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6-21-17
My journey continues...... |
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06-09-17
I sold my 6 inch heels today, i do hope they bring you sheer enjoyment, thank you |
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1-11-17
Wednesday
I know im starting to feel better, my leg cramps are in full swing,sleeping with my heels on is a must now.
Oh how i miss the flogger touching my body |
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12-27-16
Tuesday
Dear diary,
I've had a very interesting month, surgery..which went very well now its time to heal and mend. No heels no collar no corset no playing just me time. Its been nice. I had a beautiful Christmas...*)
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11-10-16
Thursday
Why is there always silence, I do not understand, please explain this to me.... |
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11-5-16
Saturday
Everytime we are together your showing me that i like when you push me to endure more from my your hands.....amazing simply amazing  |
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11-4-16
Friday
We had the most amazing conversation last night. It just gives me the feelings of closeness, like your arms have been wrapped around me all day, I can even feel your warmth. I love that feeling.
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10-26-16
Wednesday
I am having thoughts of gratitude today thinking about my life where is was two years ago and where I am today.
With your guidance,patience,understanding of me,and knowing how you want to help me blossom into the woman I long to be.
Your kindness, love, showed me you care which in time turned to trust.
Thank you for taking the time to be my mentor, teacher, friend, master.
Thank you
Thank you
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Sunday
10-23-16
I was driving down the freeway and i look over at the pick up and in its bed it has a metal looking thing that looks like a large cross, i immediately started imagining me tied to it being flogged.
Oh my,oh my,oh my.....*) |
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10-22-16
Saturday
My new heels came in the mail this week, its going to be a new adventure for me. 6.75 inches of black patent leather with ankle cuffs with locks.
So far i have laid around admiring them on my feet, i have even crawl around in them, i even tried to stand in them but with no luck.
I have been sleeping with them on and i like sleeping in my heels. |
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Monday
10-19-16
Happy Monday everyone. I had the most amazing play session today.
Wow!!,wow!!,wow!!wow!! |
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Sunday
10-8-16
Attended a wedding last night,had a wonderful time. They had a live big band sound for entertainment, the only thing that was missing from this fabulous night was you.... |
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8-24-16
Wednesday
Sorry i haven't updated my journal just havent had much to say...my summer has been so hectic its hard to concentrate...just crazy busy....
Today im at work with a 8 inch soft dildo up inside me...and no one knows...it definitely makes the work hours go by fast...
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Sunday
7-31-16
Did you ever think that you would meet someone that as you got to know each other and by doing that you learned he knows you better then you know yourself.
Or he knows every facial expression and what the mean. This is just awesome.
Thank you for wanting to know me.
Baby Girl xoxo |
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Tuesday
7-12-16
I messed up yesterday....im disappointed in myself and I know Master is too. .
I didnt share my thoughts and feelings about an issue that happened a week ago...
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Happy 4th of July!!!
And Happy Birthday to Me!!
Im so excited of what this new year brings!! |
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6-22-16
Wednesday
A remark was made to me at work that all i do is prance around the office in my high heels...really...
The next day i dressed down and i mean really dressed down.
I wore tennis shoes... worn yoga pants..a wrinkled top it killed me to do this but i just wanted to see if any one noticed..
Most of everyone that saw me wanted to know what was wrong and where are your heels *)
The person who made the remark...not a word..interesting dont you think.. |
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Sunday
Happy Father's Day to all the Dads out there...I hope your day was filled with good food..great conversation..and loving hugs and kisses from your children and grandchildren  |
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6-16-16
Thursday
Thank you for the many responses to my last journal entry. Just so you know my batteries didn't die in my vibrator...my health is fine...and their are no relationship break ups.
Its just that life can be overwhelming at times. |
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6-11-16
Saturday
Why is it that things in your life can be amazing..and you feel on top of the world....then the next moment it can come to a crashing halt...
Can anyone explain this!!!! |
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5-30-16
Monday
Hope everyone had a safe enjoyable holiday weekend.
