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I somehow doubt anything will come of this.
Futher, if you are not local, I roll my eyes in excess, at you. What's the point? And since you are not local, you can't exactly punish me. And NO I am not into just long distance online bullshit.
I'm just gonna be real blunt. I pretty much only like white guys. I am open to dating outside of the white race, but no one ever makes me do a second look. If you aren't at least 5'10", I will feel like I can kick your ass. That'll pretty much kill any respect that I have for you.
I am stupid busy. I am complicated. I am not like anyone you have probably ever met. There are pros to that and obviously cons. If I think I am smarter than you, you will turn me off. So if you know you are an idiot, go find an idiot girl. They are out there, I've met them. You are just aren't for me. So please respect that, don't waste your time or mine.
My pictures are a few years old. Deal with it. I've gained weight, deal with it.
My experience is rather limited. But I know what I like, what turns me on.
:)
Molly
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If you are reading my old journal entries, good luck. I was a different person then.
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I'm off to head to New Hampshire tomorrow for three days of hiking. After I've had my fun with M. If I so happen to die because a moose tramples me, or a bear decides I look as yummy as a few of you think I do, or I slip off a rock, it's been fun u sluts.
This tree hugger is signing off.
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Hello you crazy ass bitches!
I'm thinking that I should probably shut this down but I'll leave it. But I'll leave it for now since I stay in touch with a few people. this is just to let you know that my priorities are NOT cm. I am actually doing what I am supposed to be doing. Holy shit, finally I am actually experiencing discipline. So if I don't respond, don't take it personally. It's not you, it's me.
Cheers!
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Another rejection.
Rebounding much quicker. Good for me.
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Greetings and salutations.
I had a shitty day today. I hope yours was way better than mine. I really could have used a beating to contrast the difference between emotional vs physical pain. It's easier to deal with physical pain.
I mean I really could have gone for a full day as a slave so I wouldn't have to think, only act. But he's 74 miles away and not available. Life's a bitch.
Verbal abuse is appreciated.
M
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Okay I want some clarification bitches.
The more I look at pics from Domme's and slaves...I feel like the slaves/subs look a helluva lot more dominant than the Domme's. Whats going on with that?
Or is my perception off?
I walked into a bar semi recently to meet someone. And I was dressed up pretty etc etc. I mean I can FEEL the eyes on me. I can feel the power. And right now, I just shy away from all of that power cuz I don't want any of it. I would have felt a whole lot more submissive wearing baggy jeans and t shirt, hehe.
Thoughts are welcome!
Mollz
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It's 5:45 in the morning and I am on cm. Hmmm. I've been in bed for past 36 hours for the most part so I shall forgive myself for being a cm whore. I have had a rather terrible cough/cold. The only reason I feel I can actually call it terrible is that I have been in bed for 36 hours and it's hard for me to sit still for more than 15 minutes.
Does anyone know why you get a headache for sleeping too long? My back is actually hurting from inactivity. I watched Million Dollar Baby again. I kept putting in my favorite movies, and then I'd pass out.
I'm blaming this illness entirely on not be "allowed" to go hiking. However, he pointed out that I could have been killed, and therefore I thanked him.
It could also be that I caught this illness due to working more overtime than my regular hours. And half the hospital was ill. My immune system was probably compromised due to both lack of sleep, many hours, etc. However, I have it in my head that had I hiked, it would have given my immune system an extra dose of loving and this could have all been avoided. If you are reading this, you may note that maybe this sub is a bit stubborn when it comes to specific things. Hmm. Who knew?
Okay you sluts. That's it. I'm going back to bed. I've literally physically only been out of bed for less than 10 minutes. wtf. GRR. Stay well.
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I had a shittttttty day at work. I really dislike passive aggressive superiors.
I'd much rather they just be direct so we can solve the issue together.
Fucking stupid. And while it was all happening, I was so keenly reminded that I need a local best friend of the girl gender....mine is far away, learning surgery. So I can't just call her up in a jiffy. Again, FUCK MY LIFE.
Okay I hate being so negative. It drains me.
I'm listening to Alicia Keys "Superwoman." I wish I felt that way right now.
I also woke up this morning and could tell that my asthma was affecting me. It only happens like 2 a year if that,....and essentially I really can't bitch about it since I don't have attacks. It just feels like I can't breathe in as much. I'm having a pity party apparently today.
