Years ago I had gone though a major break up and was feeling
down about myself. Usually my confidence is high and I am in control, but this
kind off rocked my world.

I started looking into D/S as a way of getting back on top
and controlling things especially with females. I had always been in control of
my sex partners and wanted to learn more about it.  I started to talk to people online and on the
phone. One such person was an older Domme. We became friends as she started
explaining thing to me about D/S.

She was a nurse and was in the lifestyle for many years. She
was a very private person and very few people knew of her ways. We had talked
for months and I had up to that point not met her in person, always on line or
on the phone.

One evening she invited me to come down to her house and
talk. She said it was time for her to show me things I have been asking about.
She asked if I could come over right now as she had time with no delay. She said
to just jump in my car and drive down to her place right now.

I did not think much about this at the time and was happy to
just go over. I was very much interested in meeting a Dominant person to talk
to. And she promised to answer all my questions and show me her toys etc…

It was literally in the middle of the night. No cars on the road
and it took no time to get there. As she met me at the door I was so happy to
finally meet her.

After I went in and she started taking out her toys, DVDs,
magazines, etc… I found myself turned on by what she was showing me and also
very turned off. This person had no limits on what she was into. She was not judgmental
of anything and I am sure some of the things she showed me where wrong in so
many ways I cannot start to say.

As we talked she started to tell me if I wanted to be a good
dom I would have to be a good submissive. She explained how I would better know
how it felt if I experience submission first. I told her I would never submit
to anyone and I am my own man. She was polite and just kept on saying how I
would know if I did not try?

Dominance is not words but actions and feeling and so on she
told me. It is about trust and respect for each other. You cannot just know the
terms and call yourself a dom. Or know how to use a toy or device of punishment
and feel you are in control. I just kept on telling her I have not interest in
doing anything submissive with anyone.

Well we talked and she took out more and more things to show
me. One of the things was something I could not wrap my head around. It was
some form of restrain with needles in it. It was made out of leather and had a
cock ring with what looked to be thumb tacks in it. I remember saying you would
hurt yourself if you put that on. She explained no harm comes from it, you just
feel a little pinch.

We kept on going around and around about this thing and finally
she said she would be happy to show me how it works if I really wanted to
learn. She said it would be a step in the right direction to know how a person feels
when they are restrained and she will put it on me and take it off right away.

I gave in and said sure why not let’s see at least what this
is about. So she politely helped me take off my clothes and she put this thing
on me. It had a leather collar that went around my neck, and a leather handcuffs
that cuffed my hands behind my back and also a leather cock ring that snugly
went around my balls and cock with tiny little needles that where dull but I
could feel them. And the cock ring was connected to my collar and adjusted so I
could not lift my head or it would pinch around my balls and cock. I was placed
on my knees with my legs apart and my head down. Than it was connected from my hands
behind my back to the collar and adjusted.

I was nude kneeling in the middle of the room with my knees apart
and my head down. I was unable to get up, lift my head or do anything but stay
in that position. And at that point I started to wonder who knows I am here at
this point and what if she is a bad person etc… I was scared to be honest with
you.

I felt like a slave with no rights. She was very polite and
asked how do I feel? I could not even lift my head to see her as she spoke to
me. And that it happened, my cock got rock hard. I was so turned on and was
ashamed of it at the same time. I kept on thinking this is exactly what I told her
I would not do.

That night I did things I never thought I would do. I was
not forced or made to but willingly wanted to. She controlled me and made me
her pet for the evening.

I have met many in this lifestyle and most are not what they
say they are. Behind closed doors I crave something others would not
understand.

I share this story to explain myself and show my willingness
to open up with the right person.

Thank you for taking the time to read it. It is all true and
I still get hard thinking about her.