Thank You for opening my profile. i hope it is of some interest and entertainment to you, and apologise if it is not, or offends you in any way.

i have thought and read about many alternative lifestyle aspects for most of my life, but for all my 52 years have never – yes never – had the courage or opportunity to experience any of these in reality. If you are willing to initially subject me, as an inexperienced "late developer", to an Over-The-Knee spanking and see how it develops from there, then please let me know.

my aspiration for how "it could develop", is with me ultimately becoming truly obedient to You, instinctively respectful to all Ladies and contributing what i can by correct behaviour and actions to the benefit of all – including me.

The "thinking and reading" activities are strongly influenced by the Jacqueline Ophir book (originally attributed to Alice Kerr-Sutherland) "A Guide to the Correction of Young Gentlemen". my need is for a scene establishing my submissive position by playing a younger role subject to discipline by a figure of authority associated with that, such as "naughty schoolboy controlled by teacher", or a domestic environment "naughty boy controlled by family relation (Aunt or Female cousin)".

A significant feature of these scenarios is the relatively conventional clothing involved – "props" such as "Headmistress cap and gown" would be interesting, but not be essential to establish a teacher role. and i wish to avoid "dominatrix in leather and spike heeled thigh length boots experiences".

Administration of physical discipline using hand, slipper, tawse and cane, with me being restrained as lightly as allowable, possibly not restrained at all if encouraged to take my punishment without trying to escape. Again, i am not suited to "whips, chains and masks" experiences.

As an absolute beginner who’s never been spanked, i guess the natural restraint of being Over-The-Knee as the effects of a prolonged spanking build up would be sufficient to subdue my struggles.

Aspects of clothing within my role would be the shame involved in being made to dress younger as humiliating punishment in itself. For example, initially being an "older boy" allowed to wear long trousers, then having these taken away and made to wear shorts as punishment for a "childish" offence, and potentially, even having these removed and being put into nappies for a "poor hygiene – lack of cleanliness" offence. This may be the only area where a material such as rubber would be involved! This would not be an Adult Baby scenario – i would not be pretending to be a baby, but genuinely suffering the shame of looking more ridiculous than usual.

Within my aspirations for this scene, it would not be necessary to go beyond the shame of being clothed in this manner – although i have "wetting" and even "soiling" fantasies, i realise enacting these is rather distasteful, unless you require me to get into an even more shameful state when in nappies by forcing me to "use" them. Possibly in this situation, you may require me to raise my hand and, if then allowed to speak, request if i may be allowed to use the potty, presumably with my embarrassment of this being under your supervision.

(i genuinely have a "weak bladder" associated with my real age - so avoiding or exploiting real "accidents" may be an issue!)

As starting points for naughtiness, i feel subjects associated with the scene, such as "late for class / talking in class / untidy work / copying homework / cheating in exam..." would work, particularly where they introduce aspects of my relevant poor behaviour in "real life" (lazy, procrastinating, slow, interrupting others when they are speaking, passing other peoples, ideas off as my own) as topics requiring disciplinary correction.

my age in the role would be around 13 – 14 where hormones have led me to play with myself at every opportunity. You do not tolerate this and to be caught masturbating, or leaving evidence of my self-abuse, is very high on your "requiring severe correction scale".

This aspect connects strongly with my "real life" – i still masturbate every opportunity. (With guilt associations particularly poignant as i was doing this in the latter years of my failed marriage, rather than attending to Her needs. Retribution for my disgraceful behaviour towards Her might be appropriate, if this isn’t too much of a serious, real therapy area).

Although having zero real experience, i have experimented with a few areas of interest , including taking a reasonably serious approach when subscribed to an "Internet School". i can see You may regard this as pathetic, silly and laughable, as i was obviously "playing", and retained control over how i played, but maybe this is mitigated (or mabe not!) by my approach to it and opportunity it offered for lifestyle lessons learned.

