jayneuk

Female Dominant, 29, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

Male Switch, 30, Kissimmee, Florida

Female Dominant, 33, leesummit, Missouri

Hi guys.... thanks for the messages, a couple of really obnoxious ones which I showed my owner, and thankfully he backs me and says that if anyone said that to me in the street he would knock them into next week. So.... you know what, I can't be bothered with writing everything down anymore or being polite to morons. Everything in real life is GR8.

Are you coming today ? Why aren't you ringing me, have I done something wrong ? Felt really weird last night, dozing off all the time and dreaming of big cocks, come and see me please. xx

Feeling happy this morning... but sad that Tony has gone. Spent Sunday afternoon gagged with panties in my mouth - at least they hadn't been used. Stoped me talking through the football. I can't help it, just felt chatty, and then spent all Sunday afternoon and night in bed making love and fooling around. Really got on great once I got to know him. Are you coming round (my dear owner) ? Nothing to do but go to see the nasty chemist man in a bit.

So I went to meet the guy outside the chemists. That was pretty weird and not worth wasting time on. He wouldn?t take me in his house in case his wife suspected something when she came home so it was in his garage where he gave me the tenner and took my coat. he asked if I was still doing a dare, I said not really and he asked if I could deep throat eight and a half inch as he stripped naked. I remembered I said he had seven inch or so, definitely not eight and half. So I said yes and knelt down and sucked his semi erect cock. He stopped me a few times and then he went and picked? a pair of yellow rubber gloves up and put them on and told me to get up. They were kitchen gloves and he wanted to feel me all over - weird, but it was strange because they had little plastic bumps on them, and the material didn?t sort of slid over my skin, it pulled and sort of gripped. It was a strange feeling as he pushed my breasts around. Pulled my bum cheeks apart and then laid an old blanket on the ground and fucked me for ten minutes while gripping my bottom and things with my legs up in the air. After he had come he was pretty quick to get me to go, asking for my address or phone number again but I didn?t give it. I said I would be at the chemists regular, he asked if I was on methadone ?? So I went and spent the tenner on electric and set off home, hoping Tony had gone. I could see the lights were on and I went a walk round but had to go home as it was so cold. He asked if I had been whoring. I said yes and he said his brother had rung up and given him some instructions for me. I asked what and he said I would find out. I went to put the electric token in the meter and then took my coat and shoes off. He had closed the curtains and taken his shirt off and laid back on the bed. I asked what time he was going, he said he was staying the night and his brother had said I could sleep on the floor if I wanted ? I went in the kitchen for a drink of water and I saw he had been through my stuff from the chemists and my drawers weren?t shut right. After a bit he asked if I had taken all my pills. I asked if his brother had said anything. He said no, which either meant he hadn?t rung or maybe he hadn?t read my journals. I said that the chemist wouldn?t give me one of them and I had taken a couple of painkillers and one of the anti depressants just after lunchtime. He said he used to take all of that stuff when he was younger and said I needed to take some more to make then kick in. I said I?d take them before I went to bed, he said I wasn?t going to bed, and he fetched me a couple of painkillers and two anti-depressants. I said that was too much, it?s two a day, and he said ?take them, they haven?t given you enough dosage?. Then he grabbed me round the throat with one hand and made me take them, and he poured water into my mouth and down me and made me swallow. Then he threw the rest of the water in my face. He took the glass into the kitchen and came back and went in my drawers and brought out the dog collar and lead and he put on me. I said ?no, this isn?t right?. He said his brother had told him to do it. Then he made me get on the floor and he pulled me round the floor, across the bed and round and round, on my hands and knees. I didn?t like this - I can?t respect people younger than me and I didn?t think my owner wanted this at all. He went in the drawer again and pulled my dildo out and he held it upright on the floor and told me to kneel over it and then to lower myself onto it. I said it ?no, I can?t? and he hit me in the face with the back of his fist and said ?don?t fucking you dare answer back?. I thought he had split my bottom lip but it is just a bit swollen. I took the dildo gradually up my cunt. It is sort of knobbled so it doesn?t exactly slide in. He made me ride it up and down while he held the base, so I was also pressing against his arm. Then he made me lay on my front and he pushed it right up me with his foot and made me do press ups and then sit on the floor with my legs spread so the end of the dildo was pressing on the carpet, at an angle. I had to put my hands on the back of my head and push my body forward and back so the dildo was pressing against me deep inside. He pulled my hair a bit and slapped my face and had me stand spread eagled against the wall and used the dildo up me and my small vibrator up my bottom. Then he said he was watching Match of the Day and I could go on the computer if I wanted but to shut the fuck up. I couldn?t really concentrate on anything. At an interval he told me I could sleep on the floor at the side of the bed or I could sleep with him. So at the end of match of the day he went to bed and I went on the floor. He had stripped naked. I didn?t sleep, I started thinking about the things I had done, especially what happened on the bus and having sex in the woods. I started dozing off and then woke up with pictures in my head of me with my dress round my waist and all the faces of people? looking at me. I started getting this overwhelming need for sex. I?ve never felt that before, it was weird, all I could think about was? cock? and Tony who?s semi erection looked quite big when he went to bed. I think it was about two hours later he said ?quit wriggling about - get in here if you want something?. So I got in. He bit my neck, my breasts, bit my inner thighs, gave me oral, and fucked me. I orgasmed and cried out, arching my back and I sort of do this thing when I come where my legs go all tense and I turn my feet and ankles in circles. God it was a right cum. Tony carried on and came up me, and then went back to biting and kissing me all over. He went down on me and then came up with spunk in his mouth and kissed me and forced his tongue in my mouth and then he fucked me again and I came again. This has never really happened to me like this before. We slept till about 10.30am and he fucked me for a third time - no cum for me that time but uit was raw and sexy. Fuck knows what will happen now - he wants a Sunday lunch now, in bed.

My owners brother has come banging on the door wanting to watch the football. I?m sat here in my see through nightie and no knickers while he?s laid on my bed getting drunk. He obviously saw everything I have, and didn't comment. then I realised it was dark and my nightie was supposed to be off. What a dilemma ?? So I took it off, and he passed me a beer and asked if the curtains could be closed. I said they had to stay open and he said ok. Half time he went to the bathroom and asked what I was doing - I switched to a consumer questionnaire I was filling in. Got to go out at 7.15pm !!! And he has my owners keys. Ok, I realise that my owner gave his brother the keys so he his here checking up on me. Maybe it is a turn on that he finds the football more interesting than me. Then again I never get on with younger people anyway. Need him to go as soon as footie finishes. Need to get ready.... had a wash, put deodorant on, bit of make up.... got shoes and coat out.... take the hint please.... go home....

Decided to give this site one last go and not let people bully me and make threats. I have put a lot of hours in to let narrow minded people put me off. Went to the chemists this morning and had a few problems getting what was prescribed, some questions to be answered but got most of it now. I came out of the chemists and that man I did in the woods yesterday was waiting outside. He had seen me as he walked past. He asked if I needed any bus fare today. Well I was told to look after myself this weekend so I told him I needed ?10 electric sometime this weekend. He said it was ?5 yesterday. I said I was desperate then. He said his wife is going tonight and he will meet me at 7.30pm outside the chemists, so I agreed. Should last till then.

