I have not said anything on my journal in a lil while so here is some info. I am very happy with my position with DragonMasterSable and still working on being his. As he pointed out today, anything worthwhile will take time...and to be his I would take forever..( hopefully its not forever thou..hee hee ) But honestly. He has made me see things I never saw before, made me realize I am a better person that who I thought I was. I just cant wait till the day I kneel before him and become his. There are so many out there that can not see that happiness I have with him, and yet I am truly happy. He has been there for me when I needed him most. Not just DragonMasterSable either, Lady Dezire has been right there too, along with my sisters in Clan Blue Flame. I can not nor will not walk away from something that means so much to me. Thanks to Master Sable and Lady Dezire I am free again.

Distance can be a very powerfull tool, and time can just add to that. One must learn to have patients. These past couple months have if anything taught me where I truly need to be, and patient can be aquaried by those who are willing to wait and to accept that which comes before them. I look back now and see how foolish I was, and how much stronger I have become and shall still become. For those who have entered my life and left, those people are the ones I do not need, for they were sending negative fibes. Things I do not need in my life anylonger. And those who have stuck around, well they are dear to me and knows what I need surronding my life. Master Sable, Lady Dezire I have caused problems, have been a pain at times I know but between the two of you and my children  you are the biggest part of my life and my future I will become the woman I need to be, and the woman and slave you want me to be. Thanks for caring, and understanding, and believing in me. 

there comes a time in every persons life where they need to make a decesion and hope to high heavens its the right decesion. ive done so much thinking and trying to see what my life will be like going to destinations ive never been too, going past limits i never imagined. im slowly guiding my way to One Man. hopefully and prayfully my decesion is right. He is here to teach me, guide me, bring out the true me. to have His guidance His teachings is something very valuable to me and i cherish it deeply. to serve Him would be a privalage that i hope i can recieve from Him. time will tell and patients will allow me to wait for the outcome.

looking into others trying to see if they are the ones for you is a complicated thing. first you must know who you are  finding out your ways of life your own emotions feelings personal self. you come into this world knowing nothing but when you leave you only learn what was already there. time the time to know everything learn more than your mind is exposed to. dont rush into anything. learning is the way of life, but if you dont take the time to learn then you will never get anywhere.

awwwww some Doms/Masters do have a soft side to them....lol..wink wink

been gone for a couple weeks, but back online again. well for now anyway..lol. while i was gone i did alot of thinking about who i am and the things around me. please dont ask me about them. just personal stuff. but learning more of my submissive side and how it is a part of me. i am determined to find my One. Mentor and i are doing good in trying to find all of what my limits are, who i am as a woman and a submissive. He is not only my Mentor but a very good friend, so for those i talk to and getting to know He is a big part of my life in and out of the lifestyle so respect that please.

the only way that life and love in any relationship will survive, thru this lifestyle or the vanalia life, is thru COMMUNICATION!! Y/you want to know someone.COMMUNICATE. Y/you want to love someone.COMMUNICATE. life and love only works when T/two learn to COMMUNICATE.
im tried of People coming to me saying they are interested yet so far from communicating.