I don't like pain. But please give it to me if it excites you to do so. And I don't mean in the ordinary, "Hmm, this is kind of exciting" way. I mean if it gets to you down deep, makes you hard, makes you ready to come, viscerally moves you, emotionally satisfies you.

I don't like bruises. But please give them to me if you look at them and find them beautiful on my body and it excites you to see what we have done together.

I don't like to be "wrecked", make-up smeared, face down in a puddle of my own tears, but please wreck me if it rocks your world to wreck me and build me up again—so we can do it all over again.

Yes, building me up again is part of you creating me. If you don't get that part and get off on that part, too (as in, you prefer to just break your toys and throw them away or don't understand the difference between "hurt" and "harm"), please don't give me pain. I don't like pain.

If giving me pain doesn't move you, isn't a part of how you fuck and love, but you are just doing it because you think it will please me—please don't. I don't like pain.

If you see my littleness and love me fiercely and would protect me from the world if you could, yet you still, unapologetically, need and want and get off on making me hurt and cry for your pleasure—then please, please make me cry and hurt.

I don't like pain. But if hurting me sends you, please hurt me. I love to be your pleasure.

i find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive
to my Master in a loving relationship.
i am not weak or stupid. i am a strong woman,
with firm views and a clear concept of what i want out of my life.
i do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.
i will look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never
will i be more complete than when He is with me.
i know that He will protect my body, my mind, and my soul
with His strength and wisdom.
He is everything to me, as i am everything to Him.
His touch awakens me and His thoughts free me.
Only in serving Him do i find complete freedom and joy…
His punishments may be harsh, but i accept them thankfully,
knowing that He has my best interests always foremost in His mind.
If He desires my body for pleasure, i shall joyfully give it to Him
and take pleasure myself from knowing that i have brought Him happiness.
However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of O/our relationship.
The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt,
those are all parts of this relationship.
My body is His, and if He says i am beautiful, then i am.
No matter what i look like to others, i am beautiful in His eyes,
and because of that i hold my head high.
If He says i am His precious jewel,
then i am that…a beautiful, sparkling gem.
If He says that i am His pet, His slut, His whore, then i am that..
as wanton and dirty as He wants me to be.
My mind is His, to expand, to explore, to know only as He can.
i have no secrets from Him… for secrets are a thing that would
keep me from being more perfectly His.
Secrets would put a wall up between my Master and myself…
and i do not want walls.
His lessons are not always ones i would seek on my own,
but they are lessons He has decided that i need, and so i learn from Him.
My soul is His, as bare to His touch as ever my skin could be
when i kneel naked at His feet.
Never a moment goes by when i do not feel His presence,
be He miles away or standing over me.
If i were to ever displease Him, His displeasure would be a blow to my soul,
worse punishment than any lashes could be.
The anguish of my soul that i feel when i disappoint Him
is harder to bear than any physical anguish i feel.
i am grateful that he cares enough about me to spend
His time and energy so freely on me.
i have the easier job, to feel, to experience,
to let myself go and abandon everything to Him.
i am His pleasure and His responsibility, and He takes both seriously .
i am a submissive woman.
i am proud to call myself that, my submission is a gift that i do not give lightly,
and can only be given to the One who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.
Only to my Master who has that strength, will i give myself fully,
because i am strong and proud.
i am a submissive woman.

what a great weekend!  meet some new friend huges and kiss to everyone will be back up north in a few weeks and can do it again. Note to self after losing 68 pounds buy new set of suspension cuffs. old set will not adjust down anymore. put that at the top of shopping list.

ok what is it with men...

almost everyone I have meet has tuned out to be a lier off this board.

I let you know what I'm looking for and you tell me that is what you are looking for also, but that is a lie. you cant play at your home due to you living with others. 1st red flag. but I let that go. never will I do that again.  thank you for making me feel like a fool.i put my feeling out there to you and you just walked all over them.i eat your line of bullshit.that is on me. but the part that hurts the most is that you just stoped talking to me. you said you where my friend. as a friend would you please take the knife out of my back.