As assignments, i was instructed to perform research, reading and writing exercises that i dutifully carried out – some with educational value in themselves – which i really appreciated, as "an area where i wouldn’t have considered making any effort or spending time doing this if i hadn’t been ordered to do it, but have benefited from it". Similarly, being ordered by e-mail to clean my bathroom thoroughly made me do more than my usual superficial "wipe over – that’ll do – now i’ll watch television" manner, with obvious benefits (although i must confess short-term ones - as my naughty boy laziness has led me to revert to an embarrassingly unacceptable efforts at tidying and cleaning).

Other "Internet School" activity, imposed as punishment for a "self-confessed, hypothetical offence", a task that was dull, and completely pointless – except for enabling the realisation that:

"...if i had committed that offence then i wouldn’t like to be made to do that punishment – so i wouldn’t commit that offence again"

So i guess that worked, really. But i would struggle with a submissive regime imposing such mindless, unproductive, time-consuming tasks as a baseline for "this is how you demonstrate your true submission to me", or as a means of regular correction, rather than as a rarely applied alternative to "short – sharp –shock" physical correction for a misdemeanour.

Possibly the most important outcome of the "Internet School" playtime concerned my introduction to the effects of chastity. i am very interested in exploring this further, but must rather weakly admit "not today though – maybe a bit later".

Background to the interest is that my urges do not seem to be diminishing with age, and i have fascination with the general, and specific stage states of mind i experience under chastity as it continues for a few weeks. Under remote instruction (that would have been relatively easy to cheat on if i needed to), i wore a chastity device overnight (with an inconveniently located, but accessible, key), and exercised self-control during the day (not too difficult, night-time’s the worst – and constrained by ideas such as how disastrous it would be for me if, for example, i was overheard tossing myself off in the toilets at my workplace). The continuous knowledge from shortly after chastity commencement that "i am frustrated, and can do nothing about it", the realisation that i have lost control of my primary source of pleasure, and am dependent on another for release, the early waking every morning with pain, desire and anguish that i cannot alleviate this, the anguish, frustrated to tears that "i have a need that can’t be satisfied", then the acceptance that "this is how it is now – keep busy doing other things to take your mind off it – and above all, do everything the Lady in control requires – and more". Conclusion of this activity is interesting experience of after a month, being woken by the (then familiar) pain of my penis "trying to escape, but with nowhere to go to" , but having an involuntary emission without stimulation – not that i’d like to claim "no need to bother with milking sessions" if i do undertake this under Your control in future.

Despite my interest in this area, the weak "not today..." comment above results from my problem wearing a device that is secure, but does not cause some physical damage after a couple of days, unusual "bulge visibility", hygiene (particularly due to being uncircumcised) and need for non-metallic / scanner proof device. i am reluctant to express concern at "need to be seated to relieve myself" as it should be an honour to emulate the technique employed by the Superior Sex.

My last comment on this playtime at Internet School, may help scope my strength – or lack of it – when subjected to pain. All my childhood experiences with physical punishment left me thinking "that hurt, glad it wasn’t more / longer / harder / with me wearing less protection etc. i guess this was intentional – like most boys of my era, i believe getting a couple of cane strokes over a trousered bottom every now and then was sufficient deterrent to do anything – or at least be caught doing anything – that would warrant the (possibly folklore rumours) of six or more strokes with trousers around ankles – and that with no awareness then that canes come in a variety of potential severity.

i aspire to be a more satisfactory recipient of Your dominance, (and to better fulfil my submissive nature) by developing into a more committed role where You no longer allow me to take "timeouts", and the "there there – all done – not a bad boy any longer" turns into "stop that noise – back to your seat and get on with your work – and if I were you, I’d think twice before daring to do that again – because that’s exactly what you’ll get – TWICE what you’ve just been treated to".

What may i do for You?
As recipient of any submissive age play scenarios outlined above, i would expect to give material reward and perform services for You such as domestic housework, personal cleaning of shoes, underwear, oral attention to Your person as allowed and commanded, and to be used as Your toilet if required.

Please contact me if You have interest in some of these activities, indicating any of Your further requirements and "not allowed" areas where my thinking is offensive to You.

Yours Respectfully
guywilliam