Well - got to my appointment, just. It was much further than I thought on the second bus but thankfully it was fairly quit and civilised journey. It was an elderly lady doctor, someone my owner knows well apparently. She was really lovely. Obviously she knew lots about me and has re-registered me as I didn?t have a doctor. She wanted to have a look at my ribs and told me to slip my dress off. I had to say that I didn?t have underwear on, and she said that was ok. She had a feel and squeezed my ribs and said that she thinks it is just a minor crack and it will heal itself. She had a look at my black eye as well which is healing but she didn?t ask any questions. Then she asked about my depression and mood swings.? I wasn?t expecting that and just sort of waffled my way through it and she went on to sexual health and said I needed three monthly testing and could make an appointment if I thought I needed extra checks. I was getting puzzled when she went on to asking if I used any drugs and how much I drank. Then she said that she would register me with my local pharmacy to pick condoms up whenever I wanted, apparently they give six at a time but I can go every day?? she thought I was a prostitute !!!!!!!!! She took a urine sample, a swab from my fanny and bottom and several thingies of blood. I have to go back in three weeks for the results, or can ring in? to check. I have never spent so long at a doctors ! Finally she gave me a prescription with several things to help me cope with depression and pain killers for my ribs. Oh and some cream for my bottom? She said it was something, not antisceptic, something stronger, I forget? Maybe I will be happy and more polite tomorrow when I get them. So back to town and met my Owner. Went for a quick drink (well I had a few) but had to rush because he is going away for the weekend on family business. In the pub he gave me a present - it was a black collar and a dog lead. OK, I have seen them in photos on this site so I knew what it was. Not that dumb. He told me to put it on - bit tight but it was ok and he attached the lead which is silver metal with a leather handle. He told me to keep? it on till I got home and then I could take it off till he tells me to use it. I have to let the lead hand down in front when he isn?t using it. When we left the pub he led me down an alleyway behind some bins and told me to suck him off. I knelt down but he wanted me squatting with my legs spread and he slapped me in the face with his cock, and then made me suck his balls before sucking his cock. It was quite good with all the passing noise at the other side of the bins. He pulled out and came in my face and hair and then pulled me up and wiped it over my face and then fingered my pussy with his spunk. I felt really giddy when I stood up, too much drink too quickly I think. He led me to the bus stop, the one I hate. I would walk back to the previous one where all the office workers get on but I knew what he wanted of course. He leaned me against a wall and let my lead hang down and told me what he wanted me to do. I had to wait for a bus to just go and try and be first in the queue and then wait for the next bus. He would ring my mobile and talk to me and I had to have one hand holding the phone to my ear, and the other arm folded across my tummy with my coat over it, and my ticket in my hand to show the driver. He asked me twice if I had got all that. I said yes. Then he told me he didn?t believe they were as bad as I made out. I said they were and told him just to watch the animals. He said ?OK?. So if nothing happens I will tell you to get off at the next stop and walk back. If it does you can go home. But, you don?t do anything to stop it if it does?. I said Ok, and he reminded me again (I suppose he thought I was drunk), don?t do anything to stop anyone touching you, keep your hands up, phone in one, ticket in the other.? Ok. I got it. Let them have a grope. Oh God I was getting wet but I didn?t know why, I was dreading it. It must be like going in a rugby scrum thing. So we let a bus go and I was like ?Look, look, there like animals?. There was all the British people stood in a queue and all the immigrants just pushing their way on and not getting anywhere because the driver can?t understand where they want to go ! So I kissed him goodbye and went and stood in the queue - I was second as someone beat me, and I was shivering with anticipation, fear and the cold as I stood there. Then he rang me and we chatted and he kept telling to me to get in there but not rush onto the bus, take my time and just see what develops. He was making me nervous, the crown was getting bigger - I didn?t realise that the buses are less frequent anyway after 6pm. Well I did but I forgot. So about 15 minutes later a bus came. I was held up behind the man in front, people behind me were trying to push pass, there were about 20 people pushing from the opposite direction. My owner was asking me what was happening and I was trying to think straight. The man in front of me was on, an immigrant pushed straight in front of me, I was on the phone saying ?see, look? and my owner was asking if I had been groped yet. I said no and someone else pushed in front and they were trying to shout thought the plastic screen to the driver where they wanted to go. I felt a cold hand on my outer thigh. I said ?it?s happening?. he asked what. I said ?I can?t say?. He said ?tell me?. I whispered ?hand on my thigh?. He said ?I thought you said they didn?t speak English, you don?t have to whisper?. I had a hand on both my thighs. I told him., He said ?don?t do anything, don?t look round, I?m watching?. They guy in front was arguing with the driver about the fare, the guy behind him was stood on the edge of the bus platform, I was stood in the gutter. Someone patted my bottom and then seemed to lift my dress from behind. I said down the phone, ?ooh? he?s patted my bottom, lifted my dress, I told you?. Someone seemed to briefly grab me around the waist. I jumped as something brushed against my bottom, like a bag or a glove, between my legs, oh, against my pussy lips. God ! Someone was squeezing? me round the waist. It was like whoever was there had five or six hands. My owner was telling me not to react. The man at the front pushed back off the bus pushing me back off the step into whoever was groping me and then it was forward as the next man showed his pass, then I stepped up and held my ticket up. Suddenly I felt the draught. I looked down and saw my tight dress was wrapped up around my waist. I gasped, looked down the bus and saw maybe 30 people, white business types, immigrants, men and woman, all looking aghast at me. I dropped the phone on the floor. It isn?t easy to bnd down with high heels on, I tried to pull my dress partly down, grabbed the phone and ran upstairs, no doubt still with my pussy and bum cheeks displayed. Oh God, dog collar and chain, no panties, what the hell were they thinking, saying ??? I have never felt so embarrassed in my life. I think I got my dress right back down before the top step. No one up here knew, but those behind coming up the stairs did,? I sat down, they smiled, laughed, glared at me as they passed. My owner rang back. He was laughing at me and saying he saw my big bare arse and my pussy hair. He said it was amazing. He said everyone downstairs was talking about it as the bus pulled away. He asked how embarrassing it would be for me to get off at the next stop, I said no, please don?t. He told me to get off !? I couldn?t believe it, I must have been bright red. I pressed the bell and the bus immediately pulled up as I dashed downstairs and was straight off, not daring to look anywhere. My owner told me to walk back towards him and then said he had seen a friend near the bus stop and he was going to approach me. I asked where my owner was - he said ?I?m gone, I?ve got things to do? and he hung up on me. I was on a road with takeaways, a black area, but it was fairly quiet. Suddenly a man grabbed my lead and pulled me to the side. He was a, well half-caste type man, tall with a long face, about 45, and with bad teeth as he smiled at me, and he led me up a side road and down another alleyway, like a dark old industrial area. He pushed me into some railings and held my face against them, and ran his other hand up and down my outer things and then between my legs making me spread them a bit and then his hand was on my pussy. I could hear myself breathing. He used both his hands to squeeze my waist and I could feel my dress rising up as he pushed himself against me. I think it was him that was behind me at the bus queue. He was feeling my bare hips and pressing himself against my bare bottom and then feeling my stomach and pubes, then he pulled the straps of my dress down hard over my arms and made me gasp. The dress was too tight to come over my breasts so he pulled them out with his hand and pressed me back into the railings. He groped me all over for about ten minutes, shoved two, then three fingers up my cunt and then he moved away. I thought he would fuck me now and I was trembling and gasping and I looked round and he had just walked away. Oh God. I felt like I had been raped and I hadn?t ! I pulled my dress up and squeezed my tits back in and covered my bottom and grabbed my coat from the floor. I walked back to the bus stop, and found I had somehow lost my ticket. An hours walk home in high heels through all the black and Asian areas. Yes, it was my most erotic experience yet, especially on the bus.

