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selfish is as selfish does ... if you aren't looking, then why are you even here?
hypocrisy is rampant no
not sure i understand it but it was sent to me and i couldnt respond.....shrugs
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im wondering if you guys really know what impresses a woman.
a guy with a dildo in his mouth...........Nope
or better still up his bum...................Nope
a guy flashing his manhood.........................Nope
one liner messages......................Nope
why not try a decent conversation, about anything
excluding what you want done to you.
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oh ive had another birthday...aging gracefullly....kinda |
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ok here we go...once again i am finding myself in a position of saying it how it is.
I do NOT have any interest in married men looking for discreet....
I do NOT do discreet....i am not someones dirty little secret...I am a living breathing person that desreves the respect of being who i am....
so if you are married.....do NOT bother emailing me....
i feel for your poor wives whom you cheat on. |
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i always feel good after i get rid of the dead wood.....
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WOOT!
im moving tomorrow....
where
ha ha not telling
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opps i had a birthday...adjusts age...
adjusts skirt........wanders off again
ciao |
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~laughs~
has been ages since i have been bored enough to come here.....not much has changed ...
lifes good and so am i
thats all the matters right!
its all about me now.
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~news flash~ i am not in the entertainment industry...so dont ask to be entertained |
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expectations....are had by all. |
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had a great night out friday ...new venue in syd,,,,,club hch.......fun had by all, glad i got to see so many friendly faces about....great club great friends,,,,,lifes grand |
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did i mention i love rubber
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do you see what i see?
do you rememer?
like i do!
do you remember
do you remember
like i do
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calls TIME OUT  brb |
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If you have a question about me. Ask me...if your needing counselling call a counsellor, if you require a tourist guide I am all booked up. I don’t need amusing so don’t try, I can amuse myself. And also if you would like to talk to my friends please do so, as i am not the jealous type. |
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waves to "peace" moxie smile  |
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just looking at my profile and noticed its been one year since i have joined the site, and what a year it has been. I have met alot of wonderful people and some not so nice . Nothing ventured nothing gained , i have no regrets really its all a learning experience. So thankyou to all that have dropped in and said hi and thankyou to those that have stayed with me.
~ Anaïs Nin~
~Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born~
~smiles from honey~ |
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it seems i have people now walking in my park.
One thing i like about life is being an individual, i do not follow people or fashion trends, i am who i am and i say what i say, because thats "Just Me".
i am Just Honey, no one else, be original be you and do not try, because trying is so trying and you can only keep it up for so long. Then the real you will surface. |
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another day
another smile
as my grin widens
so do my horizons
another battle fought
another battle won
i am the stronger
it shows
i am not evil
i am honest
i am not evil
but i will fight
i am not evil
but you will not lie to me
i am not evil
you will not walk over me
i am not evil
but i will win
winners are grinners
LOL you should see the grin on my face now! |
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slap my face......and watch me walk.
do it twice and i wont talk.
noice~ |
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time to update my profile ey! im not 39 anymore..i have finally grown up im now that magical "40"... lifes good im happy and i made it to the wonder years..or did i just come from there...hmmmm wonders! |
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We are not born all at once, but by bits. The body first, and the spirit later; and the birth and growth of the spirit, in those who are attentive to their own inner life, are slow and exceedingly painful. Our mothers are racked with the pains of our physical birth; we ourselves suffer the longer pains of our spiritual growth. |
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Peace  |
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just back from holidays...a nice break..now what? |
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feeling rather chirpy today
number one feels good
Makes you wonder though
what do they see
a picture is just an image
the outta revealed for all to see
but what do they see
do they look deep enough
to see whats from within
~smiles from honey~
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As time moves on so do i
to bigger & better things
I once thought i had what i wanted
what i needed what i desired
Now i have seen i was blinded
he was not "real" in fact
he was so shallow
one so cruel and unkind
one that wanted to torture a mind
one who was so unclean
in mind body & soul
he is empty
an empty force sent here
to challenge us all
he did not break me
although he tried
the day i left , i hope he died
its for you to decide
what you believe
for i know what was true
i lived it
i breathed it
i witnessed the evil from within him
you saw the charm the exterior shell
good luck oh evil "ONE"
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monkey see monkey do...just hanging in my tree |
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now try and mail me oh educated one |
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i am a submissive "woman" please refrain from calling me "girl" its a hard limit wiith me. I will also refrain from aplogising i am who i am.... is not a girl |
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boundaries, limits
finding the line
will she step over it, or walk along it
will she push it, will she push you
will she test you
will she trust you
the real question is
does she want you |
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~Its much easier to turn a friendship into love, than love into friendship.~ |
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i look i talk
but i cant seem to pin point where it is
the spark the brilliance of it all
the wonder and curiousity is dull
something is lacking
i find bits and pieces
like a jig saw puzzle
the pieces all scattered
but nothing fits
theres something missing
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~When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that a man can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him; and you are torn by the thought of the unhappiness and night you cast, by the mere fact of living, in the hearts you encounter.~ |
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our life is about journey and where it shall takes us, for me the road has widened, now i do not find myself on a country road lost and bewildered but on a highway, lifes fast but im in the slow lane. As i watch others fly past me i do not try to catch them as my journey is for me, i do not need to keep up. I am moving along at my pace you may speed past me or you may pull beside me, thats your choice. If you are in a hurry so be it, im fine where i am.
