falconne

Married my Love yesterday. Honeymoon bliss....

Hint: if the profile claims to be native american, ask what tribe. it can be really funny.

Love leather, love fur. Hate fakes who say they are from here, when so clear from reading the crap they post they are from some overseas backwater dirt floor slum.

I visited Tandy Leather today, just to smell all the lovely leather, and to caress the supple furs. Someone buy me a rabbit pelt, black please.

Romantic alert....I simply adore my Beloved. If I could make him understand the heights to which he lifts me, well, I just wish I could. My aggravation and impatience with the unavoidable delays we have been having in our pursuit of a new lair are BECAUSE I love him so, and want to be getting settled in with him forever.

 The possibilities for multi room kink sound pretty good, when we get there.....Space to roam in, how lovely that will be.

And no, I am not looking for sex,lol. My friends are here and I like the pictures,being a bitch and saying things about stuff I read without naming anyone. Let's me let off steam.

Just a head's up...if you are female and looking for a female but you have a male sex partner...you are NOT lesbian,chicky. YOU are just bi and trying to get a piece for the ol man,lol. Let me know how that works out for you, when he leaves with some little bit o tail. Just sayin. This is not a dating site,it is a social site for people into BDSM. Swapping and swinging is so vanilla you shouldn't be allowed to try it here. But you can.

 Since the site is free, what do I expect ? About what has happened, pretty much.

Felt a twinge, something today. Something is up in my family, but what? And you may laugh, but I wonder if it's the living or the dead side.....dreams will tell.

Really ? You are going to look at my profile or not, and you are going to write to me or not. But maybe think a little bit and say something nice and ohhh, I don't know ....pertinent,perhaps ? Cause I sooo am not interested in WHATEVER you like if we never talked, you live in another state and clearly didn't read MY info. yeesh

And, NO I don't wanna see your teeny peenie.

yawwwnnn.....

I find it funny when people claim to be outraged. Over everything. Even if the thing they are 'outraged' about is serious, I lose interest when people say this. Because...it is overused. It is used to get attention. It is used to work themselves up to a fit of righteous indignation so they can say you're either with me or against me.I refuse to be coerced.

 So, be outraged,but you lost my interest when you closed your mind.

If he wants me to never say no, he must not ask what I cannot do. If he wants me to do what I cannot, he must teach me how to do it. If he wants my trust, he must show me he can be trusted to be reliable, even when it is not easy. I am not easy to handle, and I wouldnt expect less from a partner than the best they have. It is what I give. He must, too.

 Of course, we all have times of trouble.Just suck it up and keep on truckin'.

Today is official I hate everything day.

Sometimes it isn't worth the effort to chew through the restraints, she said.

Seriously ? Does anyone take these women seriously? The ones who claim to be dominant, but pose like a slut? Kneeling, tits out, or ass in the air?

  I am so glad to be me, every damn day.

Yaaaawwwnnn.  Who wants to go hiking ?

Spell check....dominant not dominate. I am a dominant person, who will dominate a submissive person.

 The heart beats faster, when hunting deer and one spots a hart. My dear friend, this is so.

 There are two ball gags, but one is too small to work well, and I have to use the larger one to silence the subject.

Help you out, maybe ?

When I was in school, I felt like an outsider. I thought the others thought I was wierd. Now I think they were intimidated. My mind is sharp, when I am at my best. I have some days I feel a bit fuzzy, but even then I am somewhat scary. Sad for me that as a child I didnt know that frightened the ones who were normal. Sad to know that it doesnt make me able to get by any better either. The opposite really.

And intelligence is far more than being smart,or less,if you like. My own mind works in ways I do not understand, yet I can see patterns, feel things, maybe I am wierd ?

So, if you value intelligence, remember to temper it with humanity, compassion and kindness. Toward others, toward yourself. 

I forget that too often.

If there is anyone in my area who is free during the day on Tuesdays, and on other days as well, I am thinking of trying a workout partner. I usually train alone, but maybe it would be more fun with a friend. I am not a gym rat, so it is not at a high level, and this is a vanilla platonic offer.

 Off to do my stretches now....

Well the second test revealed I have no sign of any problems. Good to know. I kinda like my boobs just like they are. Of course,if I had to be an Amazon in order to live,so be it. I already have the longbow.....

I had a mammogram. They want me to do another one. I dreamed that all the pain I have been having is cancer. Then I dreamed I comitted suicide. It was too little too late, as I had given it to my Beloved. It IS a virus,you know ? What if the dream is true ?

