I'm so bored... Anyone who wants to chat with me may do so through Yahoo. Same name as here. I will not accept any invites without chatting first. Spammers and Scammers send invites first.

My birthday is coming up again - at the end of this month. If anyone should so desire to buy me a birthday gift here is the link to my Amazon wishlist.

http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/13G61L3JFAEWS/ref=cm_wl_rlist_go_o_T1-6

I hope I'll be having a good birthday this year.

I'm getting really fucking sick and tired of this crap. Because I'm a Domme I can have no other feelings? I'm not also a woman, a dog owner, a daughter, a sister, a friend?

You subs are truly beyond ridiculous from this site. I state clearly on my profile and journal that I don't do cam subs - that I'm not even remotely interested - that I prefer.....no NEED to be hands on with my subs and our play, but you don't listen and still IM me hoping that you or I will go on cam because you're just special enough in the 30 seconds worth of typing to prove to be different enough that I'll take special interest and suddenly start doing things I've already indicated I wouldn't do.

What I think pisses me off the most though is that you all write me - begging for a loving Domme, a woman who won't do things to you and your body without permission without discussion and to simply be cruel without provocation. And when I give it to you - because that is what and who I am - you're all so disappointed. Do me a favor - stop being a man and start being a sub - lose the balls and accept that you have almost no control anyways - and that if you're not willing to open your mouth and talk to me and discuss how you're feeling and whether or not you're enjoying something then don't you dare get pissy with me later because it wasn't what you wanted. Communication is a two way street - and if you're not willing to be on the drive then get the fuck off the road.

I'm really bored for some reason, so for a chance at a dumb idea I'm gonna post my Yahoo name and invite ya'll to just write me at random. Quirky note, my Yahoo name is the same as here. Fireyhaze

I'm leaving my Halloween fate in your hands. I've created a new Amazon wishlist entitled Costumes - the costume that gets the most votes is the one I'll buy and wear this Halloween.

Feel free (it's highly encouraged but not required for your vote to count) to go ahead and gift me the costume so I can model them for you guys and you can see what the costumes will look like before the final.

Cast a vote by sending me an email with the name of the Costume you like - I won't be responding to those emails, but will be keeping a tally. 

EDIT:: it occurs to me that the easiest way for you guys to see the wishlist is if I repost the link: http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/1P4NBFD3R9RE8/ref=cm_wl_act_vv?_encoding=UTF8&visitor-view=1&reveal

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Current Tally:

Sally Nightmare Before Christmas Gothic - 2

Torrid Gypsy Costume - 0

California Costumes Women's Hocus Pocus Costume - 0

Dark Alice Costume - 0

Miss Naughty Principal - 1

Women's Secret Wishes Sequin Dorothy Costume - 1

Jailbird Costume - 1

Women's Pirate Costume - 2

Dreamgirl Women's Wizard Costume - 1 

3Pc. Alluring Alice Costume - 1

I've been rather quiet as of late because I've become so heavily disheartened by the BDSM community as of late.

Are all the people on this site fake? I've met perhaps 3 that I've ben able to email continuously that seem to be exactly who they say they are. The rest either stop emailing the second I make it clear that I'm not here to just get laid, won't do cam only subs sessions, and have actual standards. I'm looking for something real - I want a relationship - a true relationship with a partner whose just as interested in playing with me as they are in dining with me and experiencing life with me.

I don't understand what happened to this community in general. Why is everyone so sensitive, I understand that it's a million times easier for Domme's to own up to who they truly are and feel less shame and embarassment about loving the things that they love, but at the end of the day - what the hell is going on in the world that the subs on this site are either not really subs, have no idea how to show respect, or even worse think they honestly know better than me - with my 10 years of experience and their knowledge from books and fantasies and emails only. That's the most aggravating one.

Show me that you have even a single clue that you're interested in more than sex, more than just play time, and even more than my simply being a Domme.

My birthday came and went - as uneventful as any other day of the year. But at least some subs did buy me some very generous and wonderful gifts - and for that I thank you. You know who you are and you've already received pics of me wearing/using the items. I keep my promises.

My birthday is now less than a week away - I'm excited - but a little sad that almost no one has wanted to celebrate my birthday with me.

My birthday is in 3 weeks. I would like to celebrate with new toys and clothes, would anyone care to help me acheive this delightful dream of mine?

Okay, as I stated in my previous entry I'm not interested in a financial sub. But - any and all gifts you choose to purchase for me I will accept. In that train of thought:

http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/1P4NBFD3R9RE8/ref=cm_wl_act_vv?_encoding=UTF8&visitor-view=1&reveal

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That is the link to my amazon wishlist. There are some toys - and some clothes - and some shoes. All I'm happy to photograph myself wearing/using for you. I'd go on cam for you - but I don't currently have a working web cam. Nothing will ever be required, but I would be lying if I didn't point out that generous men will get far more attention from me.

