iamjustmary50

the longer i am in the lifestye the more i understand that i understand nothing :) but it is so fun to learn.

now i am looking for friends and maybe more not ready to just jump into something but lets talk

can anyone tell me why life seems to be so hard sometimes and at others it just seems to fly by .. i would love the good times to last for ever and ever but it seems they fly by but when the world is at the end it last for ever even though in real time the fun was really longer then the end of the world times well life is so funny and strange i just cant wait to see what happens next i will take the tears with the fun any day of the week as long as i can keep seeing a new tomorrow .

i meet a Man.. He is kind, caring,funny,lovingand very sexy. then i found out He was strong, trusting,and always there ... so tell me why did i just throw it all away for nothing i am still hating myself for this but as they say live and learn.

when you lose a good friend and you don't even know why it is so sad. sometimes i wonder if friends are worth having as in the long run somehow someone gets hurt... they leave or die or something... well i do love each and everyone of my friends and i am so glad i have them but it still hurts a lot when you lose one no matter how you lose them.

a year ago i would not believe i am still staying close to a Dom i know does not want a collared sub .. but here i am ... and i would never believe i would not care what He did as long as He spent time with me... but here i am.. but most of all i would never believe that just being with Him when He needed me would mean more to me then any collar i could ever have it took  awhile but i now understand what living the lifestyle and playing in the lifestye are and i now live  the lifestyle more then ever thanks to one person the perfect Dom

just here for friends nothing more i have a Dom i am close to just killing time with like minded people.