Oh dear!

Now i have a message from someone who says Master is quite wrong when He suggests that slaves shouldn't have opinions! When Master read this He just laughed and told me to look up the word 'opinionated', which i did. He then told me to put the definition up here in my journal as an explanation to avoid anyone else misunderstanding what He says. i thought i would get a spanking but that hasn't happened yet!

Opinionated: obstinate or conceited in regard to one's opinions; conceitedly dogmatic.

Please, nobody write to me and tell me that's what Dom's are! Although i have met one or two like that. Not Master, of course. Oh dear!

my first month and what a month its been!

Lots of searching out information on the internet and reading. So much to take in and try to make sense of, for Master demands that i apply myself to what He directs me to study. Every day He asks me questions to see what i have learned, and most of the time He is pleased with my progress.

There have been practical exercises as well, for i need to find my levels and know my limits. Master says my levels are 'medium to high'  although there are some implements and practices that i have discovered are not for me. Master tells me that as a sub i will need to be able to communicate these things to a Master. In fact He has told me that i would be better suited for a Dom than a Master, because a Master would probably find me too opinionated!

My only regret is that i am not able to spend more time by Master's side. my day job keeps me away from where i want to be. But that is how it has to be for now.

Roll on the long weekend!

Master has just read my first journal entry and told me to change it. it was wrong of me to write in the slave speak style i that i used because it gives the impression that i am a slave or even a kajira when i am only a submissive. i am very sorry (and sore!) and have re-written it below:

Almost a week now. A week of discovery. Master has given me fascinating research tasks related to BDSM and D/s. Some are historical like the Old Leather Guard, the rest are terms and practises, including Gorean style customs. Practical studies have been basic obedience training, so that i will be well trained and knowledgeable as i continues along my journey of exploration.

Master wishes me to thank all the kind people who have messaged to wish me well. He is pleased that everyone has shown such understanding and respect for my position. He actually said he was surprised, as evidently that is not always the case on here!

Although BDSM is not a new concept for me, this is my first real-time experience, and it is as intense and pleasurable a i had hoped it would be.

i am permitted to say that the picture is not of me as that is not allowed. It is from a painting by one of my favourite artists and Master says that the model could well be my sister, except that it was painted a long time ago! He would not allow a real picture for discretionary reasons and because He said it would cause a stampede. i believe he exaggerates but feel flattered and humble that He ahould say such kind words.

After a period under consideration i am now proud to be wearing Master's training collar. my dearest wish is to become worthy enough to be fully collared.