Wow, I think I will stay on this site forever. I mean, compared to so many on here, I am truly a Goddess,which I am, but really.

I am fit.Pretty. Sexually open and knowlegable. Smart enough. Fairly well read. And.....modest.

 Of course the type of Goddess I am is Bitch Goddess, but I am also my Beloved's Love Goddess in chains.

Yep, collar-me is my feel-good site,lol.

Happy NUDE Year ya'll. Going dancing tonight, sadly, not nude.

oh my goddess......the world makes my head ache.

Sometimes... I want to write to the people on here who say' Don't write if you aren't just what I seek.' Cause they really think they can stop anyone ? I just wanna twist their tails a bit,lol.

I seldom post my playtimes and activities here, because I play with real people who might not want to be discussed in a public space. So, mostly I am random here, a rant, a rave, a kudo.  SOON though, I may have some spicier stories that are meant to be shared from my interesting and eventful private life....

Tiny rantish entry.....because when I read what some people write, I kinda lose my mind.

 If you are on THIS site, and if you list as a SUB, ......WHY wouldnt you want to speak to Doms? Now, I said speak to, not invite them to try to cyber dom or whatever, and get this...she isn't taken,either. Just wierd to me. If you want to speak to other subs, maybe a chatroom on alt? I dunno. It's like walking down a city street screamin 'Don't LOOK at me' and about as effective,too. Of course, I walk down the street, screamin' SHUT UP' fairly often. People think they can say anything to a Lady these days, gag.

Seriously? I personally like the new double wide mobile homes AND I am not afraid they will blow away. I know how to set the anchors properly. Some people are stupid. Others do stupid things. There are no others after that,lol. I just try to lower the stupid actions to a minimum. Hate the trailers, chumps, I love the pretty ones.

This rant brought to you by some other damn fool on here ! Oh and me.

I like the word stupid,too. Use it often.

I wish my Love could see himself as I do. As others are seeing him now he has become a man and a master. There is more to how one is seen than one's features. I love his look, his attitude and his mind, but I also think he is handsome. There is more than one handsome or beautiful. The most interesting and attractive people are rarely what is the cultural norm, after all. I have an eye for beauty, too.

 We all get stuck, though,on what we think we look like,or are seen as, and yes,it does matter. We are visual creatures. We make choices based on what we see. But we are blind to our own look.

My Love, you are beautiful, handsome and very attractive. To me. To others. You are charming and sexy in a way that is unique to you. I am pleased to look on your body, your face, every moment of every day. Help me to feel as beautiful in your eyes only by telling me, and kissing me to silence if I should protest. Thank you.

I hate some things I cannot change. My sense of justice is offended.

I has a happeh !!!! Also, I like pie. Randomness rules my world.

So, I need a better job,or at least more income. Ideas? If it's legal and feasible, I am interested. Available weekdays. Other times call for a premium,as I like my home and my downtime.

Going outside awhile. Thinking of playing outdoors. I love Autumn.

I need a new leather something. A corset, boots, or a coat, maybe a jacket. Something in supple leather with heavy silver hardware...... Have the coat, and boots but more is good. Actually, I DO need new thigh hi boots. Mine are broken. Maybe a good shoe repair place would do instead.....

I think if I were reading profiles,looking at possible playmates or partners, I might be more inclined to look closer if I could UNDERSTAND them. Spelling is not the only problem. Just write as you speak....oh goddess,if that IS how they speak, run away. I am not looking ,however.

When online,one does NOT get to choose who looks at you. Even a cat may look at a Queen. However, it does provide entertainment to said Queen when the ones looking also act a  fool,lol.

 I love the profiles begging, please no '____'  (men,older people, dominants,etc)  Whatever. Ok, I admit, I just love to see begging. 

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I need a mechanic, both my bike AND my car are down, now. It's the bicycle, or shank's mare for me now. Help !!!!!

Glad my friends on here are so sweet and so smart. They know how to use lower case letters as well as upper case letters. They are pleasant, even if disagreeing, they are not unable to read a profile, and they can take a rejection with grace. Yes, this site has brought me some wonderful friends.

  See below for the oppositev type that creeps this site, though. A fool ,a lone loser in a sea of lost possibilities....critter-gitter, I think his name was,or dogdooer? Something like that.

A reply to a coward of the write, rant and block ilk.......

