gypsyssoul

lost alot
and gained a 'me'
not sure its an even exchange yet
but i can breathe
i can feel
and i know .. that tomorrow
will be better somehow
someway
they just keep getting better
... yes.. me
still waiting for the sky to fall
but smiling as i look up
for a change

New Year
this life doesn't have to change
.. the real people still lurk
linger ..
and look
this Monday every Monday
 .. Manic ..
friendship and fun ..
but to the
New life
.. new things ..
all i can say ..
is what i am i am ..
i really am
 .. and thank You Deviant Sir
for showing me ..
that ..
for the belief ..
the love and the pain
.. You Sir .. are a wonderful/ extreme /Sadist loving Dom ...
:: laughs ..
ok .. i went there
thank You for rocking my world ..

illussions
isn't that what we all have
and how we get started with the dream
.. i gave up on this lifestyle ..
thinking it must be me
that i must be the one that isn't for this
.. then
by fate, destiny
or just luck
i have been shown what i am
and what i can be
and what was never taken from me
is now offered freely ..
with a smile and tears
thank You Sir

Respect ?
once given ?
is it earned ?
and once given ?
 ...should it not be returned ? ..

just a thought

Still trying to figure out
how i got this lucky?
still fearing the sky will fall
still learning this ache
i am owned .. i am His
and it feels like i should have always been here
this was where i ws suppose to be
Thank You Master
for allowing me this
the honor of being
Your precious

Wow.
Yesterday changed my life.
I learned about completing a few tasks....  compromise... setting goals and feeling
very .. very beautiful for the first
time in a very long time. 

Thank You Master. 
~~precious memories

"Our past is a story existing only in our minds.  Look, analyze, understand, and forgive.  Then, as quickly as possible, chuck it. "

:: giggles

would love to say .. its easy
but its not ...
i have great friends
one certain Cheshire Cat
that helps me
to keep putting
one foot ...
before the other ..

~~blessings
gypsy

In the dark I find that shelter
in the night so cold and black
so from the light that I must run
for its the courage that I lack  

I have always sought that other side
but like a flame I dare not touch
For like forbidden fruits of wild
just one taste would be to much  ..

"one taste or four,
i now want You more...."

'you all are freaks... yeah i said it"

had I looked into the crystal ball
perhaps
 seen the abyss ..
the crazy part of this before

is this me ?
i really don't know ...
i don't know if i can do this ..
i can't say i believe in this anymore ...
or what it really is
i am going to stop thinking about it
and not hurt anymore

my grandmother told me once of a wolf and that he would protect me ... no knights in shining armor ..  oh no ...
for you Sir
[Boy:] On a hot summer night,
would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?
[Girl:] Will he offer me his mouth?
[Boy:] Yes.
[Girl:] Will he offer me his teeth?
[Boy:] Yes.
[Girl:] Will he offer me his jaws?
[Boy:] Yes.
[Girl:] Will he offer me his hunger?
[Boy:] Yes.
[Girl:] Again, will he offer me his hunger?
[Boy:] Yes!
[Girl:] And does he love me?
[Boy:] Yes.
[Girl:] Yes.
[Boy:] On a hot summer night,
would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?
[Girl:] Yes.
[Boy:] I bet you say that to all the boys!

I have to say ... it is a new month.
So much has changed, even inside of me.
I feel firmer in my believes
and i think i can paint the whole  
side of a house.
I say that now ... but the fear is still there
only now its a little tingle in my belly  
more then in my head.  
Perhaps failing won't kill me  
so its worth a try.
Gave up on forever.. i'll take today. 
Happiest of Yule to you all.  
~~blessings

life changed again ... today for me
it does that ... throws the curve balls
that you never see
or maybe we are just blind to seeing them ??
who knows
sort of gave up a part of me
let it go
and i stand here for the first time this year
unsure of what to do
do i try ??
( i always fail .. so why )
or give up
(sounds so much easier don't you think?)
when does one ... just except
what one is ?? ... is it the breaking point ?
the axle .. that life sits on ?
damn
you know what ...
tomorrow is another day
i'll just hold here
in this chess game called
my life

Wow... ok Wow      
not sure what else to say ... but have to get it out ... Thank you Columia ::Smiles  
got to get up there this weekend for a venders fair ...   and see some very interesting things and meet some really interesting people.    Thanks T3 for letting Cha come.

Thanks to my friends for 'making' me go ...   (without the rope and being thrown in the trunk) this girl might not of had the courage to go.    So thanks ...  
i got to see the things i have been craving from a different view ... not sure what to say here am i more scared or more excited.    
ok both :: smiles

~~blessings

:: laughs ... ok he said ... to delete

ok .. i shall call this venting ..
 instead of being rude. 
..

edited ... as ordered 


:: giggles .. ok how about ... wanna be's
stay away .......

~~blessed be

.....Soooooooo Cool ....
old friends ...
and new friends ..
but those
that keep us in our place
~~ found a friend here that
well ... i have not seen
in years
good to know you havent' changed
** winks

~~i am lucky ...
i am happy  .. i have friends .. and make new ones  daily ....life is good ~~

still scared to face this at times....
but then i don't wake up and not think of it .... or me in it ...

~~
so ... if you contact me
i will write back ...
i know this sounds bad but i am
a white female 
please be male .. and is it wrong to say
white also ???
god if thats wrong i am sorry

its just what i know .....
still just me .........
making friends ........
and enemys 
......sorry
~blessed be

What to say ... What to say
well I have been here a total of 2 days
and I feel like I have made a few friends.

Getting brave enough to write back to people .. and I learned how to view profiles .. LoL....

I guess what I wanted to put here ..
is I am not rushing this   
so if you want to talk,
share some storys .. .talk about the weather fine
but dont' expect my number address and ssn # from email ..
submissive doesn't mean stupid
or gullible...
I am an easy person to talk to
hey I got jokes
 
but I am also serious about this
Its taken me 10 years to put this on track
10 years of searching for what I am
and hopefully I am here.
If you have questions or wish to know something ..
ask ..

~~blessed be