Master has allowed this fat piece of flesh to move in with him. I live in his basement, hidden from his wife and children, hidden from the world. I'm always naked and in agony, always aware of the fact that I have no purpose in this world other than to entertain my Master. I never have doubts anymore like I did at first. Master has truly destroyed me and any dignity I ever had, I only exist to be hurt and humiliated now, I know this. Master put the laptop in front of me so I could tell everyone how lucky I am that I finally found someone who knows how to treat a worthless piece of shit like me. As I write this, I'm sitting on a huge buttplug that can't all fit in my ass because it's too big and Master says fat ugly whores like me don't deserve any lube. I'm pushing down on it and it hurts so much, it just won't go any further but I know I have to make it go in, I have to stretch my ass to the point where it's going to be broken forever because that's all I'm good for. Master is filming me and laughing.

I didn't know such cruelty was possible. Thank you Master, thank you so much for showing me my place in the world.

My Master didn't physically hurt me so much today, but instead he concentrated on making me feel like I was nothing which hurt as bad as it did when he kicked me in the stomach. I cried for over an hour after he left. I regret letting him do this to me when he leaves and I'm all alone crying, but then I think about how pathetic and ugly and stupid I am and I realize that he's right, that all I'm good for is letting others use me and hopefully entertain them and if I didn't do that then I would have no reason to live. Today was very bad though, he filmed it all and he said he's going to show it to some people he knows to see if they'd be interested in coming over to gangbang me next week. For now he left me a cup filled with his pee and ordered me to put it in everything, my food, my coffee until we meet again.

I'm sorry I'm receiving a lot of messages and I can't answer them all, but I want to thank everyone who is taking the time to write to me to tell me what a stupid ugly pig I am. I'm no longer looking for someone, I'm happy to continue meeting my new Master as often as possible for now and hopefully it will evolve further and he'll take me in his home. If it doesn't evolve in that way, I may once again try to find a Master here so I'll keep my profile up. In the meantime I still appreciate all your messages insulting me and telling me how I deserve to be treated like cuntmeat and have no rights, one man keeps sending me nasty pictures of the things he would like to do to me and I'm so very grateful, thank you so much it makes me feel so humilated to know men are looking at my picture and imagining doing these things to me. Some of you have been listing things you think my new Master should do to me, I'll give him my password so he can look at my messages and get new ideas on how to hurt and degrade me thank you all so much for helping destroy this worthless piece of shit whore.

I finally met someone who understands how a stupid pig like me deserves to be treated. Unfortunately he is married, and not interested in taking me in full time but our short time together is better than nothing. We meet in a motel room, and I have to arrive before he does, and we can never be seen in public together at first I thought he was afraid his wife might find out but the other day he explained to me that it's just because he doesn't want to be seen with such an ugly fat whore. He spat in my face after he said it. I wish I could go and live with him, he would treat me like such a worthless piece of shit every minute of every day. I thought he was hiding me from his wife, but she knows and understands his need for me. She is his slave too, but she's not willing to let him do such extreme things to her. She's good for cleaning and taking care of his kids though, and she's thin and beautiful so he can take her to meet his friends and his co-workers. I was hoping he would leave her at first before I understood their relationship, now I understand he's never going to leave her. I just hope he decides to let me move in with them at some point after their kids have gone.

Every time we meet, he gets more and more sadistic with me. At first I think he wanted to be sure I wouldn't go to the police. Now that he knows I understand my place in this world and I want nothing more than to be hurt and degraded he has no pity for me. Every time he leaves the motel room I'm left crying on the floor in agony, I never knew I could feel so embarassed and so low. I wonder why I do it in those moments, I regret it and I want to die when I think about the things I let him do to me. But after a few hours I get up, I get dressed and I go back home. By the time I get home, I wish he hadn't left me in the motel room, I wish he had taken me home with him to do even worse things to me in the privacy of his home. I want so badly to be taken there one day. I think he still goes a bit easy on me, because a motel room isn't that private and he worries someone will hear my screams. I want him to not have to worry about that, I want him to do his worst. My cunt is wet at the thought of him abusing me where no one could help me no matter how loud I screamed.

My time with him in the motel room will do for now though. I'm so happy to have him in my life, I'm so happy I finally know what it's like to be humiliated to the point of wanting to die of shame, and hurting so bad you genuinely think you're going to die. I'm so happy to have felt his boots kick me in the stomach and crush my tits. I was sick and puked all over myself when he made me rub my face in his feces but I'm so grateful to him for showing me what it's like to finally know how it feels, instead of just dreaming about it.

I'm still looking for someone who will show me no mercy :(

I'm craving pain so bad tonight I tied my big saggy tits really tight with some rope until they started turning a light purple color. I started hitting them with a wooden spoon, they started to bruise a bit but I couldn't keep going. As far as pain goes this is so tame compared to what I want to experience but I had to stop. I also tried to push a big cucumber in my ass and I used a lot of lube but even then it hurt too much, it just wouldn't go in and I didn't have the will to force it. It's so hard to inflict pain on yourself.