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2019, I am hoping to work on many aspects of my life to include the kinky side of things. I am going to try and work on plugging and dilating my ass as much as possible. Also going to work on personal fitness more.
Looking for someone for either play or mentorship with the possibility for LTR in the future, since I am looking for something serious and a partner. Friendship and commonality is very important to me.
For now I will say that I identify as a switch with more sub tendencies, but in all honesty I think I could be better described as a kinkster that enjoys being submissive most times. I really love all sorts of different kinks. Somethings I have tried in the past and liked are medical play (saline infusions, catheterizations, enemas, sounding), all sorts of bondage from sensory deprivation to predicament bondage, latex and rubber wear, collar lead leash, light to moderate cbt, teasing, short term denial, light to moderate corporal punishment, nipple play, gags, electro play, anal dilation, pegging, and I VERY VERY much love giving oral.
I am also curious about many things, and am fairly open to trying different things. I am little curious on fisting, extended play and control, different bondage, and possibly catheterized and forced enemas for more than a 24 hour period. I am sure there are a few others that I cant think of right now.
Hard limits men, forced bi, permanent markings or damage, kids, animals, scat.
Most of my pictures are a few year older, but since I really dont have anyone to take pics of me to update this with that is what I am have for now. The newest pictures are in my blog.
I have a fairly extensive toy collection, which is constantly growing and include bondage, electro, medical, gags, corporal punishment, and anal toys.
I am also here to keep in touch with friends, make new friends and exchange ideas.
I am also working on making my own bondage gear, paddles etc, either through steel or wood and have posted some pictures of them. I will let you know if this becomes a side business as I get better at it.
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Long time since an update, but I am out of the country right now on a vacation for my birthday. |
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Wanting to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas!! Hope everyone gets what they want! |
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So of course the last week or two there have been lots of sales going on to include black Friday and cyber Monday. I was bored and saw a bunch of great prices on things I either really wanted or thought would be good to try. Not sure if it was really a good idea, but oh well, more things to toss on my unused toy pile.
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It seems like it has been forever since I have posted here, and I apologize to everyone that actually takes the time to read what I write.
So lets catch up on things, nothing kinky or sexual has happened since I last wrote, unfortunately, so I haven't had sex since early June 2015. I am surprised I haven't burned out my Hitachi, since that works great for a quick release. I loaned out a large portion of my fetish stuff to a friend of my, to use in photo shoots. Might buy some other stuff while it is on black Friday sale. Not sure why other than it looks neat and could potentially someday be fun if I find someone.
I keep debating seeing a pro Dominatrix since I can't seem to find anyone to scratch my kink itch. But have been leaning towards going overseas maybe to do it while on a vacation. Haven't had a vacation in years so it would be good even if it was bad, lol.
I am slowly getting my shop set up in the basement. I have added a sand blasting cabinet, a small metal lathe, and am currently am working on restoring an old Monarch metal lathe. It is a bit bigger than the little one, since it weighs 3200 lbs. I also bought a new table saw, have a dust collection system to hook up, have a spindle sander and hopefully more to come. Thinking I need to figure out the best design for a fucking machine, that way I can at least get fucked, :-"
Well the original point to this whole post was actually say Happy Thanksgiving to all of my friends in the US. If you aren't in the US you can still sacrifice a turkey and stuff yourself with food!!! Or just stuff someone else with something ;) !!!
John |
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Struggling to get the clear coat right on this paddle I am working on. Can't wait till it warms up a little and will be easier to coat things for drying. |
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Well another year down and alot of big changes. Moved from Missouri to Pennsylvania, in my house mortgage and all, lol. Still unpacking but it is coming along. I am also getting my tools set up and finally working on a couple kink projects. Almost done a cat head paddle which I will post a picture of when it's done. Then have a humbler to make as well.
Hopefully I will get going and start getting fit again this year. Lots of upgrades to do in my house. Maybe build my bed and get a few more projects. If lucky find my partner lol.
Wishing everyone a very happy, joyous, and prosperous New Year!!! |
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Just wanted to take a minute and wish everyone a very Merry Christmas. Been busier than I have wanted to be, but a lot of that has been getting ready for the holiday.
Merry Christmas and I Happy New Year everyone!! |
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Just want to wish everyone out there a Happy Thanksgiving. I know many of you out there are not from the US, but I still feel no matter where you are and where you are from, that it is important to take a little time to look back and think of all the things to be thankful for and try not to dwell on the negative things. |
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It has been awhile since I have had time to think alot about kink. Unfortunately it has taken me longer to do things in my house and other projects that overall, I am constantly worn out and don't feel like anything at all.
So finally I am getting a little time to be caught up, I hope. Hoping to start back on plugging and dilating, and who know doubtful as it may be find someone, lol. For now I have had a request to make a paddle and am excited to do it, so hopefully I can get started on that in the next week. I will post pics as I go. Hope everyone has a happy Thanksgiving!!
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Can't believe I had forgotten to update my profile that I finally had moved back to PA, almost 3 months ago. Thankfully someone was very kind and pointed it out to me. |
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I seem to keep having trouble finding time to get to do what I would like to do. Especially in the kinky things. It is bad enough that finding a partner is difficult but right now I can't even seem to find the time to play with my toys and anal dilation. I am at the point that I haven't even masturbated in the last 2 weeks due to a lack of time. Now I am not saying that I really can manage to reach an orgasm quickly but I would like to enjoy it mixed with some toys. Hell the hitachi vibe can get me off in around a minute. But I would like to enjoy myself more than just a quick orgasm. Even now I am typing this while making breakfast.