I want to thank all the men and women in military for their service to our country and our freedom *)
To that one person i call Master thank you for coming over it meant the world to me
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5-21-16
Saturday
I spent the morning with Master. It was an amazing time |
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5-20-16
Friday
Master and I are working on a wall that has been up for most of my life. I cant express how this wall is starting to crumble and i can actually breath fresh air. That i can feel a rebirth of myself its so awesome!! i cant stop smiling. I dont have to be ashamed anymore.!! Thank you |
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5-7-16
Saturday
Today i am attending a baby shower with my Mom and sisters it should be interesting. I am going to wear my new leather corset my leather collar and heels. I will update later on how it went |
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5-1-16
Sunday
Why is it that friends and family dont understand why i wear high heels everywhere or that (choker) collar. I dont ask you why you wear tennis shoes 24/7..why you wear no makeup ... |
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Wednesday
4-27-16
Today has been such a beautiful day . A perfect spring day..
My work day was pleasant and i must say i was dressed to a T. On a number from 1-10 today i am a 10.. |
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4-23-16
Saturday
I was in a spring fashion show today...i modeled a dressy office look and a casual chic look..i proudly wore my collar and heels.
Having fun bringing the lifestyle to vanilla.
You see i find it accepted and since this is my 4th fashion show when i go for my fittings im expected to wear my collar and heels. Smiles...
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4-20-16
Wednesday
Happy 420 everyone!!!. Sorry i havent written in my journal. I have actually thought about closing my profile down.
Master and I discussed it and i have decided to stay.
It's such a wonderful feeling to be able to discuss anything with you and know I wont be made fun of or belittled.
Thank you |
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3-7-16
Thursday
Today is a new day..the slave i started to train turned out to be a fake. So glad to find out as quickly as i did.. |
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4-2-16
Saturday
Things didn't work out with slave..gut feeling, red flags,or maybe I'm not ready to go through this door to experience. ..hmmmm |
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3-30-16
Wednesday
Happy Hump Day *)
There are days that some of the tasks i am given are awesome. Today is one of them...kisses.. |
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3-28-16
Monday
Woke up to a flooded basement today. Not a happy camper ..*( |
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Sunday
3-27-16
Happy Easter i am going to the gym this morning since this afternoon is a family get together and a gigantic meal. I have to keep the body in fat burning mode. Excited to be spending more time with Master |
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3-26-16
Saturday
Ive got myself a slave to Domme. ..any advice is appreciated. |
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Wednesday
Happy Hump Day!
Easter is here... it's spring ...a tine of new beginnings. I just love its staying lighter later...master planning my Birthday weekend so exciting. .*) |
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3-18-16
Friday
Well i dont know about you...but for me its been a long week..
I plan on enjoying the weekend. .*) |
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3-15-16
Tuesday
I'm wearing my new heels today..i am very happy with them and i think 4 inch heels is perfect for the office.. feeling awesome today..:) |
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3-13-16
Sunday
Why is it when your feeling fantastic. .top of your game. .smiling and owning it...something ...someone. ..always wants to bring you down..
Why? |
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3-10-16
I feel like the weather today rainy. .feel like i should of stayed home. |
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3-7-16
Worked out hard today. .and my body feels like its been stampede by elephants. .oh well no pain no gain... |
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3-6-16
I dont understand why I'm given some of the tasks i am given. |
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3-2-16
I would like to thank 1 man who has never left me alone hes been there every step of the way one barrier at a time.
Teaching me... listening to me...steering me in the direction he wants me to go....what i can say is Wow!!!!
Thank you for your time your patience for being stern with me when i needed it..for mentoring me...for saying Hello...and we haven't stopped talking. .you always know how much and exactly what I need...
This man i call Master...
Thank you
Your Baby Girl..xoxo |
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3-2-2016
Today is my 1 year anniversary of coming to the lifestyle. I must say it has been year of many memories.
I had many conversations with interesting Doms. With each teaching me more about myself..