If im going to fast for you maybe its time, time to take the fork in the road,for you to find your exit and move along and for me to continue on my path happily knowing our trip was fun but now it is time to go our seperate ways. |
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~Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow.~ |
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Reyne de Coupe (Queen of Cups): The essence of water, such as a deep and placid lake: Spirituality, maturity, and grace. A natural counselor and healer, One whose relaxed presence seems to embody deep love and spirituality. A tranquil poet who reflects the nature of the observer. The embrace of all things dreamlike and receptive, such as perfect and unconditional love. |
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a quote for today on ignorance:
~A little learning is a dangerous thing; drink deep, or taste not the Pierian spring: there shallow draughts intoxicate the brain, and drinking largely sobers us again.
probably the source of the saying, "a little knowledge is a dangerous thing"~
and from honey
alot is even worse...knowledge is power...
so being a submissive is that a bad thing ?? |
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Her eyes tell a tale
they hide very little
a stare or glare
Do not dare
she is hurt leave her be
a tear not rolling down her cheek
but dripping from her heart
you see her eyes glazed
focused but lost
you may see a tear in her eye
but it will not drop only sting
so she will hold it in
when her eyes are starry
she is free and happy to just be
to smile with her eyes
is to know she’s happy.
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NEWS FLASH!!!!
i do not find it funny when i am told to jump a plane.
YOU message me
YOU mail me
YOU tell me to jump a plane
what about you jump the plane!!!!
reality is im here i like it here and i aint moving for anyone.
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just sitting here chatting to my best friend..... sipping my coffee and happy with life and what its dealt me and what now i have in front of me. We were talking about us and others and how people judge for what ever reason....its hard to believe in this lifestyle one would.
they are not real
real dont judge only the fakes do
they judge because they are not real
they can't believe we are and call us on it
but i was friends with the ones that were real
i accepted them
and them me
why do others judge us so harshly
for we are free
and they cannot be
it is not my misery
so leave me be
to be hap hap happy
smiles from honey |
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a note from my friend : MasterJohnRC
Step on this girl with fear and trepidation,, as she may be a submissive,,
not an ordinary one,, one made for only the strongest of Masters,,
Let fools be warned,, they risk life and ego to challenge this submissive
smiles from honey |
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i have a slight headache today
wonders if chocolate will help! |
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hey im not sure what it all means. i know only half there is to learn about life. So i figure im half way there and doing ok.
No one has everything and those that think they do should really have a good look around. Are you stable? have another look are you sure? what is stable to you may not be to another. Do you enjoy life? still thinking yes? are you really sure you enjoy life or just what it deals you? Have you reached your full potiential? once again you nod.. i dont think so, but thats just my opinion.
I will ask you again in 10 years when your older and wiser and you say "i wish i had......" thats when you finally realise you didnt have it all and you still havent reached you full potential.
I do not want to regret, i want to grow to my full potential so dont hold me back, dont block my path, encourage smile and be happy, because i am.
i do not want to be rich, nor powerful i just want to be me. |
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yes today is another day
another page has turned
images flashing by
people come and go
i wonder who will stay
if not in my space
in my heart and mind
another page to read today
im wondering what it will say
good news, bad news
will it just give me the blues
or will it make me sparkle
will it make me smile
she sits back quietly
waiting to see
on second thoughts
no i wont sit
i will keep busy like a bee
i shall come back later
and see whats here for me
~smiles from honey~
keeping busy like a bee
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well i am in a rather good mood today, another step forward in the game of life.
smile and the world smiles with you. |
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a photo, an image
something so simple
of what is real, what is not
i love, i hurt, i cry
every image so fresh in my head
i look i sigh for i feel it had to die
something so real for me
but not for him
had to be buried deep within
i look at what i see
a face smiling at me
but why did you smile
why did you get so deep within me
why did you tear me open
leave me exposed
why now do you rip my heart out
with every image you post
why do you still want to hurt me
when you know i still love you
i told you before
i would love you forever
no matter what happened it was real
its all so surreal
i dont want to accept it
when i hear your name i die
i want i need
but i know i cant have
for to me you do not think i am real
many call you a fool
for what you had was love and devotion
but only you could not see it
her love for you
her acceptance of you
her courage and strengths when she was with you
but in the end
she had to step back
to retreat and surrender as she said she would do
for she needed more
she needed you but yes she also needed the truth
she stepped back in fear knowing
the end was so near
her heart bleeding daily
she stepped back because in the end
it was the only way she would survive.
