IamDragonKing

http://asherguide.blogspot.com/

All of my life I’ve felt that I am standing on a precipice in a storm nothing more than the sheer force of my will keeping me perched there. Only once did I feel far from that place, with her. And now things aren’t what they were. In many ways they never were what I thought they were. I lived in a construct built of flimsy wood and particle board fragments. I held them together the best way I knew how but I couldn’t hold on any longer to something that didn’t want to be held. Oh, she said she did, but I knew the truth, I campaigned for it, I fought over it and when I kept hearing the lies I angered over it. Finally I let it go.

I wanted to jump into the storm after it. As soon as it was gone the storm returned and I wanted nothing more than to fly to her. But she’s not gone, not really. She came back to me, in a way. She is supposed to be mine. That’s the way of things. On this we both agree but she needs time to find herself and I can’t begrudge her that. What I don’t like is the wide open and empty space where she used to be. What I don’t like is that she is off, growing and learning and becoming better and we aren’t doing it together anymore. We were supposed, in the end, always come back together.

I am glad she has found support in this lifestyle. It’s easy for her. She’s beautiful, and fun and capable. But I am alone. I have no support in this lifestyle, it’s just me. I have no mentor to turn to, no support group, no local community who understands that I can turn to. There is one, I know it. One of them for sure is disciplining my girl, guiding her, making her happy. But for me I stand in this completely and utterly alone, my in boxes empty, my friends lists sparse, my communications few and limited. I’m no troll, or perve, or mind fucker, or freak. I’m not in this lifestyle for the novelty, or the fetishes, or the sex. I am here because this is part of my being and I simply want to live MY life for a change. I want to feel a part of this thing we all do. I don’t want to be alone in this anymore.

I am standing on a precipice in a storm, only the sheer force of my will keeping me there. I am sure that come the next millennia I will stand there still should that be my curse, but I don’t want to stand alone in the storm anymore. I want something other than just my foundation to be true. I want friends who understand. I want someone I can turn to when I don’t know what to do. 

As her guide

I Vow...
... to give her what she needs, even if i's not at all what she wants.
... to be strong and continue as her guide even when she resists me
... to stand by her even when she forgets she is supposed to stand just a step behind me
... to give her more than just my love
... to punish her with love and not anger
... to reward her
... to drive her to be stronger
... to hear her voice before making my decision.
... to always keep her informed.
... to be honest, even if it hurts her.
... to take her further than she thinks she can go.
... to take responsibility for her actions
... to act in our best interest in all things
... to carry myself as an example
... to respect her boundaries
... to be her guide

I found this on another site and thought it was too good to pass up.

Take a Dip in the Reality Pool

For those of us who came of age in BDSM in the computer age, there seems to be some discrepancies between the realities and the fantasies of this lifestyle.

I'm your Auntie Screamer, and I'm here to help clear those up for you. Pay attention. I'm only going to say this once.

1. "You do have rights. You have the right to walk away. If you believe otherwise, it's time for a dip in the reality pool."
2. "No one can keep up a 24/7 lifestyle for long without a break for comedy relief, and a swift dose of kids, family, work and car problems."
3. "No man has an erection continuously. Unless they're priaptic, in which case, a doctor's visit is in order."
4. "There is such a thing as PMS, and no amount of Domming is going to make it go away."
5. "A chainsaw is not a sex toy."
6. "Your cyber safeword is the off button on the front of your computer. Use it."
7. "There *is* going to be a time when you don't feel like having sex. It *does* happen. Prepare yourself mentally for it."
8. "24/7 is not a myth. 24/7 in chains, naked and kneeling is."
9. "There will come a time when you see your Dominant scratching himself, belching and in need of a shower. Prepare yourself for that as well."
10. "No one understands your collar but you. Showing it off at Safeway isn't exactly a statement."
11. "The distance is not insurmountable. It is inconvenient and irritating, and it will grate on your nerves unless you fill your time with other things."
12. "Eventually, you're going to have to take those cuffs off to take the kids to the doctor. Get used to it."
13. "Speaking of doctors, tell yours what you're into, or be prepared to deal with social services on a regular basis."
14. "You really don't need another flogger. What you need is a new microwaves and a pair of hundred dollar tennis shoes for your teenager. Know when to say when to the toy bag."
15. "People get sick. People die. Use a condom, please, unless you've been tested twice in the last year, and so has your partner."
16. "Don't walk away from your friends. You might well need them later, when your dream Dominant turns into a frog."
17. "If you want something, ask. Ask respectfully, ask in role, ask in good faith. But ask. If you don't, chances are, you ain't gonna get it."
18. "Just because you call yourself a slave doesn't mean that others will agree with your definition. Be prepared to defend your views, but don't bark at others for their opinions. They have a right to them, same as you do."
19. "Don't believe everything you read, especially if it comes from John Norman."
20. "Just because the screen name says Master doesn't mean he is one."
21. "Find a way to orgasm without BDSM. You may need that someday."
22. "Safecalls work. Use them."
23. "There are things you won't do. Trust me. Maybe you just haven't been asked to do them yet."
24. "This ain't always all about sex. Don't expect to get a nut every time you play. Then you won't be disappointed when it happens to you. Orgasms are nice, but not mandatory."
25. "People are not always nice. You will not play at every party you attend. You will get hurt non-consensually sometimes."
26. "Your Dominant is not a mind reader."
27. "Forever is not as long as you might think. Sometimes, it's just until she changes her mind again."
28. "The Mistress is not always dressed in thigh highs and hose. The Dominant does not always have his flogger nearby. Sometimes, it's time for sweat pants and hot cocoa."
29. "An argument is not the end of the world. Not resolving it, however, might be."
30. "Sometimes, a fuck is just a fuck. A beating is just a beating. And a kiss is just a kiss. Enjoy it, remember it, and move along."

I hope you've enjoyed your dip in the reality pool. Wipe your feet before going back in the house, and don't drip on my new parquet floors.

Enjoy Life's Pleasure's and Pain's

In my mind she is still MY Crystal Michelle. She will always be.

Sometimes I just want to scream. It's so difficult letting go what I took so deeply into to my heart. I meant what i said. I always do.

She's out. I can't shake her though, she's everywhere I turn. Oh, and lady you were the only one negative about everything all the time. I still hope you get what you deserve.

Alright. Things seem to be looking up here. She's beautiful, seems to know what she wants and she hasn't started simpering, calling me sir or asking for orders. Some of these clowns must think I'm, a waiter.

Ya'll may be curious about what I do for a living. Here are some links you can see for yourself.

http://thekimbleviewpoint.blogspot.com/2010/11/honest-lie-volume-3-justifiable.html?zx=9a5e9903758048a9

http://lifeatohp.debrincase.com/

http://davinkimble.weebly.com/

Even after this wonderful weekend, I still want a woman who knows she's a submissive and accepts it and loves it. I will take the great slutty sex this other one loves to give me though.

You would think that some of these subs looking would get back to me. I'm a great guy, you women are missing out.

Thinking that I am going to have to update my profile message. Some of you just are not getting it.