Hope to have more interesting post for you all again, whoever actually reads this  |
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So I have been doing my best to do some anal dilation when I can. So far I have hit my max with an inflatable plug at 2 3/4 inches. How I have been going about it is starting off using a g-spot vibe to milk my prostate, then when i have done that a little i move on to the inflatable one. Once inserted i pump till it gets a very full feeling. I begin to masturbate and pump when i think i can take some more. Usually when i cum the plug gets pushed out. |
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Well the other morning I wanted to try the anal lock plug that I had recently bought. It is about 1 1/2 inches; in diameter. That slid in easily, being well lubed up and somewhat excited. Found out that I can't spread it myself and would need some one to do that for me. I tried a couple other of my plugs, and non of them had the bad reaction that I had the other day. so I used the g spot vibe and milked my prostate for a little. At that point I was really worked up and wanted to be stretched. So I got out my inflatable plug, slid it in pumped it till i felt really full. Once that was done, I started to masturbate, and the plug felt a little loose, so I gave it a couple more pumps till i felt stuffed. Then went back at it, right before I came, the plug popped out, and i orgasm-ed. Once I was wound down, I checked and the plug was inflated to 2 -3/ 8 inches . Now I understand that this was an inflatable plug, and that it was popping out and not being inserted. But it is a great start, and there was no actual discomfort. So keep your fingers crossed that in a few months or so i might be good for actual fisting. |
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Lets see, so many things to update. Well right before my 8 months a wonderful Mistress was kind enough to decide to play with and use me. So she had given me the first release in just a few days short of 8 months. It was a very explosive and amazing orgasm. During the time she spent with me the only orgasms i had were at her hands and each and everyone of them were quite amazing and slightly different. I have since finally moved back to Pennsylvania and have started masturbating again on my 38th birthday.
So now that I am back in PA, it is time to finally start once again searching for my life partner that I hope to spend the rest of my life with and start a family with. Not ruling out fun for fun, but still looking or long term. |
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Finished milking my prostate tonight with my cock all locked up, using a slim line g-spot vibrator. Didn't get a whole lot of cum out, but i still think it was a success for my first time. Thinking about leaving my cock locked up for the rest of the night. |
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Amazingly it has been 7 months since my last orgasm. Still sticking to my goals, the only thing i am going to do is try and milk my prostate today with my cock locked up. |
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Working to get back down in weight, I went ahead and weighed and taped myself this morning. The weight was fair, at 202 lbs, the waist definitely need some work, sitting at 37 for the waist and 38 for the hips. So once a week i will tape and post were I am at. So right now I need to loose somewhere around 20 lbs. Then I can cum again and start anything else. Unless I find someone, or someone takes me in and trains me, then who knows if I will get to cum. At that point, it really isn't what I want that matters. Though I hope I am taken in, because I have such a strong desire to serve and learn to be less selfish and think of someone else, which is a little struggle since I have been single and alone for so long.
Organized and photographed all my toys, surprising amount, and I had already ordered a couple others. Just not sure I should post them. Also looking to update and change some of my profile pictures, suggestions are always welcome. Thank you if you read all of this. |
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Added some pictures of a few things I have made in the past, i only still have one of the paddles, because i made the star and paw paddles for others. If you have any suggestions or requests please feel free to write me. The other is a bondage setup, similar to one I had seen online. i have plans to make a much larger setup at a later date. Take care, and i hope everyone finds what you are looking for.
Also forgot to add, i have a real toy buying problem and right now i am struggling with buying more toys. Normally most would say where it the problem. The problem is i have 3 footlockers of toys, that currently don't get used and it is very frustrating and depressing. So if you are looking for someone i come with toys, lol. |
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Forgot to add, that i am trying to figure out if i should start anal dilation and usage again, but continue with the orgasm denial. |
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Well it is 6 months since the last time i masturbated and 5 months since any cum had come out of it from a wet dream. i know that for health i should have some sort of release, but i will worry about that later because to me the best way would be a prostate milking. But since i don't have anyone to do that to me, i guess it will go without anything unless my body does it to me in my sleep again. So where do i go from here, do i keep this up or do i give in and go back to masturbating at least once almost every day. My current goal for this is either i lose the weight to get to goal i have set, or i find a partner. Not sure if either is going to happen at the moment. My weight goal is under 190 lbs but would prefer that to be 185. Currently i am 210 lbs, and i had started at 226 lbs. At one point i had made it down to 195, but i hurt my back and kinda fell off my wagon. Feel free to message with opinions or advice. Next update will probably be on my toy buying problem, lol. |
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First time posting in my collarspace journal, but what do I have to lose, pretty sure it will be rarely read anyway. Well not sure why I am still on here, I have been here for years, as well as alt.com and some others that don't exist. One of my friends that is kinky has recommended that I give up on these sites and try to go back to something like e-harmony match etc. which I am not too sure about, due to concerns about compatibility. After all, I probably have a toy buying problem. Even as we speak I am contemplating buying more toys. Toys that if things continue to be how they have been, will never be used. I already have 3 footlockers full of toys. So not sure what to do. Will update in a couple days when I reach 6 months without masturbation and cumming other than a wet dream once. |
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| Age: 24 |
| Darwin,
Australia |
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