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About me:
I am sweet and silly and affectionate. I'm working on a Ph.D in molecular biology, so I am not relocatable. I have a preternatural ability to catch things that are thrown in my direction. I like subtle, deadpan humor, and I laugh readily in appreciation. I have a lot of inner strength. I honestly enjoy going to the gym (I have outer strength, too). I won a spelling bee in 5th grade. I have an infallible sense of direction. I can be sassy, so I hope you have a sense of humor. I am an atheist and a skeptic. I love big, warm Daddy hugs and forehead kisses that leave no doubt in my mind that I am deeply loved.
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What I like:
I'm interested in D/s and Daddy-girl (more about that in the journal entry below). I get the feeling I'm more vanilla than most people on here. Technical facility with ropes and high protocol don't interest me so much as an intense emotional connection. To me, "foreplay" means a slow build-up of flirting and anticipation throughout the entire day that builds deep connection and trust. Taking direction is probably my favorite game, and I love when my partner creates adventures for me, where I don't know what will happen next.
I also love subspace. For me, it is a headspace that is?focused, calm, almost meditative. That part of my brain that is always analyzing, anticipating, and second-guessing is just silent, so that all of my attention, all of my little antennae, are focused on my partner and his intentions, kind of like a tango dance, where you move beautifully together.
I'm looking for a confident and capable man who is strong enough to be kind to others, who has that masculine way of making people around him feel good about themselves and inspired to be their best. I'm looking for a man who makes me feel sweet, adoring, vulnerable, and feminine. I also like seriously smart. And funny. I want to have oodles of fun and engage in hilarious hijinks.
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Who am I looking for?
A fellow atheist or strong agnostic.
32 to 46 years old
At least 6" in circumference ("Circumference" means girth, not length. I have a bit of a size fetish, but 6" around is by no means freakishly large)
I'm fit and you should be, too (So cute if we worked out at the gym together!)
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What do I love?
-sensual domination that puts me into that deep, calm, focused, meditative subspace/headspace
-subtle public power play
-having my hair stroked?
-sweet, loving Daddy voice
-being a helpful, obedient good girl
-you being proud of me
-a daddy-daughter dynamic without the incest or age play
-being toyed with
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Maybe the Daddy-girl thing sounds a little strange to you. I was weirded out by it at first, too. I love D/s, but over time, I felt like there was a special tenderness that was lacking in my straight D/s dynamic, and that’s where Daddy-girl came in for me. Let me first say that I am not interested in pretending to be younger than I am, nor that my partner is actually my father. For me, it’s a way to express a part of me that is innocently sweet, adoring, vulnerable, playful, and artless. It’s a headspace that doesn’t really fit into other parts of my life, but is nevertheless a fundamental part of who I am, and needs expressing. As a complement to this headspace, I want to have a big, strong man who is calm, warm, tender, protective, encouraging, and indulgent.
One of my all-time favoritest things is snuggling down into the arms of my big, strong man in a comfy rocking chair as he rocks us slowly, and we talk about the day, he in his low, slow, rumbly Daddy voice, and me in my sweet, precocious lil girl voice. I love pressing my head against his chest and listening to the calming, deep timbre. I love when he strokes and brushes my hair. I love doing things that make him proud, I love when he praises me. I love being helpful with whatever he’s doing. I love doing sweet, tender things for each other, in our distinct, complementary roles.
Some girls like playing the brat and being disobedient, but that kind of horrifies me. I may be cheeky at times to make you smile, but I would be absolutely crushed if I did something to disappoint you. So, I don’t like “punishment”, because I’m so sensitive to your perception of me that your disappointment is punishment enough. Really, all it takes is a gentle explanation, and I’ll remember next time.
And honestly, I'm still not sure how I feel about the word "Daddy". It just sounds kind of weird, right? But, there doesn't seem to be another word that captures a highly masculine role that is also gentle and nurturing. So, until I can think of another word, "Daddy" will just have to do :) |
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Why size and atheism are my two necessities
Some people seem to be almost offended by my preferences on those two topics, so I thought I would take the time to clarify.
I've come to realize that size is pretty much a fetish for me. Physically, I can get off just fine without it. Honestly, I can get off just playing with my clit, and quickly. Seriously, it's a psychological thing, so I think "fetish" is a fairly appropriate term for my need. And it's not like 6" around is circus-freak big; I'm only looking for a circumference that is an inch bigger than average. That said, it's a little frustrating being on a kink-friendly site and being told that my fetish is not okay.
So, let me explain that fetish. When it meets my preferences, when it's at least 6" around, I absolutely *worship* it. I love gazing it at, hard or soft, holding it, bouncing it, kissing it, licking it, and more. I love the weight in my hand, the thud sound and feel when I bounce it when it's hard. I'll talk about how wonderful and beautiful it is, how happy I am with it. Since I love power exchange, I need to believe with every ounce of my being that my partner is powerful. While non-physical things are definitely a big part of making me feel that way, I have to be honest and say that physical things are also incredibly important. I refuse to be one of those girls who say that looks don't matter. They do. I work hard to look the best that I can, so I feel like I deserve a partner whose appearance seriously turns me on. Therefore, I can't date someone shorter than me, or even a few inches taller than me. Big, tall men just make me feel sooo submissive and feminine. The same thing goes for the size issue. If it's big, I just FEEL submissive and sensual and deeply content. For whatever reason, my brain is adamant that size is the same as manliness and power. If it's just average, even if everything else is great, I can't really feel submissive, I can't really reach sub-space. I've had wonderful chemistry with a couple men who were of average size, and I just couldn't fully believe in their power. I pretty much had to dupe myself into feeling submissive.
I shouldn't have to lie to myself. I want to be with someone who makes me ecstatically happy and always hungry and desperate to please. I've tasted it, and I want it again.
The atheism thing also ties into power. As an atheist and a skeptic, I can't really trust someone who chooses to believe in something that lacks any supporting evidence, out of sheer wishful thinking. That approach to reality likely extends to other aspects of their decision-making, and since I would like to surrender much of my control to my partner, I would have some serious misgivings about letting such a person control me. I apologize if I'm drawing an offensive comparison here, but I hope you would agree that you would be extremely hesitant to let a practicing Mormon or Muslim make your decisions for you. |
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Age: 44 |
Birmingham,
United Kingdom |
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