Feelings of femininity...

Feelings and desires are strong today.  It makes sense, since i actually have alone time to be able to dress.  The funny thing about saying that though, is that i don't want "alone time"... i want sharing time.  i want to explore with someone that embodies femininity.  i'm not saying she has to have all the typical attributes most people associate with being feminine... but more that innate female sense of being who you want to be.  Of being able to dig deep into your own soul and read what you are given.  i feel blind to it all.  i AM blind.  How long will my eyes remain shut?  How long must i have to wait for my Goddess to appear?

If i believed that worship actually did anything, i would worship in whatever way is necessary.  i hate wanting to worship, but having no one to bestow that devotion upon!  Why must this be such a difficult task in this day and age?  Do females really not understand the HUGE benefits of taking a REAL partner and becoming one with them?  Stay with the homies.  If that is what you want, then as a submissive male, who am i to judge their decisions?  But it is still frustrating being in wait for a something that would be so good for her, because she doesn't understand?

Gawd, i could almost hear an echo if spoke out right now with all that i could say. 

Thank you to my new found friend that i'll refer to as Ma'am until i can figure out what her public title is.  Anyway, thank you Ma'am for chatting today.  It was a positive experience, and i'm anxious to do so again.   :)

Enough thinking for one day.