Some people are cowards. They write an ugly, foolish letter to you and then block you. Afraid of a girl, big chicken ? Or some kind of animal in his profile name, anyway,lol. This is an open forum and there are NO sections. Just as men who write to me asking me to hookup can do so,(even though they have not bothered to read my profile) I can be unavailable for said hookups and be here for the rest of what is offered by the site.

 What annoys is not the requests, but the lack of effort these simps make, and they really expect to get a reply?

 Well, animalfucker,or whoever you are, you need to breathe, and get a grip. I am so far above you, it's not possible to see or smell you ,thank the goddess for that.

muwahhahaha. whew,that's better.

My journal contains critical comments. BUT I do not name or identify the subject of my scorn. Very important detail......if you think it's you,it prolly IS,lol.

Really? Do you people not know this is a kink oriented site, not a swingers club ? I find that gross and annoying. Try adult friend finder, ya flakes.

You know what's funny? A man with a profile on here, either no pic, a cock shot, or he's a big guy, and he says....no pic,no reply. I feel sorry for them. They don't get much play, what they do is mostly men posing as women,and/or scammmers, and they put that on the profile? lololol

I hate everything about you.

So, if you scream on your profile 'no men don't waste my time, you all go to bulk mail', I think you have a man telling you not to have anything to do with other men. Also,if it goes to bulk, it DOESNT waste your time,cause ....it goes to bulk,lol. Women can be so stupid, but some can truly be goddesses.

If you plan to bitch about other's intellect, at least use spell-check when you do it......dumbass.

 I am not claiming to have the highest level of intelligence, nor of education. Really good even so. I do bitch some. Even gripe. More out of boredom and as an escape than anything, I think. If you take my words personally, you are a fool, but if they ring true and you want to change that, good for you. I prolly do not know you,do not know your profile and never will. If I do, so what? What importance can I have to you? None.

  I have real people to whom I do matter. Online, while dealing with real people,it  is only as real as you allow it to be.Still, try being smart and kind when dealing with people directly. I make my complaints vague and general so as to inspire rather than injure.

What happens when you put no men !! on your profile?  Does it work? If it does,do you get anything from women,since that's whats left after  no men !!.

 Men are fine,in general, but some people, I dunno about.......

Let's play a game.....

Bored, somebody save me.

Rode my bicycle for miles today. Lovely weather.

Do you like my picture ?

While I have a wonderful and fulfilling relationship,I know many on here are looking for a relationship.They need to understand that many of us are not. We are here for community, for conversation, for fun, dare I say ?

 I sometimes write here to rant, or to work things out, to ask or offer insights. I do not seek approval from you, gentle reader, as I find that in my Master's eyes, but I may yet find acceptance  from the twisted community where I will not look or even care to gain such from the vanilla world. This is nice,but not required. Conflict, even anger and ignorance live here as well as the kinder feelings.

  If one can work it out here, 'nilla is a breeze,yes?

All the profiles that shriek about how the user is 'under protection' just crack me up. From what? I mean, really, on a public site like this, there is no protection possible. I think they are just so happy SOMEone wants to claim them,even as tenuosly as online, that they have to say it.

Goddess, please do not let them think anyone can protect them from predators, or fools on a site like this. That is a task you must do yourself.

Yes, I am very nice to look at, very nice to the touch. My voice is melodious, and my manner pleasing. However, with all my natural talent, and all the things I have trained myself to do, such as martial arts, dance, and pursuits of the mind, I remain poor in material things.

 This is not a problem. While I adore spending money, and getting things, my deepest pleasures are of the body, the mind and the spirit. So I will ask for things from my followers, things I will not buy for myself, but would like or maybe even need, but my truest pleasure is that you gave of yourself to me.

 I like flowers,too.

ATTN:To ALL trolls,

 I have friends on this site.We talk about you for our amusement. PLEASE keep being a perfect troll.Thnxnwbuhbye.

I have long identified as non-gender-specific,both in my self, and in my attractions. I do feel more femme than not, attracted to males more the females,and as is always true, certainly not to every example of a certain sex. However, I have many 'male' qualities,am attracted to some femme types, and I can be attracted without acting on it.

 So, bi? I guess.

 Gender queer?Somewhat.

 Oh , and add poly to the mix.