I would like to say Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being part of my journey
Anamaze *) |
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2/26/16
It amazes me..how far i have grown this past year..more confidence in my self..when i walk into a room i dont look for the nearest corner any more. I walk in and my head is held high..*) |
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January 23rd 2015
I spent time with Master today. I still get butterflies like it's the first time we got together. He's amazing and I wear his collar proudly thank you master there's no place I'd rather be but under your love guidance and protection
Your Baby Girl. . |
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Happy New Year...are you enjoying the winter...I can't wait till spring...giggles...I would like some advice. I would like to start going to munches.
Would this be a good way to meet people of the lifestyle?
What about attending bdsm dinners?
Your thoughts are appreciated. .*) |
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December 25th
Merry Christmas to all my Friends...
I wish you a day of peace....love...and fellowship
Enjoy
Anamaze |
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December 23,
Can someone please tell why things have to be so complicated..you find someone in this life style that you throughly trust emjoy..respect..admire...and yes love..then why does it have to be so hard to make time for one another. ..
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12-16-15
I was in the Christmas Parade wearing my collar tonight on the Cardio Drumming Float. It was such a good time..new session starts in January can't wait |
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December 9th
Wearing my 5inch heels in the office today. Why am I so nervous...I am going to get this right and wear them with ease... |
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December 1st
This is such a busy time of year... so many things to do and get done.
My thoughts are on master and spending time with him.. |
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November 28th
I'm told I'm ready for a new level of training. ..what could that be...any suggestions *) |
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November 21st
This past week i have been feeling down, not sure why...maybe its the season,maybe a cold..who knows....it will pass *) |
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November 4th
Breaking in a new corset and new heels life is good *) |
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October 28th
The drum-a-thon was a success we raised $1,500.00
We had a lot if fun *) |
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October 27th
I am so excited to be part of a drum-a-thon tonight @ 6 pm...we are raising money for Lily missions come out and join us. It's for such a great cause *) |
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October 23rd
I love wearing my corset....it gives me the feeling of being hugged all day long...such a nice feeling *) |
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October 22nd
All I can say is the Dental gag and drooling definitely go hand in hand...*) |
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October 20th
I do not like alligator clips...Ouch!! |
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October 16th 2015
Spending the day with my Mom for her birthday...such a beautiful day |
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October 16th 2015
Spending the day with my Mom for her birthday...such a beautiful day |
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October 9th
I brought my 5 inch heels to work today..I have been wearing them on and off today...I just don't feel confident enough yet. Master says stand tall.. be proud of the woman you are..*) |
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October 5th
An interesting combination the dental gag and honey.
I was drooling everywhere.
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October 3 2015
It a raining chilly day, perfect for cuddling with Master *) |
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September 30 2015
Today was to be my debut in public wearing my 5 inch heels. I spoke with master about the fears I am having. We decided more practice is needed. A party is coming up on the 10th..When we attend the party I will be debuting in my 5 inch heels... *) |
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September 22, 2015
I have been practicing walking in my 5 inch heels. .everyday I'm walking I feel I'm getting better. .I'm excited.  |
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Saturday September 19th
The fashion show was a success. .I looked stunning in the two outfits I modeled..
And yes I was in collar this time I had a gold chain attached to the ring on my collar and it was attached to my wrist. Many comments were made about it. Comments like...where can I buy something like that...I said this isn't something you buy....it it a gift from someone very special to me....it they only knew.. 
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9-18-15
I wore my corset to work today. ..I love the way I feel in it..
I also had a nice talk with Master this morning. .
I do enjoy spending time with him...
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This Saturday September 19th I'm in a fashion show at 2pm I will be wearing two different looks.
And I will be in collar.
To all my friends that wanted me to let them know ....message me and I will give you the detailed information
See you Saturday
Anamaze |
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September 2015
I've been away for a few days.
I can't wait to get home to Master. ..
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This Saturday September 19th is the fall fashion show @ 2pm
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Monday September 14. 2015
Enjoying wearing my corset...I have been really practicing walking in my 5 inch heels..feeling pretty good about my efforts. .. |
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September 8th 2015
My corset came in the mail today. I'm so excited to start wearing it. |
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August 26th 2015
My mentor has now become my owner and master. I am one happy baby girl. .,the journey continues |
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Friday August 15th
I am enjoying my growth process in the lifestyle. Building trust and experiencing new things..unforgettable. *)
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Very excited to day...I've been asked to start a Cardio Drumming class in the Sterling Hts. Area. Now to find a place to have it..*) |
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Monday August 10th
Today is a new day.....New week... New beginnings....New me...
