Is it possible to find a woman on here that would like a one-on one relationship with a man who loves to be bound and tormen♥ted? Train me!

I know what I have to do, and truly feel helpless at times. My desires are aroused and frustrated and I cannot escape. 

    If not physically true, it is mentally. I need to beg, know I deserve discipline, and know what I need to do.

Most of the women I would like to meet on here are too far away for easy meets. It's just a fact of life at the moment. I wish it were otherwise, but my economic situation does not allow for much other than neccesities at the moment. I keep my account here to stay actively informed on the lifestyle and what is happening, but need someone to open up to. Thanks to anyone who may be interested. I appreciate any correspondence.

Maybe I'm crazy. I want to fall in love with a woman who has a sadistic streak and adore her.

Obsessive/Compulsion. Note to self: I have been a somewhat masochistic exhibitionist for years. What makes me think that will change? A desire for discipline, perhaps? I will explain more in further journal entries. I am here for a reason; I cannot tear myself away from the thought of being bound and helpless at a woman's feet. My frustrated desires have been fine tuned by reading profiles of women I find interesting. I know my own "cycle of submission" as I call it; desire, exhibitionism, humiliation, desire for discipline, thought of cock and balls bound as her prisoner------->desire, exhibitionism....humiliation....

I know I deserve punishment. It was assuptive of me. Yet my cock still feels bound, how presumptious and rude of me to show you pictures of it without permission.