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OMG My ex "dom" told me today that his sub had a mental break down. I asked him if he is at all concerned and he said NO. All he was worried about was looking for new slaves. I dont understand how someone says they love someone, will protect them, and care for them and when they need it not at all worried. Clearly something he isnt doing or what he is doing isnt right because in the 14 years I have known him all the girls leave him... I havent been with them in a year and I am very worried about her. Maybe you sir are the one fucked up. You can be in a bdsm relationship and still care about the well being of your sub.

and he says I am the one with the closed mind... Look in the mirror!!!

How does one have orgasm control? I try not to but I always manage to...what should I do?

RESPECT me as I will RESPECT YOU.