That isn't fair. You did promise and now you have gone back on your word, I can't believe you have put that photo there. I didn't finish my journal because I was messaging people, then you rang about 11.30pm and I was talking to you and then I fell asleep. You said I didn't have to reply to young people, immature comments or threats etc, so it is obviously those people who complain to you. But I am sorry. I will finish my journal, I have to go to the chemists an get my script and I have to get some electric somehow.

NOTE FROM SYorksM. added info on my journal. JAYNE, I have logged onto my profile this morning and what do I find ? Compliments about my slut ? - NO, more complaints about you not replying, more complaints about your rudeness. I DO NOT WANT TO BE DEALING WITH COMPLAINTS. I gave you what you wanted yesterday. You haven't even posted your journal which I expected to be the most erotic yet. SO... look after yourself this weekend. Don't bother trying to contact me, make decisions for yourself. I know I promised no more facial photos, but DO NOT REMOVE the photo until after the weekend and then move it to your private album. You are exposed to the masses yet again.

NOTE FROM SYorksM. added info on my journal. Jayne you must not look. I haven't read your mail but understand you are still not being polite to people.

So, now I have my bus fare. I have an appointment with my owners friend who is a doctor. He is going to take a look at my ribs and ?a few other things?. Two bus rides to get there, to an area I don?t know at all. Then back to Sheffield and meet my owner there, but I have to then come home by bus. Further instructions, I must wear my orange dress, shoes, high heels, not boots, and I can wear a coat, no underwear - in fact I don?t wear any underwear now at all unless specifically instructed. To give me something to look forward to, on the way home I will have to get groped by immigrants. I will have my coat off and folded over my arms and will be expected to get in a crush for the bus and make no effort to stop anyone groping me. If I don?t get groped I must get off at the next stop and walk back and try again? and keep trying. My Owner will watch.? At least it won?t be rush hour by then.

So to recap my afternoon task -? I have to go out in just my coat and boots, get the electric, on the way back from the shops I have to earn at least ?4.30 for a bus ticket and then wait for instructions.? I have to ask for no more than ?5 and earn it on my back, naked except for boots, in the woods, full sex, not oral. Daylight as well, and I can tell you those woods are very sparse at this time of year. Well went out at Noon and walked to local shops wearing just my coat and boots. Nice when I set off, rained a bit as I got there and then brightened up again. I was looking at the woods as I walked past them, at this time of year you can see right the way up to the top, no leaves on trees, no cover anywhere, and houses at the top that look down the hill through the woods. Wondered if they can see into my bedsit (with a telescope maybe). I thought this would be a bit easier with more people to choose from but now I realised differently?. Where to go - got to be in the woods but actually there are so many people that can see - passing pedestrians, main road and top of hill, came for cars, buses, houses. Not to mention people cutting through the woods. At the shops there were about 100 school kids running about - young Asian and black ones. Another problem. Anyway, I put the ?5 electric on my token and had a walk round. I wish I had money for a drink, or two, (or a bottle). Obviously best to get on with it - I could see me getting to 2pm and panicking. A few white men around, was just going to try one decent looking guy when his wife came out of a shop and joined him, a couple of workmen who had just got takewaways. The I saw one who was heading from a van to a takeaway - so I ran after him and said ?excuse me, could you help me?. He asked what, and I said ?I need to get my bus fare, I wondered if I could do anything to earn it?. he just looked at me and said ?fuck off druggie?. Wow? do I look like a druggie. Well probably after last night. I should have had a bath and washed my hair ! So then I felt disgusted with myself and walked back towards the woods. There was a man walking towards me, 50?s, bit fat, grey hair, white. Oh fuck, the embarrassment ! I stuttered ?excuse me?, he stopped. I said I needed a day ticket for a bus and I knew no one would give me ?5, but I was really desperate and could I earn it ? He did actually looked shocked but said it depended on what I could do. I said ?anything you want really?. Then it started raining quite heavily. He said his car needed washing ! Then before I could think of what to say he said ?unless you are offering something more personal. I said ?yes?. He asked where I lived. I said it had to be in the woods. He said it was wet, and maybe a blow job? I said ?look I am doing this as a bit of a dare, I have to earn ?5 for full sex, naked except for my boots, on my back, in the woods. He said ?ok then, as long as you haven?t got someone in there waiting to rob me?. I assured him I hadn?t and said he could pick where. We walked back up the road to find an entrance and he asked if I had anything on under my coat. I said no and he said he thought not. In the woods he said his name was Steve, I told him mine and we headed off the path, and found it was fairly muddy and lots of slippy wet leaves on the ground. He said he couldn?t exactly go home with muddy clothes as his wife would see, so I said we would have to lay on my coat. We walked round a bit and just settled on somewhere right at one side of the woods in the middle, well away from the paths. He gave me the ?5 first which was a shock. The rain had stopped again and it was bright. I took a durex from my pocket and he said ?do we have to?. I said it was up to him, we had come this far. He said ?no then?. I put it back in my pocket and unbuttoned my coat, nervously looking around and then quickly slipped it off and laid it on the driest bit of ground. I just wanted to get it over with quick, but he said he liked kissing and put his arms round me, kissed me long and passionate and felt me all over. I tried to undo his belt, he helped me and then I quickly laid on my coat and he knelt between my legs and pushed them up over his shoulders and sank his cock straight up me. He was about seven inch and fucked me quickly, hurting my ribs but I didn?t say anything. He kissed me while he fucked me and came up me in about three minutes. He rested for a moment, gave a few more thrusts and pulled out, standing up and pulling his trousers up. He asked if he could have my phone number, I said I couldn?t but may see him around. My coat was a bit muddy but not too bad, I put it on and we walked back to the path and then in opposite directions.? Oh God?. What a slut !!!!! Who had watched ???? I went home a long way round just in case and finally had a bath. Not sure what I do if I see him again and he propositions me ???