 Still devotedly loyal? Yes. Since He is not at all willing to share, I am by description a straight, monogamous female enslaved to a straight , monogamous male. This has never before been the case, but it feels just right for us. And I have never before been this happy, this certain or this secure. It looks permanent too, and glad am I. But it sure is wierd to be so .....mainstream, but still so happily twisted. Just my ramblings, for this day.

I lie here, loved and cherished, sipping coffee he brought me.The afterglow of morning passion warms me.I am happy,well and cherished.

 Most of the people I wanted to harm, those very few I contemplated really going after for violence done? They led short,miserable lives and then died alone and unmourned.

 I win.

Please explain to me how a female can say this with a straight face. I am in a relationship, so I am only looking for women.  ?WTF? You are still going to be WITH another person. Or is it 'ok' with the man, because a female doesnt threaten his eensy lil winky? I assure you, guys, my cahones are bigger than most of yours, and if I want your woman, (for good) I will HAVE her, and you will be left behind.  Lucky for you I don't have anything to do with these bimbos.

 Goddess preserve us all.

 When I was in a relationship where I could play if I wanted to, we had a long talk about limits, first. Gender wasn't a factor for us, but honesty was. This worked in all of my previous relationships, til the last one. That one was doomed by other things,including lack of constancy on the other party's part.

 In my present amazing relationship, we are NOT open at all. We do enjoy attending gatherings and meeting others, but there is no sharing. We are just very different than anything I have ever had, and oddly, it makes me just really content and I feel so secure.

I still have my past friends, and there is some play possible, since I never was sexual much with my subs, this is nothing new. But I feel new.

I bloody HATE this site. Damn shame some of my friends are here only,sigh. It is getting as awful as alt did. I need to just leave, and say bye to old friends.

I want a filter for stupid, please. Including my own stupidity,haha.I want a filter for the one's who just don't care enough to try. I want a filter for ugly, because my eyes are flippin scarred now. If you must be stupid, at least be pretty, ok? And even as I write what may seem hateful, I want to filter hate. I really do not hate. I am just absolutely SICK of people's ignorance.

 Glad that my Love helps me be a better person. That He is not stupid,or ugly,or hateful. So glad.

If I say it's not you it's me, it really truly is me....and how I react to you. So, not you, since I do not know you,in truth.Online is not real time.

Possibly this will offend you. Too bad.

 I am not fat , not because I am lucky in the genetic lottery, but because I do not eat too much horrible food and I MOVE MY ASS daily. Get off the pity-party, stop the pills, the surgeries and the whining,and get fit. That is all.

My protests just prove my foolish hope that someone on here will want to be my friend in real time....I want to go out and enjoy the day,since I can't seem to find even a half-assed job to replace the one I have. Maybe I could offer topless housecleaning.....

I often wish that I could bomb the obvious fake profiles. I mean, seriously, 10 miles away, but in ALABAMA ? Sigh.....And I saw three variations on' boy' in three profiles that were newest local users....in ALABAMA again. I live in Arkansas. Of course the majority of locals bug me by not being able to spell or write very well, too, so maybe I am just a picky thing. Actually, I AM, lol.

 I LOVE the Native American ones too, as in they think it means they are native to America. I asked 'what tribe?' , they said,ummm, American?!? yeesh.(prolly from India)

Every single day I learn more about happiness from my Beloved. I am so lucky !

I used to like the sissies, but now they sicken me. Not true gender benders, just the men in panties. It isn't personal, gurls. Blame my ex, I do,sigh.....

I think I will go to Mena today, and pick berries on the mountain. Great chance to reflect on death and other such nonsense.

 And I did,and I never once thought about death in the morbid ways I usually do. That's new. Thank you EAN, for giving me my life back in such a beautiful way.

ps, the berries were amazing , too !

It cracks me up to see a profile say how 'new to all this ' the baby Dom/me is and in the journal, how terrible some other person is as a sub. HOW would you know? They just might be bad for you,don't 'cha know ? Ah, baby Dom/mes are sooo cute. But I am an old Tiger and I can afford to be kind....but what kind ?

This to the collarme passerby, do the ones who offer themselves to be a playtoy really think that anyone will take them up on their so-generous offer ? Please. The ones who might consider doing it are not what is wanted. I mean, I see a 50 year old fat guy ask for a young pretty slim girl to work him over. She won't,dude. She can get a cuter,younger guy easily. I can still get that, and I am older. I no longer dominate guys,or girls for that matter, but I did. 

 *shakes head wonderingly* But you keep trying, skippy,it's alright to try.