~To free us from the expectations of others, to give us back to ourselves--there lies the great, singular power of self-respect.~
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she sits quietly
she thinks
she is alone, but she is not
she takes her time, she looks around
she sleeps soundly
she dreams pleasant thoughts
she is survivng, shes a fighter
she is lonely, but shes ok
shes thinking again
better leave her alone to think
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have fixed my web site up now im working on my forum...the solitude is doing me good, keeping me busy and very much distracted. i am well to all those that care thankyou for your time and patience with me. coming to grips with lies and betrayal is not easy but in good time i know things will be put right. so for now i do what i have to, dont forget me i will be back better than ever. All in good time.
and a short note to those that want only to take advantage of me...please move on as i have no time for you i am not weak and will not tolerate your behaviour Dom or not i deserve respect as i give it to all that deserve it back.
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he speaks of change
how can this be
for he knows not what he needs to be
he has no courage but only spite
but this little girl is way to bright
she will not bite
she will not fight
she will just sit quietly
in respite
For she has time on her hands
And will not fall to his demands
She is strong
He was wrong
To let her go
Only to soothe his ego
as she yelled
his head swelled
his anger reaching boiling point
she walked away
now she moves on to another beautiful day.
~honey~
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my hearts still beating
slower than usual
but it still beats
a sad and somber mood has fallen across me
as the doors close on yesterday
it seems a new start is needed
to move forward
what direction i do not know
but i know it will be slow
friends around me
feeling my pain
but knowing that i will bloom again
time to sit and purge all bad
for i am not wanting to be sad
do not rush me
just stand by me
be my friend as i wont defend
ask of me and i will only retreat
i am not something you can defeat
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Nothing worth doing is completed in our lifetime,
Therefore, we are saved by hope.
Nothing true or beautiful or good makes complete sense in any immediate context of history;
Therefore, we are saved by faith.
Nothing we do, however virtuous, can be accomplished alone.
Therefore, we are saved by love.
No virtuous act is quite a virtuous from the standpoint of our friend or foe as from our own;
Therefore, we are saved by the final form of love which is forgiveness. |
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today another day
wonders what games shall we all play
up early to greet the birds
to come online and talk to nerds
hmmmmm
i shall work on my pages
as i haven’t for ages
time for a change
maybe even swap old for new and exchange
holding a peg in her hand
she smiles for when You squeeze it she opens
then when its closed You join together as one
Your now complete
as Your joined
forever to be one
don’t be sad, don’t be glum
for we shall never say die
until everything is done |
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a true friend just said to me:
truth is beauty
so when you stand in your truth
you stand in your beauty
and you are beautiful
smiles from honey |
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today i took a big step, not sure how i feel.
i let go...............
i saw His anger
an anger i had never seen before
an anger i never wanted to be
i didnt want to face it
i didnt want to let go
but He had to know why
why i finally regressed to half the person i was
why i couldnt stand by and watch
the pain to much, He didnt understand my love
wonders why someone could be angry with me for i speak the truth
i stand in my truth
i have a good heart
i did nothing wrong except i believed what i herd instead of what i saw
i spoke from my heart and.......
i let go.................
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~To free us from the expectations of others, to give us back to ourselves--there lies the great, singular power of self-respect~
my favourite quote
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they really do not understand how much power they have over us
unless they have felt it for themselves
because when we give, we give all of us
you become everything we may want and desire
to switch is to understand
both sides giving and receiving
even from the bottom you feel the power
the power to be calm the power to let go
the power from within to trust
our mind a kindred spirit
so focused and clear for You to draw from me knowing what i am giving
You know what we feel
as You have given Yourself
it gives You even more power
because You know how to release to let go from within
You are the one i love
You are the one i seek
for i need one who understands me
how i may think, how i always feel
i am yes a complex person
but really underneath
i just need someone that can love me
for who i truely be
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this is my entry for this morning all said tongue and cheek of course but wants to share my thoughts that run through my wee brain:::
i am experiencing higher than normal volume and are therefore unable to service your request at this time. Try one of the following:
trolling
chatting on yahoo
surfing porn on the net
writing dribble in your diary
Wait a few minutes and try again
i apologize for this inconvenience.
