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Visiting the Chicago Art Museum this past weekend, and more specifically, the Impressionist Exhibit, I found the quotes I present below written on the walls along side of the bedroom paintings and corset displays! How true it holds to this day, the sight of a beautiful woman in the nude will almost always be surpassed by the erotic mystery of a woman in her most intimate bedroom attire! Men are such visual creatures!!

 "Everything that adorns a woman, everything that serves to show off her beauty, is part of herself; and those artists who have made a particular study of this enigmatic being found no less on all the details of the mundus muliebris (woman’s dressing room) than on woman herself .... What poet, in sitting down to paint the pleasure caused by the sight of a beautiful woman, would venture to separate her from her costume."    Charles Baudelaire 1863

I especially love this last quote!

"A woman in a corset is a lie, a falsehood, a fiction, but for us this fiction is better than reality" Eugene Chapus 1855

I have been here before some time ago. I needed a break from the many who knew not who they were, what submission, Dominance, & BDsm  meant to them, and how it was to "fit" into their world, let alone others they may allow into it. I began to question if I knew its meaning myself. So I took a break from collarme, and to a much smaller extent, the lifestyle itself.

It is not uncommon. Most will dip their toe in to test. Some may enter waist deep to gain a better perspective. Few will fully immerse themselves for complete understanding. Sometimes it is best for the fully immersed to come up for air, exit completely, cleanse & rinse themselves, and then look back to see all there is to see from a different view.

Take another look! See what you have missed? See where you were? Was it the best place to be? Of course it was (at the time).

I return refreshed. Entering slowly. Not with caution, but to touch and sense all that surrounds me. To see with clearer sight, to listen with more interest, to touch with greater sensitivity, and taste with abandon all I can consume just short of glutony.  

To be clear, I never left the lifestyle. It is a part of me. I know it always will be. I have continued to be active, but recently, not online as much. I have taken a very deep breath and return on a new journey toward total immersion into deeper understanding and pleasures for all who join me.

I look for friends who are passed the "test" stage and seek company on their journey into understanding their Dominant or submissive desires & wish to explore further their deepest, darkest BDsm cravings.

Join me as I reach you on my path toward immersion. Walk with me for as long as you like as friends with shared interests. We can take our time, stopping along the way to mutually enjoy new experiences and gain greater understanding. And if, as we enter deeper, we discover we are one, then perhaps our true journey together may begin.

Seriously, are there ANY real women on this site searching for a real relationship sharing mutual interests with a real, very sincere man? Is every woman on this site a fraud?

Please ... if you are going to ask me for money or gifts ... if you want me to visit another website to find out who you are or communicate with you ... if you are going to ask me for my personal email address before we get to know each other well ... if you do not want to schedule a real time in person meeting within a reasonable time after first contact ... then PLEASE do not bother contacting me! If you are from a place of great distance from Chicago and you are sincere about a legit friendship, I will welcome your contact but ONLY through CM messages exclusively.

That said I now expect I will not receive any further messages on this site because the fact is, there are NO real women on this site. If there are, I haven't met one in more than 6 years being on this site so they must be extremely rare.

Interesting ... SEVEN different profiles each with a different photo; of course all very beautiful women. Each and every one of them send me the very same message word for word, same incorrect spellings and all.

It's very obvious they are all the same person and all fraudulent profiles. Is it a wonder I won't give out my personal email address and personal information as requested by anyone on this site? Between the frauds and the "financial Dommes" on this site, I see very little benefit to visiting this site anymore.

As a service to those who are real, here are the names of the profile who sent me identical messages:

 quikkup   /   dbwam   /   Luvbird   /   Blundie5   /   booberi   /   Bouncess   /   Wripper

Today I am deeply saddened to learn I have lost two very close friends.

The first has passed on to be closer to God after a very long battle with cancer.

The second has announced their engagement after a very long battle with sanity!

I will miss them both very much!!

"I hold it true, whate'er befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all."

May I say ... Alfred Lord Tennyson was full of shit!

I think its better now ... never to have loved at all.

What is up with all the "financial Dommes" on this site lately??

Are men really this stupid?

If you wish to be financially dominated so badly it will ruin your life, just get married!

It appears my profile and journal entries have left some confused about what I seek currently in my life. Others believe I may be on some sort of "rebound"... whatever that means.

I am an intelligent, caring, sensitive, loving Dominant man; one who expresses himself openly and honestly. Why are these not qualities worthy of note, instead of perceived warnings of something called a "rebound".

In matters of the heart, we all run the risk of feeling the pain of being deeply hurt by those we trust most with our love, our friendship, our loyalty, and stewardship of our soul. Being a Dominant male makes me no different than the rest of you who have felt such a pain.

I have come to realize, as so many others have before me, this is an event of life one must learn from, live with whatever remnants always remain, and move on with life. I have successfully done so; placing behind me the bitter betrayal I have felt for so long.

