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About Hopefuloptomist
Life can be a lonely journey if you haven't found the people in your life who complete you and make you whole. I have been blessed with many wonderful relationships in my life, and would love the chance to meet the girl who will finish out my circle and make me complete. I want a girl who knows her place (at my feet), knows her heart (belongs to me) and has the courage to join me. I would hope that she will know her own mind, but also know that ultimately, I am in control. In all things, in all ways. I will not promise you that this won't be a challenge, anything worth having is one. I am sure we will have issues to work through, that's to be expected. I am seeking a girl who wants to serve in all ways, 24/7. I won't go into exact detail here, I feel that is better left to discuss when we get to that point in our relationship. I know you are out there.....message me and come home..... |
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Well, February is here in full force. Lucky me. I don't mind winter, but much prefer spring and fall...mmm...love fall. I was talking with someone recently, who I have been drawn back to many many times. Don't know what it is, but something about her intrigues me. Unfortunately it seems that we are unable to chat or perhaps she has decided by words from me that we won't be compatible. Not sure. I am hoping the former, as she seems to have a lot of what it is I am looking for. Time will tell I guess. I am in no rush. I don't rush into things I prefer to take my time, get to know the vanilla first, as this tells a lot about who they are. I much prefer things this way. I will not jump into anything without checking things out in all ways first. I float in and out of here I am not on CM regularly, and hope that people won't show some interest and decide because I haven't been on for a bit that it means I am no longer looking. This is not the case, I simply have so many things going on I can't be here all the time. I am still searching, still waiting as ever.....Hopeful. |
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A new year....
Well, it seems everytime I blink, another few months have passed. I have to wonder where the time has gone and what did I do with it?? The holiday season was crazy hectic as usual, but great overall. I sometimes get lost in the events around me, organizing, making sure everyone is doing as they should be, seeing to the needs of family, that I forget about me. I don't usually have any time for myself. I am so busy it seems that I am putting myself on the back burner. I don't like that. I want to be able to know that things are running smoothly, and I am not needed to constantly stand over everyone and point out every little thing that needs taken care of. Then I can take time to have a relaxing bath, read a book, find someone who will give me a great back rub ( have I said how much I adore a good back rub?)and have someone take care of me for a change. MMMMM heaven...
I have been on infrequently lately as it seems like I need to step back and refocus. Decide what it is I am really seeking. Figure out if I can, if anybody will meet up to the expectations I will have of them and of myself. Seems a tall order sometimes. I know I want someone who has the same interests as I do, or else what will be the point? I refuse to settle simply because I became too impatient to wait for the right one not just someone. It seems some fall into that trap, on both sides of the D/s coin. I don't know if it's because the desire to own or be owned is so great that people are willing to jump at the first person who shows more than a passing interest, that they forget common ground. There must be some basis, some common interests other than D/s to bind you together. Obviously there is real life to contend with on a daily basis, and without ideals that mesh, common goals, same interests, the relationship will fail. I have seen it time and time again. I don't want to fall into that trap nor do I want someone else to simply because the D/s urge is so great. It would be futile to try to make something out of nothing. I don't understand it.....maybe I will make a study of it and try to find out what makes people fall into the same pitfall again and again.
Ok, enough of me attempting to go all philosophical on everyone..blech...I am no good at it..lol.
Winter is here in full force. Beautiful to look at, misery to deal with. Oh well it is but a short time in the grand scheme of things and spring will be upon us before you know it. I hope everyone is fairing well on their searches, and that the holidays were as joyous for you as it was for me.
I remain as ever.....Hopeful. |
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Wow...I was making an entry and hit a button......and poof it disappeared!! I really need someone who knows more of computers than I do...lol. I was looking back over past entries and realized I have been here for roughly one year. For most that is a short amount of time. For others like myself it can seem an eternity. Fall is here again, I am gearing up as usual for all that this time of year brings. Socially, this time of year is my busiest. I have friends and family coming all the time, dinners, holidays, shopping, etc. It gets quite hectic. I am busy all the rest of the year with work, so I don't have much time for social activities....or any activities period...lol.
I have met many people here, and I have to say, most are great. I enjoy reading others journals, and while mine is a bit mundane and haphazard, I hope there are some who are enjoying reading about my life and the search I am on for my girl. No, it is not exciting, or even all that interesting to most probably, but it is the story of my life and my search.
