as i sit here in the dark, lonely and confused. wondering if i can find someone who is not completely used. i ask my self " how do i cope?". "am i at the end of my rope?". the light is getting brighter, fellings getting stronger. my patience growing thin, not sure if i can hang on much longer. yet silence is the key to calm the impatience, if only i knew it made sense. i stare into the darkness waiting for the answer that i want to hear. not knowing the answer ,it just hightens all my fear. suddenly my mind is flushed, and all i can see is light. are all the things i've done in life wrong or where they right? i've treated people bad and made many sad. now i come to terms within this very lonely heart, wishing that i could take it back from the very start. forgive me for the wrong i've done. can i fix the things that i did back then? if not here or now then when? your forgiveness soothes me. thank you for understanding even though i am demanding. even though you submit, you have a strong wit. smart and true that is why i chose you. i will never beat you down lying on the ground, to suffer mental stress that i cannot undo. this is why i wrote this for you. i will love you and guide you, lead you and correct you. even if it means i admit when i am wrong, because if i don't then this won't last too long. now the light is here and nothing left to fear. forgiveness and remorse has truthfully taken it's course. |