herbssub

Today is the day that I have been dreading. It's going to have to be after the kids go to bed, so around 10pm I am heading into the office with 5 pillows. I am to prop up on those pillows and get my legs restrained. I will set up an area next to me, where it will have both paddles. At that point Master will leave, letting me write to him and come back when he's ready.
When it's time, he will hook my hands and i will be on all fours with my ass straight up in the air. This is my worst position possible, but because of what I did, I must take this. After this punishment, he will forgive me. Now that it's time, I will receive 40 full swing, extremely hard swats. I have stated that if I'm not crying by the 5th swat, I want him to start over. At 10, he is going to gape my ass and pussy to prove that my pussy and ass belongs to him. After all 40 are paid up, the big paddle goes down and I'm sure I'll be sobbing and crying hard by now. Then he's going to pick up the smaller paddle. This is going to get used on my inner thighs. That hurts worst than my ass, most of the time. I am getting 20 swats with that on both of my thighs, break every 10. This is the most severe punishment that I've ever received. And I'm scared, yet knowing I deserve it. I'll write after It's finished