Sorry, I will write it again and go into sordid details. Last night I went out just before 9pm. I had been watching for an hour and a half and there were less and less people about. Buses go from about 40 an hour to about 4 an hour after dark. I finally decided I had to go, I put a coat on - just above knee length and my black knee length boots, naked underneath. It was freezing of course. I hung about in the bus shelter hoping someone would come, a older white man preferably. First there were four teenage lads on bikes hanging about so I had to take long walks round the block, then I made my first couple of approaches and it was absolutely so embarrassing. The first man was an Indian looking man, about 30, I would say - I said it was freezing and that my electric had run out and I needed to borrow ?10. He just ignored me, and I asked him if he could help. He said ?no no no? and shook his head. I said I would do something and he ignored me again so I walked away. I went up a steep path through the woods and passed a older Pakistani or Indian man. He had like a white smock on and hat and trousers of course and a grey beard. I asked if he would lend me ?10. He just walked past. I said I would do something. Again he ignored me.? Then there were two women hanging about just down from the bus stop, separately but then they kept meeting up and walking away again and talking on mobiles - I was worried they might be police. There have been a lot of robberies round here. I had to walk right round again. I finally found a black man who was about to walk down through the woods, I asked if he could spare ?10 as I had run out of electric. He said ?are you mad?. I said I would do something for it. He looked interested and I said we could go down in the woods. He asked me if it were for drugs, I said no. He said ok but then said he only had his bus fare and we would go back to his place and he would make it worth my while. I knew it wasn?t what I was instructed to do but I was desperate and it would be stupid to turn him down. He said it wasn?t far. We walked, and walked. He started putting his arm round me and telling me I was one sexy woman and asking ?did I have a boyfriend?. I said yes but he was away for a few days and my benefits hadn?t arrived. I kept asking how much further, it was always ?end of this road? .? He made a phone call to make sure his flatmate was staying out - he spoke foreign down the phone. We got to an area of old terraced houses and we went down an alley between to houses. I thought we were there but he wanted a kiss and a grope and he found I was naked and undid my coat, I struggled a bit but he had it open and groped my breasts and fingered me. He asked what I was going to do for this tenner. I said I thought he was going to give me more, he said he was. I said I would do anything. Stupid I know. Then he said it was just up the hill and told me to just hold my coat closed and he led me with his arm round me. He kept squeezing my breasts, through the coat or sometimes with his hand inside my coat. I was sacred but excited. It felt really seedy. I noticed the cold air flowing through my legs as we walked and I knew my fanny was wet. We got to the house, I had no idea where we were. Upstairs to the attic and we went in. We went in this dark, damp smelling flat and he pulled my coat off. I asked for the money and he said I had to earn it first, and then this other black guy came in. I would say they were both about late 30?s. The one who had walked home was about 5?6 but stocky, well built with very short hair. The other was about 5?10 slim with short curly hair. They made some comments like ?neat bro? and ?right on? and the door was locked. I said I wasn?t doing this, stood there in my boots. My heart was absolutely pounding and they laughed and asked what I was going to do and they went through my coat pockets and found two durex, tissues and my keys. Comments were ?two durex, that ain?t enough sis? and ?you wanna go home - just leave right now, see how far you get dressed like that?. Oh yes - and ?you can make this nice for us or we can make it nasty for you?. It must have been about 11.30pm by now. The one I had walked with pulled me down onto a two seater settee with him and the other squeezed in at the other side, they both pulled their shirts off started feeling me all over and were both kissing my neck, then my mouth and gradually they were stripping naked and making me wank their cocks while they were fingering my fanny. I asked if they had any alcohol, and they fetched a bottle of rum, which I have never really drunk, no glasses, and we all had a drink and I said that if they both gave me a tenner I would go with them and would have to get going, but they laughed again and gave me another drink and said I was going when they said I could go. I asked to use the bathroom, they showed me. I was looking for my coat and where the door key was but could see neither. The bathroom was scruffy and there was no lock on the door even if I had wanted to? lock myself in. I went back out and was led straight to a bedroom, again, dark and damp and messy. The one I walked with had a cock about eight inch and he was quite muscular. The other?s cock was about seven inch. We were all on the bed and I sucked them both on my knees and then the muscular one fucked me, knelt behind while I sucked his mate. No durex - no idea where they were. He came up me and the other one went on top of me on the bed and fucked me till he came up me. Then the first one fetched the bottle of rum and I drank loads while they groped me and sucked and bit me and the night just went on and on, they both fucked me again, them on top, then more drinking and groping and sort of semi conscious sleep, waking up with fingers up me, lying awake while they dozed and seeing daylight arriving and then having to go on top of them both and riding them till they had both come a third time. Then suddenly they wanted me to go. I argued for the money and eventually they threw a load of coins out of the door and my coat after them. Followed my me. I managed to find just over ?5 and ran out into the freezing daylight. I was 7am. No idea which way, but eventually I found a main road and walked two miles home passing the morning traffic, spunk oozing out of my dirt cunt. I had my keys but no tissues or durex. I had to stop for a wee behind a tree and had to wipe myself with my hand. Eventually got home just before 8am and eventually got a furious phone call from my owner. Yes a body has been found, but not mine? fortunately ? Unfortunately ? Do I care anymore ? Now, I have to go out in just my coat and boots, get the electric, (running on emergency now so it ?5 won?t last long). On the way back from the shops I have to earn at least ?4.30 for a bus ticket and the wait for instructions. I have to be ready to go out again by 2.30pm. Further instructions is that I have to ask for no more than ?5 and earn it on my back, naked except for boots, in the woods, full sex, not oral. Daylight as well, and I can tell you those woods are very sparse at this time of year.

Last night I went out just before 9pm. I had been watching for an hour and a half and there were less and less people about. Buses go from about 40 an hour to about 4 an hour after dark. I finally decided I had to go, I put a coat on - just above knee length and my black knee length boot, naked underneath. It was freezing of course. First there were four teenage lads on bikes hanging about so I had to take long walks round the block, then I made my first couple of approaches and it was absolutely so embarrassing. Then there were two women hanging about just down from the bus stop, talking on mobiles - I got the impression the were police so had to walk right round again. I finally found a black man who was about to walk down through the woods, I asked if he could spare ?10 as I had run out of electric. He said ?are you mad?. I said I would do something for it. He looked interested and I said we could go down in the woods. He said ok but then said he only had his bus fare and we would go back to his place and he would make it worth my while. I knew it wasn?t what I was instructed to do but I was desperate and it would be stupid to turn him down. He said it wasn?t far. We walked, and walked. He started putting his arm round me and telling me I was one sexy woman and asking ?did I have a boyfriend?. I kept asking how much further, it was always ?end of this road? . We got to an area of old terraced houses and we went down an alley between to houses. I thought we were there but he wanted a kiss and a grope and he found I was naked and undid my coat, I struggled a bit but he had it open and groped my breasts and fingered me. Then he said it was just up the hill and told me to just hold my coat closed and he led me with his arm round me. We got to the house, I had no idea where we were. Upstairs to the attic and we went in. he had made a phone call to make sure his flatmate was staying out - he spoke foreign down the phone. We went in this dark damp smelling flat and he pulled my coat off. I asked for the money and he said I had to earn it and then this other black guy came in. It was horrible. They kept me there all night and then gave me a fiver in loose change and threw me out at just after 7am. It took me ages to find a main road and then I was about two miles from home. I cried most of the way home.

