2/2/2014

I am an owned sub with another Dom.  I am extremely happy and I feel like a whole person.  He loves me, cares for me, nurtures me and teaches me.

I have learned a tremendous amount having met several people in the lifestyle through La Fortresse (in NC) - I would recommend the site to anyone who is truly serious in learning more about their journey into kink and wanting to find like minded friends.

One of the first things I learned was to heed any red flags I got from messages here on CM or in meeting potential Doms.  Another lesson I learned was on safety, keeping my self safe in a world of fakers and wanna bes.  I am looking forward to learning more about negotiation, like negotiated a scene before doing ANY playing.  Just because I am a sub does NOT mean anything a Dom decides goes.

Be careful out there fellow subs.

Thank you Master for your patience last night. I would love to give more details but other people read this.  I am just grateful.

Still not a good idea to ask Master if he is serious.

It is about as dumb as suggesting he suck my nipple more than bite it.

Missing you Master.  Hope to see you this week.

11/4/2013

 Tonight Master tells me I am only to speak when asked a question and I am to answer the question with appropriate respect.  That sounds easy until I need to ask a question or clarify something he says.  I just go ahead and ask it respectfully while handing him the paddle so that after he answers he can whack my bare ass for speaking out of turn.  I know the cost of speaking out of turn.

10/10/2013

Definitely not a good idea to comment, "You are so mean" while cuffed to a table and your Dom has a flogger in his hand.  Of course it did not really matter tonight as I was wearing the gag.  I am sure all he heard was "ooo ishh  o eeen."

He takes good care of me and wants to see me do well.

After a particularly painful whipping the night before, it is not a good idea to slap your ass to check your back jeans' pockets for your car keys.  No, instead it is a sweet reminder to ease carefully onto your car seat or any other seat you wish to occupy for the next day or two.

8/22/2013

More things I have learned:

1)  If I am told to do something immediately I best do it immediately, like fix the typo on my last journal entry.

2)  I have a hard enough ass to break a thick wooden paddle!

I am learning a lot of new things, thought I would pass them along..

1) for those still looking - don't give up but hold out for what you are looking for.  Don't give in, keep to your standards and make sure you follow all safety guidelines.  Be completely sure you trust who you play with.

2)  It is not a good idea to go shopping after anal sex unless you are wearing a diaper!

3)  Looking at your Dom and saying, "you are kidding me, right?"  is definitely not a good idea.  He is not kidding and now you get to pay for your comment.

4) When you bring him a new whip don't whine that it hurts.  Of course it hurts (jeeze that was dumb on my part).

5)  all the videos of subs being whipped or caned do NOT prepare you for how much it actually hurts (that's why it is important to trust your partner)

6) Be open to new ideas/training.  I love sitting naked at his feet looking up at him, I love pleasing him - that's more important than pleasing myself.  The idea of bondage scared me but now I love that too!  Although I still tend to squirm an awful lot.  It has helped to find a very patient man.

7) Not only should Dom be spelled correctly but it must be capitalized too. (ooops)