Daddy, I want to say Happy Father's Day. I think you are wonderful. I wish I really were a child of yours.

I want to play hard and with a good deal of thought involved in it. Wish I knew how to ask for that from Him. It is hard to be an experienced girl with a new but talented Sir, sigh.

 I got this.

Hey people,how's that NO MEN working out for ya...? Just sayin.

Nyan, nya, nyan cat.

If you are reading this.....maybe write to me. I am alone, and bored while my Beloved works. If you want to just say hi or have conversations, I would like that. Please, note I am not asking for play or sex, as I have that in my life.

 I do wish I knew a local Master who would take care of me for my Beloved during the day, like a pet-sitter. Someone to watch over me and give me tasks,in real time would be best, but online could work, I suppose. Of course, Sir would have to be happy with the arrangement. I could even work,for low wages, and turn what I make over to my Love. I often have copious time and energy to spare......

I am so happy,it's crazy. So,I don't need to change anything. I do like to get to know people though,so if you can be civil, we might be friends.

  Well, I do need to change a few things, such as I need to locate,or be located by, a better work situation. Working a dozen little jobs isn't for me, and I need a better one than the one I have. I need full time, I need meaningful, I need good pay. I give hard ,smart work, good attitude, and complete attention to the job at hand, so I know I will find what I need, but where, when? I do great with a task, not so good at searching out the wretched things.In the meantime, I will do my present work with good cheer and total attention, but I am sooo looking for better. And close to my home is vital,if transport isn't provided. 

 This is, may I remind you, gentle reader, a personal journal, and while it is in the public eye, it reflects my feelings and opinions. You may respond,of course.

I miss the drugs, sometimes.....

Never met you, no idea if you even READ my profile, so seriously?

I am bored, but not unhappy. Today, bored is alright. I wasnt bored earlier,wont be later, but right now.....bored.

Fiesta, today. I plan to dance to celebrate unlikely victories. My Beloved was victorious over my fears,uncertainties and concerns, and it is glorious ! So,we dance !!!

I get why so many bitch about the fakes and spam, but theres more to life,really.It is common knowlege that being online gives one courage and drains good manners. It's because the courage is not real, and manners that only exist when face to face are also not real. I behave the same when I am online as I do in person. Bitchy, evil and coldly polite,lol. But real,it's true.

Hello to my friends and to those I have chatted with, and welcome to all others who are not spammer/scammer types. Been VERY busy and very happy. My Beloved keeps me going strong,and I am sooo in love, so surprised to be so, and I wish you all could feel like this.

 I need new pics since I am in better shape than ever,too.....

Want to know me ? Ask.

Yes, I am very nice looking, yes, I am very very well-versed in this thing we do. No, I will not play with you. I belong to my Beloved, and He does not share.I have friends here, and past playmates, but I do not play now. Thank you. Happy hunting,though.

When in a nasty mood, I could have so much fun poking at the profiles I see. But it would be thin and unsatisfying fun.

In more generous moods, I want to help rewrite some of these profiles.

Likely my help would NOT be appreciated,alas.

Soooo, I just muse to myself,whatever were they thinking? WERE they thinking? My own profile is not immune, no doubt. I do understand I live in Arkansas, but somehow, I had hoped for better from my beloved state,and it's denizens. Oh well,it's just a social network, not a job app,or anything IMPORTANT....is it?

Twisted and celebrating it !

If this Lifestyle is not a game to you, then what is it? I am fully into my own thing, BUT it is the focus, the details,and the freedom that satisfy me. Like the heightened focus from,yes, playing an intense game. I train for it, I plan,and I breathe it. Much like any athlete does for the game that they live for. I just do not play on a team,lol.

 The people who say loudly, this is not a game to me, well they obviously have never been deeply into a game.

 If however, they mean this is not a game to be taken lightly, they are correct. But really, we are all players,just in different ways.

As Little Red Riding Hood said to the Big Bad Wolf when he suggested fucking her,Oh no,your going to eat me,like the book says !!!

Oh good grief ! So much has changed, and for the worse. I really hate to see the new profiles that claim to be in Arkansas but are so obviously not. I thought we might miss that lil trend, but no. Oh well, I may just leave for awhile,or forever,grrr.

If you are a friend of mine, I will tell you where to find me,or how to write to me. Just drop me a letter very soon. Of course, I may hang around and see whats next....

