jaydedlilpixie

You can choose your path,
a safe one with few turns and no hills,
no rocks, no surprises, no dangers.
But know that Goddess laughs.
She watches you walking along,
content but not happy,
alive but not really living.
Safe, true, but what fun is safe?
Suddenly you are pulled on another path,
one unfamiliar and scary to you.
But as the days go by and you wander along it
seeking to find a way out,
meeting strangers who are kind,
seeing the world through new eyes,
something amazing just might happen.
You realize you are happy,
you realize you are finally alive.
And above you, the moon nods and smiles.
"Why else come to this life, unless you intended to live?"

One day I will have the nerve to tell my family exactly what I think of them, to lay my cards on the table, let them know I am "living in sin" and it is fucking great! I imagine it will be something like "Mom, Dad....I`m not only Pagan (so not only have I let God into my life but a fair number of them as well as Goddesses), but bisexual, and in an open relationship. I have a boyfriend and girlfriend, and meet others on the side. And you know what? I would rather burn in hell with the people who cared about me and helped me in my time of need than live an eternity with those who watched me cut myself to ribbons and didn`t give a shit."

Ok rant done. Called my parents hoping to talk to my Dad and got my Mom instead....sigh.....gotta love it.

Cutest thing ever this morning. My ferret, Zim, found a cricket and was chasing it all over. So the poor cricket would go hopping across the floor and Zim would go hopping after him making his laughing noise. :)

Well I tried to sleep in this morning, just ended up dealing with my internal alarm clock going "nope, it`s 5:30! Up and attem!" *sigh* My day off too!

Feeling very babygirlish tonight....even broke out the apple juice :P

Kind of wondering why I even have an alarm clock, I always seem to wake up before it goes off anyway.

I am still struggling with my submission, and it is an uphill and frustrating battle. I love to please. I love to sometimes go into a headspace so deeply submissive that I am willing to be used as a footstool. I love being a babygirl and making Sir laugh. Then there are the other times when I will kick and scream if an order is given. Maybe I just need a heavy handed Sir or maybe just need my “reset” button hit so I can stop over thinking things.

*Siiiiiiigh* Hate being put on hold! 10 minutes and counting for Kaplan to register for next term.

Lots of praying mantis have been showing up around me lately. I looked it up and while they are common to Colorado, they are not so common that seeing so many in such a short time frame is usual. So I looked up what they mean as a totem animal. Apparently I have let too much noise creep in to my life. Very true. Now to figure out what to do about it.

Hello all! I am mainly on this site because I am seeking employment. I know this might sound odd but I am a housekeeper and personal assistant. I have worked within the kinky community for a few years and many have told me that having a housekeeper/personal assistant that is not shocked by little “surprises” I might find is comforting. I am available part time, and we can discuss needs to see how often I would be needed. I am very reasonable with pricing. I am a full time student and work full time as well. I am in a relationship and not interested in starting another one. Very seldom do I play with anyone besides my Sir and a recent experience will probably move me from “very seldom” to “never” so please respect that. I am looking for friendship too though! To learn more about me feel free to check me out on under jayded_lil_pixie!