Yes, if any of you are wondering I am still looking. I know she will walk into my life, I simply must continue on. I have complete faith that it will all fall into place and she will appear in my life when the time is right. It's just a matter of patience.
It's funny, I can sit here and write easily, the words seem to flow quite well. But when I try to write someone (very infrequently) I get finger tied and my brain goes to sleep. I have no idea why, it always has...lol. I am really a very private person, and maybe the thought of telling someone about me just point blank like that is my problem. I guess what I want people to know, if you are looking at my profile, and think you may possibly be a little curious, read these journal entries....they say more about me than I could ever tell you in an introduction letter. I hate to write those.
This is my favorite time of year, I love all that has to do with fall. I wait patiently for my girl to find me....then we can share it together.
I remain as ever........
Hopeful |
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I look out my window at a sky that has that hazy, hot, blue look to it. Just by looking at the sky you know it's going to be a scorcher. I love the smell of summer. I can't put into words what the smell is, but between the flowers and grass, the trees and sprinklers running you get this.....summer smell. I love it. It sounds crazy, I know, to say I love the SMELL of summer, but there it is. I don't necessarily like summer, but I do love the smells. I go outside and sit, in the mornings with a cup of coffee, in the evenings a glass of tea, and look around me at all I have been blessed with. I have a home, a beautiful piece of land, the ability to work from home rather than have to work for someone else, and yet, I still feel.....incomplete. In a sense, I have probably been missing something my whole life, not saying I have had a bad life, I haven't really. But simply that something...someone is missing. I still search, and sometimes it feels like if I just round this next corner, there she will be. I'll find her and bring her home.....I remain as always......Hopeful. |
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Another entry...
I have no idea if anyone reads these things, or if they do, that it is at all helpful in making choices about anything. I have to assume that they are read by some, as I am a reader of journals myself. I find that it opens up a little more of the people here, where it would otherwise be your basic grocery list. Trying to find someone from a list of "things" is so difficult. People are so much more than that. There are so many more aspects to all of us than just what we like or know or want to give a whirl to. I guess I am as guilty as the rest about not putting a lot into my profile, but I just have a hard time putting my business out there for the world to see. I think that should be kept private between me and who I choose to share it with, NOT every person on this site. My business is just that...my business. So, and how is your day going??? LOL...
Yes, I know I am probably more idealistic than the norm, but I know that I can wait. I am also realistic about things. I have no illusions that we will go skipping merrily on our way to a happy place with no worries...carefree to pursue our lifestyle with no interference from the real world. Ha! Never going to happen...and I hope that anyone reading this and considering writing to me also has no illusions of a make believe world. I am looking for real life 24/7. And with that comes ALL the baggage of living that we both carry around. It's a given. No way out of it, so unless you are living in a bubble, I assume you will have the same things I do. Bills, friends, jobs, worries, etc etc etc.
Ok, enough of the rant, I usually don't do that, I am just frustrated to no end about the people who write and have this whole fantasy of how things will be in their heads. That hasn't deterred me...I still have faith....I remain as ever ....Hopeful |
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Wow...
I haven't been here in ages it seems. I have been so busy with everyday life, it seems I have forgotten to make time for myself. Summer is definitely coming and the world seems so much nicer when things are all green and flowery.....I know by the time late summer comes, it will be all brown and struggling, but, that is the way of things isn't it? I often wonder if all of life has to be such a struggle....we know what we want in life, and yet it seems for every step we make forward, we take 2 back. I guess there is a lesson in that, I'm just not quite sure what it is or why we need to learn it...lol. Anyway, enough of the maudlin, things are too beautiful to dwell on sadness.
I suspended searching for quite awhile, simply because I can't figure people out. I have read hundreds of profiles and even written to a few(very few), but it seems when it all boils down to it, no one is really here for anything...lol.
