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	i am Owned, and not searching...just here to keep up with Ffriends that id lost contact with.

1/11/2007 7:58:48 PM

Okay there IS life near JC, MO! i am thrilled! Thank Yyou for Aall who have written to say hello. It is nice to know there are good People close.

It has been a while since i have written in here and it is because so much has happened. i have been asked if i still feel the same and love this lifestyle now that i have lived it 24/7 for a while. And the answer is of course. There is nothing that can change my mind about my life. It never has been a "weekend hobby" or something i did when i was bored. It is who and what i am. i have never doubted that. Without it in my daily life, i am completely lost..in all aspects. 24/7 is rough...and if Bboth do not try, it will never work. Especially when there are kids in the home. But i also know that if Bboth are true to the lifestyle and want things to work, that it takes Bboth of them to make it work. Communication is soooooooooooooo important. Without it Yyou have nothing.

10/19/2006 6:41:58 PM

OMG is there ANY lifestyle Ppeople near Jefferson CIty??????? i think i have moved into the middle of no lifestyle!!LOL There are bunches 2-3 hours away but Wwe are looking for other lifestyle Ppeople in the area. Just to have likeminded Ffriends close.

3/6/2006 1:05:19 PM

Things are going pretty good. Great actually. In just a few weeks Wwe have a Collaring ceremony planned. my Ffriends will be there so that will be a great thing. Then in a couple of months i will be moving up near Jeff City to be with Him 24/7. Can't remember being any happier actually. i have met so many good Dominants here. And made many good Friends. i appreciate each and every Person who i have ever talked to from this site. i know it is easy to want to give up the search at times. A few years have gone by since i first registered on CM. And ive met good....and bad. But the good FAR outweigh the bad. And this is where i met the One i will spend the rest of my life with as well....so im pretty partial to CM. There is real out there....hard to find i know, but Tthey are out there. Hopefully once i get moved up north with Master, Wwe can find like minded people near, maybe begin a group. i am excited because it is so close to KC, SL, and also Springfield where i have made many wonderful lifestyle Ffriends, but then also will miss the Ffriend i have made in this area as well. Hopefully Wwe will get to see Tthem at times. 76 Days until i move....ughhh time goes sooo slow! But Aanyone who knows me knows that patience is not my best friend.. i keep hearing that it is a virtue..but im not so sure...to me its just a pain.

Anyway...im done babbling for now....

~lisa

2/17/2006 7:10:31 PM

i am owned...Wwe are just here looking for likeminded Ppeople in the area.

1/17/2006 12:52:59 PM

Although im not looking right now i just want to write some things and if it bores Those who read it, well i am sorry.

i disagree with a lot of people in the lifestyle when they say you choose to be a Dominant or a submissive or a slave. i believe that it is in Yyou growing up. Or it is in my case anyway. i remember back years ago and i see now how i was submissive in a lot of aspects of my life. And it never changed. Even in a vanilla marriage, i was made to be the one who made the decisions, i had to make sure things were done, or they didn't get done. And i wasn't good at it. my whole life it was like i was searching for something, but i had no clue what it was. But something was definitely missing. When i found out there were Oothers who felt as i did about things i knew i'd found my place. Or at least knew where i belonged at that point. i knew what had been missing in my life. i was a shy, un confident person, but i jumped in head first. Made several mistakes of course at first. But ive learned so much in the years ive been exploring. i have made Ffriendships that will stand the test of time. i think back to times before i learned there was a "lifestyle", and i cannot even imagine going back. i was a different person then. Someone lost. i did try vanilla dating again a couple of years ago. But that of course didn't last long. It wasn't me. Never will be me again. Since then i haven't even tried. i'd rather be alone.

This isn't a lifestyle for me..its who i am. It is what i am. Daily. Not something i can turn off and on like a light switch. i do all i can daily to learn more. i am a better person, a better mother to my children, and a better slave. Because i am content in who and what i am now.

~lisa~

1/14/2006 8:57:49 AM

Ok what i meant by that is that this is NOT based on SEX as some try to make it out to be....Didn't mean to upset anyone..lol. Kinky sex can be found about anywhere. True trust, commitment, respect, communication and loyalty..cannot.

1/14/2006 5:43:40 AM

It completely blows my mind when i read some of the profiles. The amount of people who associate this lifestyle with "swinging" is unreal. Or the ones who go on and on about how much they love kinky sex. Do they honestly believe that is what this is about?