~ps~ thats the message i keep getting from msn
so on that note i would like to thank Mr Bill Gates.
no Sir Gates you may not be my Master! |
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all excited todays photo shoot day, should be fun and we going to really awaken them with our gear at 1030am ...a little early you think ????
nope its never to early!!!! |
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busy chating last night heres my next entry
i sit and laugh
at so many
faces blurred 1 2 3
i watch them chop and change with glee
oh me oh my what will make them all happy
names flashing by
just have to say hi
but then i go back
and oh their gone bye bye
from sydney to melbourne
they sure get around
stop stop people
lets keep our feeet on the ground!
no no no im not on drugs....just amusing Y/you all for the minute! |
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tonight I am with peter pan, he’s looking over me, making sure I am ok ....my thoughts for today:::::
sitting quietly
listening attentively to them
No not the voices in my head
they all speak the same language
i listen hard, do i understand what they say
Does what they say make sense to me
I let someone down today
I feel bad, stressed
Why did I do it?
Why am I so distant?
Why do I push everyone away from me?
What am I scared of
Why do I run?
Why do I hide?
I am confused
Don’t ask me because I don’t know why
I am here safe, untouchable
My home is my haven
You can’t hurt me here
No one can
Why?
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i feel like the rabbit in Alice in wonderland, im late im late. Was a little off last night so heres my entry for yesterday...my thoughts as follows::::
she wakes calm relaxed
shes smiling and happy
time to move now
another day ahead
what shall it bring
anything of interest or only despair?
shes home now
she looks around
she sees not a lot
head starts to thump again
she lays down
wanting her head calm and relaxed
she sleeps again
up and down all day
sleeps wakes sleeps wakes
why does her head thump?
why is there so much pain?
never anything to gain
Life’s a loss
She sleeps again
What dreams may come
To those who sleep soundly
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didnt get a chance last night as i was out...and i guess i slept alot today so heres yesterdays thoughts.......
saucepan lids banging and clashing
thunder striking trees as they sway
the roar of an engine inside her head
doors contstanly opened and slammed
noises everywhere she needs quiet
glaring lights in her eyes, shes blinded
head throbbing, bloods rushing
hearts are beating
her day busy and loud now becomes her night
a gentle touch
a soft smile
sweet tender lips
a stroking hand
its quiet now
she closes her eyes
she smiles as she feels
soft and tender
she sleeps soundly as she dreams
dont wake her up let her dream
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i know this ones late...was tired went to bed disappointed with the illusions of reality, once again my thoughts...
You say so much
yet You say so little
im thinking about so much
heads scrambled, whats my next move
shall i run to the hills, or into a dark cave
will i bask in the sun, or sit in the rain
shall i sleep, shall i ponder
decsions hard to make
what is right , what is wrong
will i send it, shall i delete it
what should i do
choices to make, what shall i do
live in reality, or dream on in fantasy
i would not say its hope
more so a dream
a want , a desire
fact is
all i want to do is scream
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i have decided to take it upon myself to write one entry daily. ok i did two yesterday i was just catching up..todays will be once again my thoughts.....ok here goes
You sit there
thinking not knowing is she real
whats is she about,what does she think
You think about Your responses to her
nothing off the cuff
all thought out and worded correctly
all pleasing to the eye
but real is off the cuff
real is pleasing to her eyes
say what Your first thoughts are
say what You feel
do not think to hard
because once You do
You start analyse her
just say what You feel is right
Your first thought will always be real
once You start dreaming it becomes a fantasie.
say what You mean not what she wants to hear.
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have you noticed that in most sites when you log an entry you have to submit....whoever designed this site must have realised and so not to have the Doms struggle with the submit button they put a save changes one!!!!!
just an observation of mine, sorry to keep you all.
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Illusions, disillusions
Hope, disappointment
Joy, saddness
Loyalties, unfaithfullness
What’s it all mean
Good and bad
Happy and sad
Rejoicing and broken hearts
What’s it all about
What’s it mean
Free or bound
Exposed or covered
Life or death
What are these?
What’s it mean
To exist or to perish
The flower or to wither
To fly or to swoop
To stumble or to fall
To feel or to be numb
To be found but I am lost
Why is this so
Why is anything
Why is everything
Why am i |
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He is not around
she knows her place
He speaks in riddles
she listens and understands
He is in a hurry
she is patient
He remembers but does not show it
she has a good memory
He asks her why
she answers the question
He does not see it
she is observant
He frowns
she bows her head
He smiles
she smiles back glowing
once again He asks her why
she cries
He walks away
she dies inside
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