For the record, if the profile says over 500 (or even 300 !) miles from me,and still in Arkansas....bullshit. The states not that big,ya'll. Too funny.

Bah, awake and bored.

Meet me in Argenta for St Pat's....if you can find me. I do kinda stick out,lol.

I want to go out !!!! I just got in, and the nice weather is calling me into the night. Maybe a walk.....

Yawn...blink,blink.

I want to meet a new friend and have a nice conversation about this thing we do. Meet me at Prost sometime? Old friends welcome,too.

Just back from a midnight stroll on the beach at Biloxi. Love random road trips.

Love the fakes who are over 300 miles from me,but still in Arkansas. Huh, big little state,innit?

All this goodness in my world,and still I feel so restless. It must be the Spring-like weather....Or I  might need a friend to talk to who isn't my Lover. But I don't really want to talk, I want to play, and run and be me. I want to drink wine, talk about philosophy,or Art, or the 80's. I want to ,well, sleep,I guess. Must be gettin old.

 I have the best Lover ever.

Life, I love it.

Things in Egypt must be bad. I havent gotten a single lame note from someone from there since the protests began.

I love the fake fin Dommes supposedly from my area. But hey, you all enjoy, ok? Just don't expect them to be either real or from here,lol.

Love the profile that has dominant (as in ' a dominant woman' ) with an uppercase, and Ohio with lowercase. Words changed to protect an ego. I feel bitchy so I am being a critic. Sue me,lol.

Sexy.For me, that doesn't mean an overweight ,florid and illiterate person. For me, it means a bright, height/weight proportionate and preferably pale person. However, since I am not looking, my preferences are not important,lol. Oh, I can overlook spelling for good content,ya know?

Anyway, happy hunting,ya'll. So glad I have my Sir, and He is perfect for me. May you find your match,or matches,as well.

Massages,people. By me,to you, and no  I am not offering sex,lol. Though it IS sexy as hell to have me in your home, and rubbing on your body. Just sayin.....and unless you can afford it, I am only offering this near Little Rock,Ar, for obvious reasons. I have travelled a long way to give a massage many times,but it isn't cheap,you understand?

Yes, yes I am a bitch. Actually,it's Miss Bitch to you,lol.

I am thinking of offering massages in your home/location again. Not sex, just sensual massage by a kinky professional who gives deep and relaxing massage. ANY hour of the day or night, by  advance appointment. Ask nicely and I will wear something...special.

I have to laugh(well, I don't HAVE to, but I choose to) at the profiles whining about fakes....with no pics. Or better, a pic that is NOT of them. I know it prolly means they have encountered someone here who(oh no,rEEeeally?) lied to them online, but so what? This is just a network. A way to initiate something more. It won't always work out, much like life. And it's faster.(It usually costs you less in the long run,lol.)

 MY pics are all me, from different events in MY life and yes, they are mostly my best one's. But they are not fakes,or studio shots of someone elses freekin foot or leg or hand or ...whatever.All me, all the time,unless it's a cartoon or an object.(Do I even have any like that?) So, mini-rant over, back to pervin.

It's so easy when you're evil.

My New Year's Eve was waaay better than yours was, I am certain. And, since then hasnt been too bad either,hehe.

For my birthday...pink duct tape. squeee.

New Year's Eve in Memphis with a stunningly lovely and over-all amazing person. Is Memphis ready for the two of us ? Gingers rule !!

SIGHHHHHHHH

Looking forward to getting lots of sweet gifts for my birthday. Start thinking about how to please me now, since it's in December. Nice,modest and practical is always a good choice. Extravagant I really wouldn't trust right now,since none of you really know me well enough. Save for a few, and you know who you are,yes?
Think second date level gifts as an introduction, or better, as a temptation.

Even though I detest holidays, I hope everyone is having a good one.

Ya know what else? For MY birthday(which I usually ignore) I think I want to actually get my spanking. Weird for me,I know, but true. Now, by the time of my birthday, I may change my mind,lol.

Damn, I am really kinda cool,ya know?

booOOoored "yawns"
 By the way, it seems the definition of terms is in need of clarification.
Also the awareness that said definitions are NOT the same for all people,even here in this community that shares some understanding of them.
slave sub bottom etc....each is really just a vague descriptor of a living thing, and as such, subject to change. However, the ROLES can be clarified by the parties involved. Just sayin'......

Such a fickle thing. Tonight, the moon shines brightly and I feel blissed,possibly blessed.