MONEY SUBS/DOMMES!!! 

I want to attack you on the basis of this lifestyle being something that both parties should be enjoying and participating in not for a monetary value, but I have seen the other side of the coin and so I do respect the choice you make in this matter. 

But for the record - I am not now, nor have I ever been a Financial Domme. I will not pay you or ever have a "kept" boy, nor will you be required to pay me for my time and tutelage. With that being said, a few of you have asked recently or made financial offers to me, so I will say this: 

What you choose to do with your money is your choice, I will never require that you purchase anything for me, nor shall I ever demand or request gifts. But should you choose to spend your money on something FOR me I will accept it. I like getting gifts, they make me happy and brighten up my day. But again - they'll never NEVER be a requirement of our time spent together. But I would never turn down a gift - especially one that has anything to do with this lifestyle - as in toys! Should you buy me toys or take me shopping for toys I will accept any and all gifts, but again, would not now or in the future force you to spend your hard earned money on me. 

I feel it necessary to point this out because I've noticed that MANY MANY MANY female Domme's on this site are only out to get your money, AND that many subs feel so inadequate as a sub or a man that they feel it necessary to offer up money in exchange for time with a Domme. If you offer - I'll consider it and possibly accept, but I would like to make it painfully clear by repeating myself as many times as I already have in this post - that it will never be forced/required/demanded of you to do so.

And again it happened.

What is it with you subs!? Why are ALL of you too damn scared to even show up or much less walk through the door.

I'm done with newbies! If you have no experience, or cannot accept the terms that I set forth before you even get an address to go to - then don't bother showing up. I don't need the headache, and I don't need the time waster.

You're all so sure that you're ready to be subs, and that you want this, but push comes to shove and not one of you shows the fuck up! You're all just scared little men with tiny dicks who need to be put into their place and the hardest part will be showing up cause once you do you're no longer in control. And that's it, just show up. I'm the single woman living in an apartment in the city with terrible neighbors and no friends for miles. If anyone should be scared about a meet and greet with a complete stranger they met online, then it's met. Stop being pussies and remember that while they may be small you still have a pair, so use them and show the fuck up.

People get only two chances with me, do you really want to waste one of them on a promise you know you can't keep?

Dear Subs who are in continuing conversations with me, 

You are not alone. I'm speaking with more than you. I'm in the Vanilla world dating normal men, and I'm Domming other subs. 

Yes it is true that I'm looking for an actual commitment, but until such day comes I will continue to date and Domme whomever I so choose. And you have absolutely no say in the matter. 

If you and I do enter a commitment then I will be happy to end all communication with my other subs and Vanilla men, but until that day - get over yourself. Sweet nothings typed at me in an IM will not make me suddenly become a new person and end all other relationships on the HOPE that you and I can work out. I'm not a silly school girl, nor am I new to the ways of the internet world. You telling me that you cannot stop thinking about me, and want to be with me does not mean you and I are in a committed relationship. That does not happen until we have actually met and established that there is a chemistry and that we are a good match.

A few subs recently were convinced that simply because they'd told me they wanted me that I was suddenly single and alone and had nothing else in my life. Grow up.

Lots of emails lately - I just wanna make something clear....I will respond to each and every single email sent to me, even if it's only going to be a two word response of "Not interested". Rest assured, that I shall always make it clear if I'm interested in continuing a conversation or not. So if you write me, and hear nothing right away - it's because I simply haven't had time to respond, NOT because I'm going to ignore the message.

There are only two instances a response is never written

1 - you wrote me two emails and I responded to one of them already

2 - I didn't get a chance to respond before your email was pushed onto the next page of emails and so I don't realize that I haven't responded.

If the second is the case then it means an entire week has gone by since you wrote and still have heard nothing, so I encourage you to write a second time. But not mere hours after writing the first.

For the record, if you're really a sub, then you understand that the liklihood you're going to act actual penile to vaginal sex is almost non-existent. To assume that you're worthy at all of such an act raises you far above the level of submissive than you rightly deserve.

For all those "subs" out there who are simply Vanilla guys with a desire to be told what to do in bed, but still get to have sex, admit to yourself now that you're not in fact a slave or a sub or anything else along those lines and accept that you're just a regular guy whose a bit kinky. There's absolutely nothing wrong with being a regular guy whose a bit kinky, but there is in my opinion something wrong with being a "sub" who doesn't do as he's told despite having accepted the lines before any play began.

I bought new toys tonight, and sadly will have to return to the store because I bought a pair of cuffs only too late did I realize that they were rubber not leather (in my excitement of seeing a pair of black locking cuffs I didn't pay attention to any other details than those) and that they weren't wrist cuffs, but general cuffs that are likely too big for the wrist and yet too small for the ankle (and I already own a GREAT pair of ankle cuffs so these are totally not worth it).

But the tickler, spread bar, and riding crop I purchased will make fantastic additions to my collection.