I am at an all time low. I haven't slept for 24 hours plus. I have been a totally stupid bitch again and my body aches all over. I am sorry I was out all night and a body was found in Sheffield but I am a totally thick fuck-meat (or whatever). This all really isn't what I wanted. I thought this would be excitement, fun. Someone to love and do things for. On-line I thought it would be a real turn on, not being spoken to like I am scum. I really need to say that I am not enjoying this in any way now. We could make it better ?? my tasks for today. write about last night. humiliate myself with great detail. go get electric at lunchtime and make at least ?4.30 for my bus fare. be ready for my mystery appointment this afternoon get myself groped up on the bus. I am sorry, I love you xx

Look I am not the type of person who can walk up to a complete stranger and offer them sex in the open air for money. I know you are thinking that this is like what I did with my ex but it isn't, I just got chatted up and proposition then, I didn't make the moves. This is completely different and it isn't in my nature. Please ring me and tell me I don't have to do this. I have been looking out and there are usually groups of lads hanging about and I have never actually seen a white man. Please. I am not feeling well either. Thank you for the phone call. I am not whining, I am going to do it but not till later when it is quieter. I was always going to. Sorry. xx

I am getting some really nasty messages now, stupid bitch, stupid slag, not much of a brain?.. I always thought I was fairly intelligent, but now I am realising that I am not. It?s depressing. I have to write about what I did to annoy my owner last night and the consequences. I should have waited for him looking forward to pleasuring him after he gave me a nice afternoon. But in between was the bus journeys and three hours spent being talked down to on here, answering messages. I have learned now not to spend so long online. So, when my Owner arrived at 10pm, I was sat naked, lights on, curtains open, just switching the computer off. I spent 20 minutes moaning about the bus journey and then ended up under my desk with my owners ten inch in my mouth for half an hour. He didn?t want to cum. When he let me get back up, I then started moaning about what people on here were messaging me and saying that it wasn?t the turn on I thought it may be. So I got slapped and punched. I now have a black eye and I think I have a broken rib. It hurts when I breath or move, and especially if I lay down. I was then thrown across the room into the wall and my owner had anal sex with me. I have had anal before, years ago, but never with a ten inch cock with a big knob end. It wouldn?t go in, but there were some sachets of lube with the durex I got yesterday so my owner used one up my bum and on his cock and fucked me bent over the bed on my knees. Afterwards (five minutes), I felt ripped apart and dirty and cried as I showered. I was then made to sleep (not sleep) on the cold kitchen floor while he slept in my bed. At 4am he told me to put a coat on and he took me barefoot across the road into the woods and up behind an old building near a small park. It was frozen snow on the ground and icy. My owner told me that the reason he has put ?50 on my gas and only ?5 on my electric is that I will need electric for TV, computer, drinks etc and before I run out I will have to go out and earn ?10 or even ?5 by approaching people after dark (I can wear either dress or coat and shoes or boots) and try to borrow the money telling them I have run out of electric. When they say no I have to ask if I can do something to earn it. They have to be either stood at the bus stop opposite my home or walking down a steep pathway in the woods that is a shortcut from the council estate to the main road. I haven?t got to take them home, so I must ?do them? in the woods, or take them to a walled garden behind the building he took me to.? Once I have gone out I can?t go home till I have earned, and if I can?t get? a tenner I have to take what they will offer. I will need ?5 tonight and must also get ?5 bus fare to save for? Friday. That is my punishment.

Not one of my better nights.... thankfully not writing about it as it was private stuff with my owner.? Got to write about the bus journeys though.? I am not at all racist in any way, but I feel really uneasy at the way the non-English speaking immigrants stare at women, especially on buses. I used to notice it on the few occasions I used buses in the past, especially one guy who used to sit next to women even if there were empty seats, stare at them, touch their legs, and follow them off the bus. he always seemed to be getting on and off buses.? Yesterday I had to get a bus from one area to town, and then change onto a bus home. I only had an orange short dress on and boots, no undies or coat, and it was snowing so I stood out. I was told I had to catch the second bus at a particular place, a sort of seedy, city centre stop where crowds gather. mainly foreigners and there is a complete free for all when the bus comes. I was stood second in the queue with about 20 people stood around on the pavement. The lady in front of me made sure she was first on the bus - it was elbows out and she was on. Me, I ended up in the middle of about 30 foreign men, getting almost carried onto the bus in the crush. And oh-my God I felt cold hands on my thighs and bottom and I could feel my dress riding up, so all I could do was hang onto the hem with both hands and show my ticket and continue being pushed on. The downstairs was nearly full, no way I was going upstairs and I had to stand for a few stops and then got a seat on the very back, long seat, sat in the middle of two guys at each side and facing four guys on the backwards facing seats. They were all just staring, grinning, trying to look up my dress. One elderly man came up to me and held a handkerchief in front of my face and they all laughed. Some got off at the local mosque, some a few stops before me, and a few got up and followed me off, when they didn't seem to be getting off till I got up. I don't like this at all, makes me cringe.

Just actually seen what my photo now says --- was I not supposed to see that. ??? is that why some people are being horrible to me ?

Just home, eventful day. Freezing my f***ing tits off !!! ?? Fourteen messages to answer !! So today - Had a nice day out. Ran out of electric in the middle of the night and my owner couldn?t get over till lunchtime, so was glad to see him. No Telly !! Went shopping and for a nice meal, and went to family planning to get on the pill. Got a bag of durex to see me through till it takes effect. Don?t think I can get pregnant anyway so why?s people worrying ? I no longer need to go into detail about what I do with my owner - that is personal. So after we had done whatever, I put on a short, tight orange dress and black boots and we went to town. I wasn?t allowed a coat and we had just set off and the snow came absolutely? hmm, snowing down. Then we got to the City Centre and the sun was out. I was still freezing though, no sleeves or anything. My owner bought me a few drinks with a meal and kept me warm though. Then went to his mates pub, where he took me a few weeks ago.? (before I started writing about things).? This time we didn?t sit with all his mates, we sat in a corner and kissed and cuddled and they left us alone. After a while he said the landlord (his mate) wanted me to go upstairs for a bit, so I slipped behind the bar and he followed me upstairs. He is a big lad, well bloke. As soon as we were in his bedroom he stripped my dress off of me and stripped naked himself. We stood facing each other and he pulled my nipples and rotated them while I wanked his cock. I said to him that I don?t really like that, but he just laughed and carried on. He told me to finger my pussy as well, so I was wanking him, fingering myself and sort of twitching and gritting my teeth because of my nipples getting pulled. He told me to lay on the bed and ?wank? myself (his words) so I masturbated for him and he went out and came back with the big dildo he watched me use last time. Then he started getting a bit verbally insulting calling me a whore and to get the fucking dildo right up my fanny. After about ten minutes he fetched a wooden chair and told me to come and get over his lap and he spanked my bottom and statred asking me about ?have I done bondage, have I had canings, have I been with a lesbian?. No No No !!!?? I told him about the hairdresser making me use a dildo - I presume he already knew and it seemed to satisfy his curiosity. He told me to get off and suck his cock, I climbed off, knelt down and sucked it, licked his balls, got spanked again, sucked his cock faster and deeper and then he said ?back on the bed? and he threw himself on top of me and fucked me. He pinned my arms to the bed and bit my neck hard and then stopped to bite my breasts and nipples and then he fucked me till he came and rolled off. While I dressed he said there were a couple of lesbians downstairs in the bar and he asked if I would like to meet them. I said ?no thanks?. He said I could put a show on for him and my owner. Err?no !? I told my owner afterwards and he said he?s all talk and no balls. Thank God !.