I am an intelligent, caring, sensitive, loving Dominant man who has much to offer a loving submissive woman who will appreciate the gifts I have to offer at least as much as I will appreciate hers.

To be clear, I seek a beautiful and sincerely submissive woman, to explore with me all the pleasures this world has to offer; I seek my best friend. Until I find her, I remain open to meeting those who have a sincere interest in becoming further acquainted.

In my loneliness I reach out for the kindness of a smile, the touch of a hand, the warmth of an embrace; someone to share with me my thoughts and feelings; someone who is searching for the same as I. If I am afraid to love, I reject all that love can bring. 

So often life is not filled with love and laughter as much as with loneliness and disappointment; but there will be enough of those beautiful moments, with very special people, to make all the rest seem worthwhile.

Know that yesterday will not return and tomorrow is not forever! It is not now love I fear, but a life without it, and every breath I breathe from this moment on will hold it in my mind and heart; in the very depth of my lonliness and every last dream I still have left to share!

More than anything else, I want to hold once again someone very special in my arms, gently, to say with all certainty and conviction, "I love you" and mean it from the deepest depths of my soul. This is the love that casts out fear; that makes life worth living; that takes a man and a woman on earth and lifts them finally above every power or pain that could wound them.

I have seen so many sights, heard so many words,but none as beautiful as the sight and sound of a man & woman who say with their every act, their eyes, hearts, and all of their being "I love you".

I did not know her but she smiled! And from her smile a warmth seeped deep inside of me. I knew no words I could say, yet I took a moment to speak, and she took a second to smile; and we understood.

A tiny part of me left with her today, and a small part of her stayed; and in the coldness of my lonely day, she had given me more than most ever would.

Each of us yearns for a heart to beat in unison with that of our own ... for an ear to listen as we pour out our deepest of feelings and confidences ... for a hand we may securely grasp ... for an arm we may call upon to lean.

Yet, it is not only when these moments arise we know the value of someone special; for even in our most bright and happy occasions, we feel our joys have not half their sweetness until we can share them with someone special to us.

Whether our experiences be glamourous or meek; our surroundings a castle or a cabin; our trials will be lighter and our comforts richer when our hearts beat in unison with a very special someone, and me!

Each day I welcome tomorrow by exploring the present and understanding the past. I will look to this day, for yesterday is but a dream, and tomorrow is only still a vision; today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness, and every tomorrow a vision of hope. Enjoy your days!

I had forgotten how wonderful it really is to laugh so hard with a true friend into the early morning hours! Thank you my friend for the pleasure of sharing this time with you!

 I reach out for the kindness of a smile, the touch of a hand, the warmth of an embrace, someone to share with me my thoughts and feelings; someone who is searching and reaching out for the same as I. When the heart cannot feel nor find peace from within, neither will the soul.

Reach out and enter into conversation with others of like mind, or perhaps, of a different mind. Either way you may learn something!

Discover shared interests. Explore the possibilities each will offer the other.

I do not want to be quick to judge but, so far, my experience has not seen much of this happening on collarme.

Many journals complain about "cut & paste" mail. Not surprising I suppose, when so much mail goes unread, let alone answered.

Do we expect to communicate only with those we think are perfect fodder for a lifelong partnership?

What happened to expanding horizons; enjoying new experiences; discovering new opportunities; learning new concepts; discovering more about ourselves and others?

Does sending a message on collarme to someone who you find some interest send a signal for a lifelong commitment? NO??? Then what is the fear of responding? Is there harm in communicating?

Is it enough to reject someone because they are not everything we wish for? Are there NO redeeming qualities enough to consider getting to know each other more without a great obligation?

Is every contact to be viewed as requiring further commitment rather than an opportunity to know someone else in the community?

Is this how collarme works? If so, it is kind of useless do you not agree?

I go where I cannot see, and see
where I cannot go.
 
The world is wonderful, the world is dreadful;
 it gives us life and hastens death; speaks of nothing, yet offers us hope and love.

I cannot tolerate another sip of cognac, an
empty laugh, another story, or eyes that look beyond me to wonder what I do for a
living, what I earn, what I own, and am I
significant enough to talk with.

Am I the only one trying to create another world? The problem is simple ...
I have done what I was asked for so long that
I have dulled my own inner voice which now echoes endlessly in my own confusion.

I need a Port in this vast storm; a place to rest and wonder; a corner to listen to a voice
that may say nothing, and a heart that asks nothing but my desired presence.

Who made me like I am? A child & wanderer;
lover of the hearth, rebel & Patriot.
 Now I ignore the morning news & pursue a
setting sun. Where is the home for the
man who has none? Where is the orbit vast
enough, the universe wild enough, the stars close enough?

I look for the friend who understands; whose arm is linked with mine; whose vision
penetrates; and whose words will somehow
touch my very soul.

How often must we begin again!