ISOmykeyholder


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	About ISOmykeyholder Where oh where is my Keyholder? Does the idea of controlling someone's sexuality through enforced chastity hold any appeal? I long, and have longed, to wholeheartedly submit to a dominant woman who would enjoy keeping me locked up in a chastity device, and periodically teasing the sanity right out of me. The longest I've gone is about 2 or 3 weeks, and this episode was terminated prematurely due to an ill-fitting device along with other factors. I would like someone to push my limits in this arena. I just received in the mail the cb2000 which, in my opinion is much more comfortable and easy to keep clean than the cb6000. I gave it a 30 hr trial which ended about an hour ago -- no discomfort or swelling or hygiene issues. Unfortunately I served as my own keyholder so the experience was just to see how it fits. What a thrill it is though when a whimsical Keyholder is the one in charge! Ideally, she should be in her 20's or 30's, someone with past experience Topping or someone who could easily fill this role. Although I'm looking to be the submissive in a D/s relationship, my job is such that, as a resident, I'm already a slave to the hospital and whoever should be my Keyholder will hopefully understand this. About me: 37 yo, single and live alone, 2nd year resident doctor, liberal and open-minded, moderate drinker, nonsmoker, occasional toker, cultured and well-travelled. If I've piqued your interest, please send an email. I'll answer any questions you may have.

Tis the season of psychosis. Tis the Holly Jolly overdose season, the lonely without family season, the season plush with hospital trays and IM cocktails.

The bosses all want out early, the residents are carrying a dozen patients each, the nurses are drunk on mistletoe and online sales, the guard is the same as always .... he tries to time the automated doors and counts the smokers coming in and out, checks them off his list.

Everyone is on a psychiatric hold, and the holds have to be lifted, and lifted holds have to be documented and there's the kicker. The paper work is stifling.

I float home through traffic, delighted despite the gridlock, delighted to imagine my Keyholder ... she is darkly deep and happens to be beautiful and happens to possess me, my cock and ego. She is imaginary, she is a potential. But something says it's all right around the corner.

I'm about to embark on something, a journey I guess, but the kind that happens when you're not moving.

That sounds stupid. It sounds kind of pompous. Let me start over.

The reason I've come out of my shell and rejoined this site is a very hopeful inkling that I might discover a true Domme with authentic methods of Ego destruction. I imagine the tinted glass of Ego-shadow crumbling away and the light creeps in and the darkest corners are lit up. I am sure that such an encounter would make all my personal efforts toward evolution obsolete and puny by comparison.

Although my ad boasts a casual and playful approach, I have to admit that the true source of my interest in D/s stems from a seriousness (an over-seriousness) that makes me cringe because it is so sticky with Ego. I guess that being kept locked in chastity would shock the system enough to allow progress, but I am open to any method that chops, splinters, and degrades the small self I've flaunted around like some prize pig at the county fair.

I know that whatever the methodology, the key verb is the same: to surrender. I am ready to learn Right Attitude if there exists a willing Teacher able to handle the reigns and instill new ways of thinking and behaving: instead of my needs and wants, I will reflexively focus on Mistress' needs and wants; the base, amoebaeic drive toward pleasure and away from pain will be transformed into some higher drive toward service and surrender.

It probably all sounds over-wrought and dramatic and self-important ... which is because I've hardly progressed at all ... but at least I'm at the point where I can see my flaws, if that means anything.

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