At 6.50pm I was laid under the duvet, naked of course, watching TV, when there was a knock at the door. This was my worse fear, would rather someone let themselves in because I would know where they had got the key - or at least would feel better even in my skimpy nightie. Was it my owner testing me ? I shouted out to ask who it was - a man said ?Jayne, let me in?. I opened the door slightly, it is dark on the corridor but it was an elderly, stocky man with a beard. I stood back and let him in, briefly trying to cover myself. He said that ***** had sent him. He was a businessman in an overcoat and suit. He took my arms, his hands were freezing and pulled them out so he could look at me. I felt a strange mix of excitement and fear, it makes me shiver. He put a sealed envelope on the bed and said ?that?s for *****? and he asked for a coffee to warm him up a bit. I went to make it and he took his coat and jacket off and sat on the bed. When I gave him his coffee he patted the bed and asked me to sit with next to him and he cuddled me and then felt my breasts and then made me kiss him, pushing his tongue in my mouth, squeezing my breasts and pushing me back on the bed. He stopped to undress - his tie and shirt and then his shoes, socks and trousers. He asked about drawing the curtains. I just said ?it?s ok no one can see the bed?. He didn?t question that and stripped off his pants and joined me on the bed again. He cock was erect, about seven inch. He sucked my breasts and kissed me again and said that I could do better at kissing, so I started kissing him back more - for some reason I think kissing is really personal, but never mind. I wanked his cock while we kissed and then I sucked it for? a few minutes. He stopped me before he came and asked for a durex. I said I didn?t have any. He seemed a bit shocked. First person who has asked, and I don?t have any money to buy them. He asked if I was clean. I said yes, feeling humiliated, and he asked if I was on the pill - I said no, and he said I must like taking risks. He went on top and I guided his cock up my cunt and he started fucking me, stopped to kiss me and suck my breasts again and then he started fucking me harder while he carried on kissing me and pulling holding my legs up. He started saying he was going to come so fucking deep in me and then kissed me while he came.? He laid on me panting for three or four minutes and then rolled off, releasing lots of spunk onto the duvet. I started to sit up but he pushed me back and fingered my cunt for a few minutes and then asked for another coffee. I would have liked to have dressed at this point to give the message it was over, but couldn?t of course. I gave him the coffee and he sat on the bed still and started feeling my bottom and thighs and the he said ?now get on your knees and get me hard again?. Oh God, once is enough. I knelt and took his cock in my fingers and then my mouth - I HATE the taste of my own juices. He started feeling down and pulling my nipples.? It went on ages and nothing was happening and he told me to get up and kiss him. We kissed and I wanked his cock and he got semi hard and then wanted me on top, so I took his cock up my cunt and rode him, he kept wanting to kiss and I was getting breathless. I tried sitting upright and riding him up and down but he pulled me back down to kiss and just when I was finally running out of steam he slapped my bottom hard and told me to keep going.? I was thrusting my hips once, twice, then getting a slap and trying to keep going. Oh God it reminded me of something in my past, being made to keep fucking when my body just wants to give in, and suddenly I pushed right down and arched my back as I orgasmed. That finished him off thank God, he was thrusting upwards as he came up me again. Think I will sleep better tonight.

? To recap, my owner arranged a female hairdresser to visit me between 11am and 2pm, and I had to stay as ordered in just my baby doll nightie.? I thought that was bad enough but just before she was due to arrive someone suggested that she may know what was happening and how I would be dressed, which freaked me out even more. I had decided to say I was just going for a quick shower and act normal (me?). OK, so I let her in with all my bits barely covered and said ?oh sorry I was just going to give my hair a quick wash?. The hairdresser came in and she was a big woman, about 6 feet tall, nice looking but a bit butch, short hair, around 40. She immediately said ?it?s alright I know what?s going on?. She put her large bag down and said she was fitting me in her lunch hour and had brought her sandwiches, and she asked if the kettle was on. I made two coffees. Conversation was very difficult, I am not a good talker at the best of times but no idea what to say to her. Eventually she asked if I was paying. I said I didn?t have any money, she said she would sort it and moved a chair for me to sit on between the widows where it was brighter. Then she pushed the straps of the nightie down over my shoulders and said she had to insist I take it off. I started shaking and she said ?it?s ok?.I?m not a lesbian, I?m not going to do anything?. Oh the embarrassment. I stripped naked and she wet my hair, the water was ice cold and made me jump, so she sprayed it a couple of times over my breasts and started trimming my hair. She said that she would have to see if ***** wanted her to shave my pubes off next time. She actually spent just about five minutes doing my hair - I could hear her breathing really heavily which worried me a bit, I could still feel myself shaking. When she was nearly done she said ?you?ve got a dildo haven?t you ??. I said yes and she got her towel and rubbed the hairs off my shoulders and breasts and said ?go and get it?. Oh My God !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well it?s only a bed-sit, didn?t actually have to go far. She said ?you?ve got to lay on the bed and let me watch you - I?m not going to touch you?.??? I lay naked on the bed and wet my fingers and the end of the dildo and spread my legs and gradually worked it up, closing my eyes so I didn?t have to look at her. She seemed to stand watching and then I heard her moving so I looked and she was packing her bag. She told me to carry on. She said I had better hope that ***** pays her - otherwise she will bring someone round who?ll pay her to fuck me?. And she added she knows some really rough people. Then she just laughed and let herself out. Leaving me humiliated again.

I feel really ill this morning. Had hardly any sleep worrying about my facial photo being here for all to see. It just brings all this crap home and makes me realise it is so real. Update - as a "treat", my owner has arranged a mobile hairdresser (female) to visit me at lunchtime. Great I thought. Then he says "don't forget the dress code". I have to let her in in my little see through nightie - no panties - so she will see my barely covered breasts, my arse and my fanny. What the hell is she going to think.?? I have never felt so small. Could be anytime from 11am till 2pm. And now I have someone on this site saying he knows me !!!!