Enjoy your day. ..*) |
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Saturday August 1st.
Well they say we live and learn...
But does it have to tug at the heart strings....does it? |
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Friday July 31st ...
This Sunday August 2nd I will be in the Monroe County Fair Parade..Monroe Michigan. .The parade starts a 1 pm.
I will be performing Cardio Drumming on the float..so look for me... |
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Monday July 27th.....
Many changes going on for me..I sent all mentors toys back to him..I was feeling sad. But this is a new beginning for me too.
My new Dom. Getting used to his ways. I like talking on the phone but for Sir not so much..texting is fine but I like hearing his voice. .I'm not used to the periods of silence. ..but I know that communication is very important like keeping your word. And to let each other know how we're feeling and when we feel it..honesty, respect, kindness, all very important. . The journey begins. . |
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Friday and Saturday 07-18-15
This was my 3rd and 4th date with the most awesome, adorable, handsome, Dom .His  kisses..His caresses, I love the way he holds me in his arms..
We had a beautiful adventure. .I was blindfolded. .gaged. .spanked. .flogged. ..breast bondage..paddled. ..and whipped..
Thank you for topping dates
1 and 2
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Sunday July 12th...I had the most exciting 2nd date with the Dom from entry July 11th. He picked me up at 12:30 for brunch and for a day of adventure. ..I wanted him to try the delicious truffles he bought me the day before. ..
After brunch we went for a Sunday drive...oh how I have missed Sunday drives I forgot how fun it could be. Just talking , kissing, holding hands, oh did I say kissing..mmmmm. and giggles throughout the day. I couldn't think of a better way to spend a perfect Sunday then with him. Thank you for a lovely day .. |
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Saturday July 11th. I have a date with a new Dom. We are going to dinner and a walk by the shoreline. .dinner and conversation was amazing and his kisses throughout our date were absolutely unforgettable. I would say tonight topped all my date nights......*)
P.S. Thank you for the Godiva Truffles.
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Mentor gave me a task to walk on the treadmill for 1 hour or 1 mile which ever comes first in my 5 inch heels ...it wasn't easy I took breaks but I completed my task.... |
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I had a wonderful Mother's Day weekend. .
On Saturday I went out for dinner and conversation..I tried Thai food for the very first time. It was delicious. .it was an evening to remember. *)
On Sunday my children grilled me an amazing lunch. Steaks, potato, corn followed by desert.
I went and spent the rest of the afternoon with my Mother.
It was a weekend of firsts and wonderful memories. ..xoxoxoxo |
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The fashion show was a success. When I got there I went to the manager to pick up my outfits that I was wearing and she said. I'm so excited you are wearing your collar. The other associates said let me see I've never seen one..they all liked it and even said I want one.. I walked down the down the runway wearing it proudly. . |
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I was asked to be in a fashion show on Saturday. . So last night I went to the clothing store to try on what I would be modeling..I wear my mentors collar when I'm in the car driving and I sleep in it at night..well to my surprise I walked into the store to meet with the manager of the show. We picked my outfit. We were picking out the jewelry to go with the outfits. When the sales woman asks are you going to be wearing that choker. ..I touched my neck realizing that I still had it on..The manager said that's not a choker it's a collar and yes she will be wearing it. .so if you drop by the show. I will be the one wearing his collar.. *) |
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I drove to work with the ball gag on today. .The reaction from the truckers ..well I wish I had a CB..giggles.*) |
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I was at a bodybuilding show yesterday. ..damn all these men in speedo's... |
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Today I drove to work with the ball gag on I think the truckers enjoyed the view.. |
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My teacher put leather cuffs on me today..I wanted my hands behind my back.. my heart racing...I'm excited. Yet I'm at peace on the inside. |
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