Broken again, I see nothing that interests me. If that changes,as it has before, I might fly again. For now, I hide my fierceness in my dissarrayed feathers, hoping for nothing, seeing only bleak and fading daylight ahead.

Some people have forgotten a few basic survival traits. If the Tigress growls, back up. If the Falconne screams, get thee gone. I swear,it is not that I am simply unpleasant, I am not safe  for delicate egos to be around right now. If ever I was. People have no idea how I must make an effort to be civil. It is not their fault, they are not like me. I am haughty, reserved,cold and yet I have a softer, if hidden side. 
 Some folks are more like me, the ones who,Dominant or submissive, will give me my space and when I am ready, will come around me again. My Priests and acolytes, my F/friends and once upon a time,my mate.

  OHMYGAWD  ,I swear,please,if you must write to me,and you read my last post,maybe read a little further,mmkay? 

For my personal search. If you seek training,this does not apply quite so much.
 
If you are older than me, be fit and open-minded. I f you are younger than me, be fit and flexible.
Fit= able to walk around in the woods without passing out. able to see your pelvic area while standing,without looking in the mirror.
Open-minded= able to accept that others are different,and that is not just ok, but the way of the world,and a good thing, dammit !
 I might ease up on the fit part,but I will not on the open-mind part.
Theres more,but I prefer to meet a person first,then decide how I feel.

My birthday is this month,and as my family is pretty much all deceased,I must turn to my friends,extended family and playful aquaintences for that celebration I enjoy so much. A party is not likely, but I would love to just have a feeling of joy that is shared. I made it another year,and I have triumphed over many challenges.great and small. Let me know you love me,people !!!! I loves ya'll !

Attention,please,redux.
Imagine a place with low throbbing music pulsing an erotic rhythm,the gleam of candlelight on skin bedewed with a light sweat,and watching over this scene,an Instructor with cool and very exacting demands.
I am that Instructor,and the class is for love slaves and pleasure sluts as they work so very hard to learn the art of seductive Dance in an effort to improve their desirability.This may be for  the current Owner or for the One they seek.
 I can train to an Owner's specifications,within reason,or I can prepare for the Owner a delightful surprise  gift that can unwrap itself.
 A student need not be Owned or collared,but still wish to unlock that primal beauty and the joy that comes from dance.All are welcome,and I feel that this is a beautiful form of expression.What will you say with it?
 For the person interested in Life Dance,belly dance basics,but not Middle Eastern Cabaret style,I offer that class too,just ask!

definition   daycation,a series of day trips within ones own area,that together comprise a vacation,yet allows one to sleep in one's own bed. all one needs is a map,or navi,and a stocked ice-chest ,which with a bit of relaxing the usual boundaries,is enough to bear fruit.
today is day three.....

of late I find myself turning inward. if someone or something were to capture my interest,it wouldnt be so bad. I already know my inner self,but what is out there ? let me see.
 I do want to get away for a time. all this week,and any weekend. but where ? all is ashes.

Today is a splendid Autumn day. If things were different ,I might be outside,revelling in such a wonderful gift,the gift of a warm, clear day with the gentlest of breezes to nip one's nose. One might feel,in a day like this, that this day must be treasured, held dear,and feel the approach of dark,dreary Winter's embrace.
I do not feel this. Autumn, by it's nature,is a promise. A last vibrant romp through fragrant,crackling leaves of gem-tones,to dazzle the mind.
The promise? Spring will return.
 I do not care if Spring comes,Winter holds no dread, nor Summer,delight. It is all just time,to be served. Mine is served cold,bland and dull.
I have my health,my friends,a son and granddaughter. Even a partner.
The only thing on that list that gives me pleasure is my friends,and I turn away,lest they see. See my faded attention,lack of enthusiasm,and loss of any deep satisfaction. No,I am not reaching out to you,gentle reader, nor to anyone. I am stating my feelings,while I have them. And in that,there may be a tiny spark,a flicker,of healing and life,somewhere in the future. Not now,though.

Re-evaluation is in order. I find that my perception of myself has changed. No longer can I claim to be a submissive in any way. That aspect has fled,leaving only myself,Lady Falconne, to come to terms with my latest shift.
 Lonely,I may well be, but that is preferable to reaching for what is not there.
I bid you all a thankful farewell,as the falconne becomes the Lady.

Will the lost things be found? Or perhaps discovered anew by one who will use them well,even better than before they became lost?
I do not know.