damn memories of sexual energy are so strong, it just turns me right on thinking about it. *sigh* Now I'm feeling giggly again. Dammit.
I am not a brat! Yes, you know who you are. LOL
Mistress comes home tomorrow! I am so happy. |
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My neck is very stiff and in pain. This really sucks. My back has been hurting after helping my Mistress move, but now the neck is acting up.
Mistress and I are going to meet a man I am very interested in next week. I can't wait. She sounds pleased with him so far, and is very happy for me. Husband is indifferent, as he always is (unless it is him who finds someone...LOL).
Yes, I have chosen a Domme. Thank you for inquiring. Any interest beyond friendship towards me should be directed toward FireGoddess. And as always, I always welcome new friends/lovers. ^.^ |
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I must admit I was a little leery to meet anyone online. I had my identity stolen a few years back and every now and then some of that comes back to slap me in the face. So I worried that there would be a lot of HNG's or scary extreme people that just wouldn't understand that I am just THAT new and wouldn't be ready or into that.
That hasn't been my experience so far. True, I've had quite a few messages where my jaw dropped and I scrambled for "delete," but it hasn't been enough for me to shrug off all the other really cool people I've met here, and on another bdsm site.
In fact, I like some of them a lot, and am very happy to have met and/or be reaquainted with them.
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I'm not feeling well, but I guess that is to be expected with this weather. I'm having a lot of personal emotional drama which is having an effect on getting back to anyone.
To clarify: I am NOT going to relocate. NO.
I'm not looking for anyone that wants to (as it was so eloquently put) "dildo train my ass for the anal fist fucking I have always wanted." Ah no. As a matter of fact, no. And yet again...no.
I don't respond to rude messages, and if you call me a cunt I block you. Just fyi for anyone wondering. At any rate, I'd like to thank those of you that messaged me telling me how pretty I am. I really appreciate it.
So, I'm pretty tired, so I'm going to sleep. For about 6 hours before the whole cycle starts over again. |
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| Age: 51 |
| Ellada,
Greece |
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