They are one of the following:
1. Not actually looking, they are just THINKING about looking.
2. Not actually the gender they claim to be.
3. Not actually sure after months of communication that they are actually ready for this kind of lifestyle.
4. Not really sure if they are even human or just a fictitious being posing as a human.
It is actually funny when you look at it. Hundreds of people all supposedly seeking the same thing, and yet, it is virtually impossible to actually find anyone or anything. Oh well, such is life. I don't really care all that much. I don't dwell on things too often, and I have met some great people here who I am happy to call friend. That means more to me than anything. Yes, it would be nice to finally find the girl for me and settle into life, but having friends is a gift too. Friends are there for you through thick and thin, and always will be. So if all I get from my experience on CM is a handful of people I can call friends, then it was well worth coming here.
I continue the search....with a smile and the customary faith that all things will work out in the end. I know without a doubt I will find her. It's not a matter of IF just WHEN......... As always, Hopeful |
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Wow...it seems every time I look around time has again flown by. It has been an interesting month for me. I have enjoyed the weather we are having and been in touch with friends and family that I haven't spoken with for a while. I still seek a girl. That being said, I have to say it is hard to find one who is real or really wants the things I do. If I approach some, they call me a man trolling for wank material. I find that funny. I agree there are many here who are listed as women and are simply trolling. That makes it hard for those of us who are real and seriously looking for someone. Oh well, such is life. I truly believe that when I least expect it, I will turn around and there she will be. I would love to have a girl here with me to enjoy life and to enjoy period. I think it is so important that whomever I find will have no illusions of being tied bound caged what have you at all times. I have read some of the profiles here and I have to say that some of these younger girls are a tad unrealistic in their expectations of this. Yes, all of that is a huge part of our chosen way of life, but it is not the be all end all. There is day today life that must be lived also. Like I said I remain optimistic and have every bit of faith that I will succeed in my endeavor.
I remain as always,
Hopeful |
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Hard to believe the month is almost gone, where did it go? I have been very busy these last couple of weeks.
I had a friend and her children staying a bit to give her space to clear her head. They just recently went back home. It sure is quiet around here with out the added family. Almost too quiet...lol.
The crisp days have been too much and I have been indoors more than out. Far too cold to do much more than run back and forth from car to house. On the plus side, I finished making some quilts I had begun for a niece and they turned out beautifully if I do say so myself. Was nice to sit and sew, I haven't had much time to do that lately.
I remain as always optimistic, and continue searching for a girl of my own. I have been in contact with a wonderful woman, but it seems our lives were not meant to connect except on a friendship level. That is fine with me, I enjoy her company, and we have a better relationship if we remain nothing more than friends.
Another reason for all of us to remember that while we are looking, we can find wonderful people who can enrich our lives, even if we are not compatible on a deeper level. It is not always about the ending, but the things you find along the way.
This has been such an adventure for me in many ways. I have learned a lot and found so many great people, that if I never find what I am looking for, I will have had more fun than many ever do. I love the forums here, and most of the people here are friendly. Makes it a bit more enjoyable than some of the sites I have explored.
I hope that all of you are also making the most of your experiences here. If you look beyond the profiles to the people, you will find more than you think.
As always,
Hope |
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Wow, I have made it through the holidays and come out the other side a bit poorer, but otherwise good. Christmas went great, and I enjoyed being with family, all of us pitching in to cook and bake. It was so much fun to just hang around the house and do all the goofy things to make this time special. |
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So much has happen in such a short time. Christmas is fast approaching, And just when I think I am ready, some other small thing pops into my head that I have forgotten..LOL. I guess I will be shopping until the day arrives when they shut the doors and hang the closed sign. I am into the baking and candy phase now. I love the smells associated with this time of year. It brings back all those cozy feelings of being a child. Not a bad feeling to have. Children are so easily pleased. Love acceptance, food, shelter, toys, pets. We could learn a lot from them if we simply watch and listen. Too many times as adults we forget the simple things and make more of things than there needs to be. That is the curse of growing up and seeing the world through grown up vision. Maybe we should strive everyday at least once to see things as if still young. Who knows, we might find a perspective we hadn't expected.
I am still optimistic. I still have hope that the girl I am looking for will open her eyes and find I am here...waiting for her. I hope everyone who reads this remains hopeful too. I know that patience and a little bit of trust, faith, and hope will bring happiness to all of us when the new year tolls. After all, it has been said there is someone for everyone. We just need to find our someones!!!
