I am both saddened and joyous. I will be introducing Dani to Master this evening and a wonderful man, from Rhode Island, sounds pretty good, to me! What this proves is to never give up, ignore the skeptics and keep looking..........

If you are an inquisitive woman, nervously poking around your mind and your sexuality, you really should read this!

I am a submissive woman, writing this out of a sense of deep gratitude and duty - NOT out of any sense of obligation. I've gotten so very much out of this lifestyle and I feel as if I must give back whatever I can. You’ll probably be suspicious, but no subterfuge is involved.

These words are intended for a very special woman! These words will strike a chord with that woman and

she will feel as if I am writing only for her eyes.

For more than three years I have been mentored about my submissive nature by the most wonderful man!

A 52 year old Master who was also a gentleman and a really nice guy. I live in Virginia but gladly traveled to New England to learn from this Man!

I know that I am not an unusual woman and I was not in an unusual situation. My life seemed to lack something!

There was a void deep within me. It was partially filled by being a good Mother and I tried, very hard, to be a

good wife and I was faithful, though he was not. But, I often felt only half alive. It always Seemed there was

“something” just outside of my grasp. I knew it was there, even if I could not accurately describe it. Talk about

being frustrated!

When I was free, I explored. Partying and taking lovers did nothing to ease my frustration. Then, a girlfriend

casually made a suggestion and I began a search for something new that might fulfill me.

I found Master J! The nicest thing about him was that he wanted to know me. He wanted to know about my

past and about my life. He wasn’t crude or vulgar. He didn't need to be! I never doubted, for a moment, that he was the Master! We both knew there was a sexual tension beneath everything but he never acknowledged it and was always a gentleman. He was smart, witty, sarcastic, self-deprecating without seeming weak. He shared his life with me. He told me that I could not think of him as a Mentor, a Master or anything else until I knew him as a person. When he told me I was desirable, he was talking as much about my personality and my smile as much as he was talking about my body. There were many times when I found myself telling him something that, before then, I had not even known about myself. One of the most wonderful things about my time with Master J has been that I never once feared him, though I sometimes feared I would not do my best.

Master J and I do not have the perfect relationship that we all desire! No matter how deep my feelings might

be for him, I do not love him. And, his fondness for me also lacks that needed dimension. We have talked this through a number of times. We've experimented with extended times together - vanilla and otherwise - and we are both convinced that the love is just not there. At least not the type of love that we both deserve and want for each other.

In the last year I have been searching for my One. I’ve yet to find him. I don’t think my standards are too high! But Master J has shown me that a Master must have traits of character and integrity. He must be patient. He can be mysterious, but his life can not be a mystery. For example: I’ve always been able to reach Master J by phone. I can call him at home or on his cell phone. I can send him mail at his home or his place of work. I never felt he was hiding parts of his life from me.

Master J will continue to teach me until my search ends.

Master J has been helping me to find my One! I’ve not made it easy, I guess, because I do not want to serve a married Master and I do not want to begin in a household with a number of

slaves. Not because I’m selfish but because I want to have enough attention to quickly learn about my Master. Then, I would welcome sister slaves. I look forward to it!

I realized, just a few days ago, that I should be doing what I could to help Master J find his one! He has only just begun His own search because of some very good reasons, like his

children and his job. And, I realized that I might be able to make things smoother for a woman, like myself. If there had been somebody to do this, for me, years ago, it would have all

been so much easier for me! But, I do feel grateful for having found Master J and for being brought to where I am, in my life. And, I believe that I should show my gratitude by giving my help to another seeker.

I want to answer all of your questions. You know, the ones that

you would NEVER ask Master J, but you might be able to ask me, because I might be just like you! I want to tell you the good things to look for and the things to watch out for, and to avoid.

Even if Master J is not the ONE for you, I think I can help! I want to help. I really, really do! So, let me help!

I had to struggle with a lot of inner conflicts before taking my first

steps! It was very, very tough on me! After all, I was still, to the world, a Mother and a very vanilla woman. Even if my children had grown and were independent, I had to deal with my own image of myself. It was hard to get to the point where I could stop thinking of myself in terms of how other people might look at me. I had

friends, I went to church, I was active in my community. It was a matter of starting to accept myself so that I could understand that other people accepted me because of the woman I let them know.

And, maybe I can help you to realize it’s alright to compartmentalize

your life! Nothing wrong with keeping things separate until you can put it all together, for yourself. Until you know how deeply you need to submit, you can keep your submissive explorations outside of your life, off to the side, so to speak. You might even find that all you need is an

occasional diversion, to lower your stress level and degree of frustration. I bet that approach could save a lot of vanilla relationships and marriages! You just need to know that you have to always be TRUTHFUL.

And, I want to make it crystal clear that Master J could be perfect for you, that he can be a wonderful Teacher, even if you are not looking for your ONE. He can prepare you, as he has done with me! But, please be honest about that and remember that I am trying to find the ONE for Master J.

I keep imagining how skeptical people are going to be! That’s only because they can not possibly imagine how grateful I am to this man. I sometimes think he saved my sanity! And, before

you even ask me, I willingly reveal to the entire world that I hope I can continue to learn from Master J, even if you end up being his ONE. We can help one another to learn and to be the

best we can be. You for Master J, and me in preparation of finally finding my ideal ONE.

Melissa