Master has just been here for three hours. I got a backhander across the face for disobeying when he first came in. I thought it was for what I said earlier but it was because I was wearing my nightie and had pulled the curtains a little. I had misunderstood, I thought I just had to sleep naked but it is as soon as it goes dark outside. And the curtains are pinned back now. I am ok at my desk or laying on the bed though. Unless anyone at the top of the hill has binoculars. Why am I joking ? I want to cry. Oh what a day, I feel like my life has been turned upside down. Lots of threats tonight. Master talks of showing my photos to my mother and my Uncle. Well my mother doesn?t have much to do with me anyway, and there are reasons I don?t want my Uncle contacted, Master knows that now. But I thought he was threatening to post my photos to my mother or ring her up and tell her to look at this site. Now he is talking about visiting her as a ?concerned friend?. Actually sitting with her and showing her the photos he ?came across on the internet?. Comforting her and discussing how they can ?sort me out?. Putting his arm round her when she cries. Oh My God. What else ?? He even told me he had checked the house out and described it. Oh My God I can?t believe my face (and fanny) are on the Internet, I can?t cope with this. I know this site is sort of protected by having to me a member but I just know someone is going to recognise me. I mean?Jayne, Sheffield, age, etc. Oh my God !? School friends ? Neighbours ? So, tonight, well I was soon naked anyway. Master stripped naked as well. More chance of someone seeing him from outside than me. He sat in the armchair with his legs up on the arms and told me to get down on the floor. I licked his cock but he wanted me to lick his bottom and pulled my hair and forced my face between his bum cheeks. I had to wank his cock and lick his bottom and tweak his nipples all at the same time, it was really intense. Then it was onto his cock and I licked and sucked that and then I got a spanking. He doesn?t usually do that - not a proper over the knee spanking. He made me cry, but it was partly because of what he was saying about my mother. Please let it just be a threat. I am trying. He fucked me stood in the window. The one facing the bus stop and the woods. Me facing the widow and leaning on the sill and him behind me. It would have been obvious to anyone watching what was happening. I could have died ! Of embarrassment that is.? I don?t understand why he wants me so exposed. After he had come we went to bed and he made a few more threats - me fucking one of my Asian or black neighbours, sending more of his friends round to check I am dressed as ordered. Getting them all keys cut to my flat. Then he had the cheek to say I haven?t earned him any money this week.? I had to get him hard and then ride him before he went. First time I have been warm all day.? Think I'll cry myself to sleep. PS forgot to say I had 2 litres of strong cider earlier, and? a small bottle of Vodka tonight, so life isn't too bad.

I am sorry. I won't delete it until you tell me I can. I will do anything you say. I will be nice to everyone you send. And everyone online.

PLEASE DON'T DO THIS TO ME !?? I will have to delete it if you won't. I cannot risk my family seeing this.

Master called round at 1pm to make sure I was complying. Of course I was. He let himself in without warning and I was sat in just my see through nightie. He asked for a sandwich and a coffee - there wasn?t anything in to eat so he gave me some money to go to the shops. I asked ?like you said?? and he said something like ?there wouldn?t be any point me telling you if I didn?t mean it?. So I stripped and put a mini skirt and t.shirt on and shoes and went to the local shops. It was snowing a bit and freezing. All the local shops are Asian, I have no problem with that, except the men always look at me like they are undressing me. Just glare and say nothing, and every shop you go in there are half a dozen men stood about talking foreign. So got some bread and cheese and sugar and a bottle of cider he told me to get for myself. I don?t even like drinking but he seems to like me to. Got home and went to make him a sandwich and he told me ?NIGHTY? - so I had to strip off and put the nightie on again. He made me have a drink and then while he had his sandwich he made me stand in the windows leaning forward with my hands on the window sill. Sticking my bum out for him to look at. Don?t think anyone outside saw me ! I don?t know because I should wear glasses but don?t. One window looks straight across the main road to where there is a bus stop and shelter, and then some woods behind that. The other window looks right up a hill along the main road, so anyone walking or driving down the hill looks straight in. Oh well. At least the light wasn't on. Afterwards we wet to bed and he gave me oral with me on top sucking his balls and cock, and then he wanted me on top to ride him while he spanked my bottom and thighs. Getting bruises on my outer thighs. He says it's a sign of ownership. I love his big fat ten inch cock, it really stretches me and makes me scream. Sod the neighbours. Afterwards he told me to write about it. OK Master. I obey. Today was much better. Love you xx

Oh My God. What have I got into. Forgive me if this is garbled I have a thick head and sore ribs. Last night I was in bed at about 11.15pm when my Master rang me and said he was on his way and I had to have my see through baby doll nightie on. It I very see through. He let himself in and had another man with him, mid 50?s same as my Master. My Master pulled me about with my hair and exposed me to his friend and told me to make them some coffee and a sandwich. Then I had to kneel on the floor and suck and play with both their cocks. They were talking down to me and saying what a whore I am. My Master then sent me to his car outside to get a present. That is downstairs past five other flats and out onto a very busy main road and find his car in just a totally see through mini nightie and no underwear at all. And barefooted. The car was up the next side road and all went well until I was on my way back and two Asian men stopped their car and tried to get me in with them, first by shouting to me and then my pulling over onto the pavement and grabbing my arm and groping me. I pulled away and ran back in. The present was a two litre bottle of strong cider, just for me. OK, long story cut short, I got very drunk and was joined in my bed by both men. I licked arse and sucked balls and cock until after 2am and the bed was banging and creaking that much that someone underneath came up and banged on the door, and my master told them to F*** off. Oh my God, I?ve got to live here. This morning I woke up in a bed covered in dried spunk and with a very sore head and very painful ribs, feels like I was punched a few times but I don?t know. And I am gradually remembering things. Master took some photos of me in my nightie and says he is going to expose me to everyone I know. For the next week I must dress as follows - INDOORS - just this see through nightie daytime and naked night times. Not sure if that means naked just to sleep or after dark ? OUTDOORS - just my shortest skirt and skimpy tops and shoes, no undies. What worries me is that my upstairs bedsit has two large windows that look out onto the main road and about 40 buses an hour stop across the road and people tend to look straight in. Curtains stay open. Lights on at night. Master wants me exposed. If someone knocks at the door I must answer as I am - and I will be tested ! Sure there was more but I can?t remember.

