itbear73

I'm in California for two weeks visiting and to socialize. Wish I had more time and money to find like minded individuals to converse and perhaps even play. Maybe next time. I will keep my eye open for any opportunity.

Ok had my first bad experience. In my pursuit of my desires I may have gone a bit far, but what else is exploration for. Since I've never had limits, how can I know what they are. I now know that being slapped so hard in the face that I bite my tongue and bleed on someones cock is something I'd like to avoid. And while I'm perfectly happy to have a guy force me to go down on any female he wants, I don't want to actively seek female companionship for myself for a guy online. There has to be another penis in the room. Even if I don't get to play with it or mine. Actually I like the idea of a man whispering shit to me while holding my head in place as I eat a woman out. I'm getting hard thinking about that.

Tried to tie up my balls for the first time today. While I always thought I would not like it, I did! Even though I know it was a newbie's first attempt. My left one kept trying to slip out. That part was a bit frustrating. When it was all done and said, I wish I had someone there to play with or have someone man handle my boys as they tied me up. But I was pleased to take pics and send to the guy who has been helping me via text.

Since I started this, there has been so much that I really thought I would never like. For instance, I never knew how enjoyable it was to piss all over myself or to piss in a cup and drink it. As a kid, I was constantly ridiculed for peeing my pants and my bed. I had a really bad bladder control issue and sleeping disorder. So I really thought I would never get into WS. Boy was I wrong. Can't WAIT to find out what else I have  been wrong about.

Today I did something I have always wanted to do. I violated myself with a wine bottle. It would have been more fun if someone was calling a worthless slut and pissing on me while I did it though. My ass is deliciously sore right now and ready for more!

Poem - The Dirties Love Song

Rhythmic piston pounding out ropes of opaque hypnosis
Climbing summits of sinew and rolling through dirty valleys
Life hanging like Clorox laundered perfumed air
I am a Chlorine Boy

Danger, wrapping steal fingers around quivering skulls
Digits ramming cardinal ambition, further, deeper
Animalism roasting temperature and all must heave for Air

Alternating provocation and suppression paves the road
Ditching the only cautious passenger miles ago
Violent brutal twisting consumption driving it home
Glassy eyed crescendo galloping its way to a head

Fists full of crown hair and white knuckles vibrantly blur and burn
Demanding barks growl past hot greedy breaths of steam
A brave runner’s high sets…this is what we die for
I am now an Object, a very lucky Object

Candy sweet lust makes for the strangest toothless idiots

Come now and add me to the list of golden mouth warriors

- itbear73