Jaspersky

So it's decided I am getting married to my puppy I have had quite awhile. It's happening in April so it's not that far off. He's coming home from Germany so we can get it done and over with finally.

    When you start enjoying your nightmares are you close to going off the deep end? Do they become your perverse fantasies or the way of your mind coping with the situation at hand? I have the answer to neither yet those are the questions on my mind as of recent.

Actively seeking a Top/Dom

    Getting bored of the relationships I have been having as of late. Those Who I talk to on my chat or over text I have obviously shown interest in so if you ask there's a likely chance of me saying yes but you have to ask (I cannot read your mind nor see your face unless you live near me so i cannot judge the inflection in your voice nor see your expressions).

   If I don't then there might be a slight chance (small) but if you think I'll find you attractive, in which my standards are quite high you may try. I ask for a fit body (a small bit of pudge is alright as long as you are physically active and attractive), you must be mature, intelligent, and respectful (i am not a doormat and will not be treated as such).

    So apparently I'm being "reported as a man". I find that funny, I am in fact a woman. On the other hand; What if i was a man? Would that be of anyone business but my and my future doms? Are other self esteem so low that you must harass others to make yourself feel better? Yes I am a woman and I am proud to say I can take more pain than anyone else I know, I am proud to be fit and muscular, and I am proud that I am me because if I were you I would probably be a sad miserable person (oh wait, you are). Regardless I am a woman and when I find a dom that I find worthy of my time and love I, would without hesitation, prove such to him. I have nothing to prove to people who waste my time or make false allegations about my gender. [I must surely have higher self esteem and a better self image than those who have deemed it nessary to pick on others, in that fact i am happy]

     I'll be getting a violin soon, I can't wait. It's used but minor repairs are no issue I'll get them fixed when I can  afford it. This will make 5 instruments that I have had, I still have 3 (my drums and electric guitar were stolen).

    I need something to occupy my time. I used to be in Cheer-leading, Gymnastics, and dance. Yea I was one of the ones in all black lifting the girls so we didn't have the issue of guys looking up the girls skirts. Now all I do these days is sit on my couch on the computer. I need someone to get me motivated. Hell I have barely even drawn anything in over a YEAR that's crazy for me, I used to get money for that now just bleh. The only thing I have drawn as of recent is my pathfinder and cyberpunk characters for my usual weekend game to clear my mind of the stresses of the week.

So you know you spend too much time at work when you don't even have to measure anymore. I just did something that everyone here at work hates and did it without measuring and got it right. O.o I need a life....

The new music is nice though I was able to clean my work room and help students without feeling how tired I am.

Yep, Moving into my new apartment here in Killeen Its cheaper than my current one. Looking for online romance seeings as I have almost none in my personal life these days (depressing as hell). I'll be getting a new cell number soon so for all the people I know that have/want it if you ask you just might get it. If I get enough money ill probably get the unlimited everything plan but if not I'll just end up getting the unlimited texting and web.

I'm just happy my room will finally be set up the way I want it with my new big screen tv (that I'm still paying off)

Hopefully I find a hot romantic guy soon or I am going to go crazy.

Read my profile update please!

but anyway i have almost gotten to the anita blake series (it is completely amazing, lots or orgies lol) but damn some of the men in those books sound sexy man if i was her i would be in heaven right now (*drool*) but alas all i can look forward to in the morining it waking up alone. The book series makes me look at my life like a sad sad c rated horror film. I need some people to talk to seriously though it would make my time being in the middle of nowhere so much easier. ESPECIALLY if you looked anything like the guys in my romace novels lol. Well off to bed i hope everyone has a wonderful night.

So i'll be in montana for the next 2 months this is going to be soooo fun :D. Yes i will miss my sir and my puppy in texas but i need to make some money :D

So i have finally got my labtop working yay so i will post a few pictures, please remember to read my profile. i will not reply to people i dont find appealing or within the lines i have posted.