I am starting to feel threatened by what is happening to me. It has been good till now but suddenly there are threats to expose me to my "loved ones" if I don?t do as I am told - but I do anyway so what is the problem. So do I comply or delete the lot ??? This evening I was shocked when a stranger let himself into my bed-sit. I was laid in bed watching TV. I presume my Master had given him the keys??. First time he has done this. The guy was a bit younger than me, so not my type, and he said something about he had been hearing that I had been putting myself about. He sat in a chair and was saying that he knew all about what I had been up to, selling myself, shagging around, and now he wanted his share of me. I asked to ring my Master but he said no and started undoing his belt and pulling his jeans down. He said he had seen a video of me !? God I knew I just had my panties on under the duvet and a t.shirt. He stood up and stepped out of his jeans and pulled his pants down and patted his bottom and said ?guess where your tongue is going?. It threw me a bit - my Master makes me tongue his bottom but I am sure he wouldn?t go around telling people that. I don?t even know this fucking guy?s name ! His cock was semi erect and very big, and fat. He asked what I wanted to do - comply or let him text a few friends and get them round. I made some kind of threatening remarks about ?my man? sorting him out, and he laughed and sat on the chair and told me to get over quick. I went over, felt his cock and then kneeled and took it into my mouth. At least he tasted clean. I sucked him and he took hold of my breasts through my t-shirt and then just ripped it down the front and pulled at my nipples. I struggled but he pulled my head right down onto his cock, choking me, and then he told me to get on the bed. He went first, laid back and then stood up, pulled me across and threw me back onto the bed, pushing his fingers inside my panties and into my surprisingly wet cunt. He told me to take my panties off. Then he ripped the rest of the t.shirt off told me to spread my legs. He knelt between my legs and sank down onto me, his bare cock pushing my lips wide as he knelt between my legs slowly fucking me. He told me to let my hair down, so I pulled the slid out and he pulled his t.shirt off and started fucking me hard. I could hear myself moaning and he pulled right out and told me to beg for it. I did. I asked him to give me his cock, hard. I wanted it. Bare, big and naked. Of fuck what am I saying. He turned me onto my side on the edge of the bed and he stood and pushed his big erection up my cunt, fucking me sideways. I was gasping, trying not to come, he spanked my back, and then my thighs. I was crying ?fuck me?. He started saying he was coming, filling my cunt with his spunk. He pulled out slowly and he was still shooting, all over my cunt and bottom. He pushed back in, and pulled out? in and out. He told me to finger myself and he stood watching. Then he put his t.shirt back on and asked if I had forgotten what he asked me to do. I didn?t answer, so he told me to come and lick his arse. I knelt behind him, kissed his bum cheeks and worked my tongue against his bum hole, just like I do for my Master. After a few minutes he laughed and moved away, dressed and said he would see me soon. I hate myself sometimes. Did I give enough detail ? Have I? humiliated myself enough ?

Feeling very embarrassed now i have seen all the details about what i did on the internet. Been told to imagine my mother and relations reading it and recognising my photos.

People who know me will realise that I don't like going into specific details of my experiences.... (and why). But I have been told I have got to write about it (to humiliate myself) so I will try. Yesterday I had to visit a man at an office block at 5.30pm. My Master had arranged it. I had been told where to go and to wear a short dress and coat and shoes, nothing else, and I was given an envelope to open when I got there. I wasn?t too nervous until I arrived and read the letter. I had to go in the building, walk past reception, and catch the lift to the third floor and then follow directions to a men?s washroom where I had to strip, leave my clothes, and walk naked to another room, where I was to close the door after me and lean face down over a table, facing away from the door, spreading my legs and arms. Now I was shaking. I carried out the instructions, worried about the two ladies on reception, but they took no notice. I stripped naked and left my clothes, and suddenly I was violently shaking as I walked down a corridor and found the room. This could all be some massive joke to humiliate me, Would my clothes even be there if I went back ? I spent at least ten minutes bent over the large boardroom table, my legs spread wide and arms outstretched. Then I head the door open and another minute later I saw a man in a suit walk round the room and strip naked. A stocky man in his late 50?s, I saw his hairy chest and his erection as he walked silently round. Then he slapped my bottom hard and said ?are you comfy bitch?. I said yes, and he told me to call him Sir (I HATE that). I said ?yes Sir?. Said? well I almost sobbed it. He slapped my bottom really hard about five times and then he took hold of my hips and rammed his cock up my cunt. Short sharp thrusts, combined with slaps to my back and hips, and then pulling my head back with a fist full of my hair. He asked me I was wanted to come and slapped my thigh. I cried out something - just a cry really. He pulled out and spat on his hand and started working his fingers up my cunt and then my bottom. He called me a bitch a few times and said that if he took me up my arse, I wouldn?t get pregnant, but that was his choice. I thought it a strange thing to say and he demanded a reply ?yes Sir?. He started telling me to turn around. I wasn?t sure if he meant stand up or try and roll over onto the table. I was sobbing a bit more and he helped me stand up and turn to face him and he held out his hand and told me to lick his fingers. I cried as I tasted my own juices and then he said ?Good girl, get down?. He repeated ?get down? and I slowly dropped to my knees and he said ?service me?. I choked at first and then got my mouth moving on his cock although I couldn?t help sobbing as I sucked his erection, helped by his hand on the back of my head. His cock was really hairy which choked me if I thought about it. He kept telling me ?deeper, faster? and threatening to beat me. Then he quickly pulled away and I fell onto all fours. He told me to stand up and pulled me up with my hair. He kissed me and forced his tongue down my throat and lifted me onto his erection and it sank into my cunt as I put my hands round his neck to support myself. He turned and banged me back into the wall, my legs wrapped around him and he fucked me hard against the wall and then turned again and we fell heavily onto the floor, which really knocked the wind out of me and he carried on fucking me hard and asked if I wanted his spunk up my dirty cunt. I grunted ?yes? and he demanded that I tell him. I gasped the words, ?please, spunk up my cunt Sir? and he grabbed a fist full of my hair again and then he spat in my face as he was spunking up my cunt. I screamed out with the biggest orgasm I have ever had. When I had finished gasping and crying the man pulled me up with my hair and made me lick his cock clean - then he told me to clear off and get out of the building before the cleaners arrived. As I staggered out of the room he said that he had it all on video.? I found my clothes and caught the bus home, spunk running down my inner thighs as I stood on the full bus full of Asian and Jamaican men, feeling all the eyes drilling into me, imagining what they all wanted to do to me. My Master was waiting in my bedsit when I got home, naked on the bed. I had to strip naked and ride him and tell him what had happened. Because I don?t go into enough detail I have to write it here for everyone to read. No comments please. I am humiliated enough.

Sorry I haven't been talking. Got a bad back, feel very depressed generally, (nothing to do with sex etc) so best keeping quiet.

Been having a fairly good time, had sex with a few men over Christmas and enjoyed it - even though they were all arranged. That's what I wanted and it's what I got. Was taken to a man today who made me strip so he could humiliate me and beat me. Didn't like that so much :-(? ....Are you listening ?

Thanks for all the offers of loans ! No, I didn't really want a loan.? And you certainly shouldn't be offering them on this site. Or any other. ? Thanks also for the warnings. This site is really weird. Every man warns about every other man on the site. Well. I got what I wanted for Christmas thanks. Did my first "cleaning" job today as well. Lovely old man. Made his Christmas he said. That felt really good.

Would the lady who contacted me about the guy who does loans pls get in touch - your profile has disappeared ?

Thirty new messages, and every time I read one there's another five. !!!

Hey, I just found out about journals. well... I have been contacted by a lady who seems very genuine and she has given me the number of a local guy who gives loans. She says IF I dare to ring him I will get everything I crave and deserve. OMG !!! Might take a few drinks first... well a few more.

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