Holiday wishes to all,
Hope |
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WOW!!!! December already, and only 23 more shopping days till Christmas. Hope everyone is as busy as I am..lol. The Thanksgiving holiday has passed, and I am a little sad, have I told you all how much I love the holidays?? But I have Christmas to look forward to, and that makes me smile. I get this little feeling in my tummy....maybe it's gas...lol.
I have been busy busy busy. Shopping, wrapping, hiding all the gifts for everyone. There is nothing like the thrill of this time of year, everyone all doing the same thing, trying to make it the best you can for those you love.
Finally got the tree put up, all decked out and shimmering with lights. I love at night when I turn off all the lights and just sit with the tree lit, watching the lights twinkling, making everything seem almost like it has been touched by magic. I am a bit saddened that I haven't found my girl yet to share it with but I remain, as always, positive.
I know in my heart I will find her and suspect it will be from out of nowhere, when I am not looking. I have been talking with a few from here, wonderful people...who knows maybe one of them is here and has been all along. Wouldn't that be a hoot???
I hope every one is enjoying themselves, but please remember those in our communities who are less fortunate. If you have the opportunity, please donate to your local food banks, toy drives, and shelters. This time of year is very difficult for some and any contributions you can make will be, I'm sure, greatly appreciated.
Regards to all...Hope. |
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Holiday time...that crazy, hectic, wondrous time of year when we all go overboard. On food, friends, gifts, decorations, and Christmas lights....I LOVE IT!!!!
The holiday bug has bitten...I am putting up lights, going on buying sprees, making lists, and then making lists of lists gearing up for my favorite time of year. I am not alone though. As I was driving down the road I saw people stringing lights, trees appearing in windows, and the stores...ahhh the stores!!! Everything to tempt and tantalize us....appearing as if magic. Decorations, gift packs (you know the one I mean), and every other imaginable thing put out and polished up to look it's best in the hopes that we will BUY, BUY,BUY!!! Which by the way we do.....lol.
It seems that this time of year brings out the best in everyone. For that, we should all be thankful. All the petty things we thought were so important get put on the back burner. Differences tend to be mended and old connections turn out to be the best gifts of all.
I remain optimistic and realistic in my search. There are many who are still looking, searching, hoping that things will work out. I am positive they will. Patience is the key. And faith. I have both......
Warm wishes,
Hope |
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Fall is officially here....crisp days and the smells of falling leaves...my favorite time of year. It's the time when you get to snug in, a good book, mug of coffee or chocolate, watching the fire burning.....just relaxing and enjoying the sights and feel of the earth making it's way through another season.
Sometimes I think I am making a futile effort in trying to find someone who will enjoy this with me. But, when I look out my window and see the sun shining and all the colors that fall brings, I know that there is hope. I know there is going to be someone when I least expect it pop into my life for good....
I have met many wonderful people here, and a few who were a little bit off the wall, but overall it has been an awesome experience....
I am having a great time with all the new connections and friends I have made here.
I haven't found my girl yet, but I have found out more about myself and others which is always good. And I know she will find me soon...after all, it's the best time of year!!!!!!!
Hope |
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I received an e-mail the other day from a very nice person who gave me some advice about my profile....said I might want to re-think listing myself as bisexual as I am only looking for women. LOL...he may be right and I did tell him that...he said that as long as I was listed bi, men think they might stand a chance....too funny. I am bisexual, not lesbian..that is who I am, so sorry guys, doesn't mean you will change my mind. At least one thing came from that e-mail...Maybe a new person I can call friend....always important in this crazy world we live in. |
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To all the men who have e-mailed me.....thank you for the messages, but if you read my whole profile, you will see I said GIRL, FEMALE, etc.... and for me that means born that way. No kidding...I really want a girl...no mind change...no give me a try...a girl.
Someone told me I am too idealistic and too polite in my profile.....hmmmm... I have to wonder at that. Why would someone think that in order to appear here one needs to be aggressive and throw her weight around??? I give everyone respect, and don't expect anythings less from others. As for being Idealistic, that may be, but who's to say there isn't someone just as idealistic as me out there?? Every person on the planet is different folks....what might not be for you may work for others. Keep that in mind when sending and receiving e-mails, and show respect for others wishes, beliefs, ideas, and needs. You may find that common courtesy will take you far......Regards....Hope |
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