Imyourdesire4now

going away for awhile some personal stuff going on ... 

well alots been going on lost my pap  and my paps sister all in a couple weeks the was going out tonight and my car was hit just as pulled in my leg,and when i call friends no one is there go figure , its ok im used to being alone , and my birthday is next week...lol happy fuckin birthday

i hope everyone has a wonderful Easter tomorrow, i will be home doing dinner with my family and friends 

so fast to run away when things dont go as i think they should so much to learn,i want to talk to you but then when you calli dont answer cause i know youll make me think of the things i have been doing ,you have a way of making me think ,how do you get into my head , i think that im doing good then boom your back into my head then im realizing im just surviving not really liveing

sitting here listening to the sleet and ran , thinking to myself about the week , so much has gone on , i thought we were getting closer , but now im not so sure ,  i was starting to come to term with some things even thought i have alot of doutes, but then silence from you again , i ask if your ok and all i get is yeah , i tell you about my up coming surgery , which im kind of worried about ,,, and not a word of reasurance from you , but did i truely expect anything less, i will deal with it alone ,,,, as i have always done, i dont want your pity , just honestly wanted your love but i blew that a long time ago ,,,

well this is a new year lets see what mistakes ill learn from  :) oh well i am who i am , im a brat and i dont listen well , but i am a great person if ya can get passed all that, i have alot to learn and i need to quite pushing people away .. but time will tell

some of the ones who want me , are not who i want, and the ones i do want, dont want me or i push away .... go figure

well its snowing ,,, and i have no one to play in it with me......lol

had a great time last night got to bring in the new year with some great friends , dancing , shooting pool , hope everyone had a great time .....

im soon going to be adding to my sleeve  im getting my spiders done  im so excited

found this quote and i really liked it :  

touch a womens mind and you get her interest, touch her heart and you get her love touch her soul and you get passion beyond your wildest dreams, once you have touched all 3 you have found your soul mate