This appears to be helping...writing to NO one and yet EVERYONE. How pathetic. How very pathetic. My inner Domme is about to kick my ass. She is saying, "SUCK IT UP YOU FUCKING LOSER."
Some days you need to hear that...and on other days you need a bath, a kitty cat, hot chocolate/tea/coffee, a great movie, a massage, oh and a little spanking.
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Tonight was an eye opener. For all the Doms who are reading.....when you guys get it wrong, you get it so wrong. I have to consider that the issue here is me....seeing as I am a wee bit strange. The conversation was comical at first...but now I am pissed off a bit. A little sad too.
And now I am singing Miss Alicia Keys..I didn't even realize I had this song in my collection of music and I LOVE this song....how fucking ironic that I came across it tonight. Too bad M doesn't read this journal.
Get so caught up everyday Tryna keep it all together While the time it slips away You see I know nothing last forever
Imagine there was no tomorrow Imagine that I couldn't see your face There would be no limit to my sorrow So all I can say
I wanna tell you something, give you something Show you in so many ways 'cause it would all mean nothing if I don't say something before it all goes away Don't wanna wait to bring you flowers, waste another hour let alone another day I'm gonna tell you something, show you something, won't wait till it's too late
Just a simple conversation Just a moment is all it takes I wanna be there just to listen (I wanna be here) And I don't wanna hesitate
So M if you DO happen to read this, I am NOT like every other fucked up woman who is trying to trap a man into marriage, kids, his money etc. FUCK THAT. My only motive is to see you twice a month. And if you really don't want to see me twice a month, then I shouldn't want to see you. I can leave and you can forget me. I think you already have many times before.
I just want the now. With you. Ball is in your court my friend. It doesn't even have to go where you suggested yesterday. I mean that sounds like fun and all....but it should be right for you too. And if you believe everything that you stated tonight, even after we have a conversation in person about it, I'll walk away. I am NOT playing games. I don't do that. I'm sorry it looks like that to you. I wish I could do everything to make you NOT feel that way. But I can't do that. That's up for you to decide. You will either figure it out or you won't.
This girl is on FIRE!
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And then he fucked me all up and said something entirely NOT what I was EVER expecting to hear from him.
Hmmm......he just feels right for right now.
Off to shower......
M
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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY BITCHES. I'd like some deep red roses with the thorns. Please and thank you.
Oh wait, I'm not the one who should be making requests. AHHH snap!
I'm in a much better space today. I'm off to meet Kate for drinks and cheesecake all dressed up. I am super excited and therefore semi hyper. It feels like my mood from summer has returned. Interesting.
Anyways,
I hope all the Doms will pleasure their subs/slaves at least once tonight. Orgasms are important;)
...hmmm..yep they are important yet I can't seem to satisfy myself even after multiple ones. I want more more more more more more more more more more.
Maybe I'm craving an actual man to hold me down while I cum all over his cock after he's spanked me til I'm bright pink. I want to be loud. I want it hard. I want it to last until I literally collapse from exhaustion. Hmm...and now we all know that's not happening...and I'm in fantasy land.
fuuuuucccckkk.
sexually frustrated again.
M
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So this is my rant and if you don't want to read about me having a complete fucking tantrum at age 33, stop reading now.
This is me venting. Cuz actually I'm really fucking pissed off. My plan during tomorrow's blizzard was to go hiking. I'd be on the trail by 7 am and be down before the damn shit even hits...but NO everyone thinks that Molly is crazzzzzzzzzzy. And I don't really care about everyone...but I care what HE thinks. Isn't that a bitch..cuz we aren't even TOGETHER any more.
Now before you opinionated, protective, dominant men start to give me a verbal spanking about how I am being irresponsible etc etc. I'm an experienced hiker. I'm an experienced solo hiker. I'm used to being in the winter conditions. I have the gear, the knowledge, the want, the DAY OFF, and did I mention I want the pic of the girl smiling on top of a mountain during a blizzard? Why is that? Well someone told me last summer that they gave up on winter hiking because she didn't have anything to prove any more. I have EVERYTHING to prove. Also, if it was dangerous, I'd turn around. I'm not hell bent on making it to the top. I just want to see how well I do in the storm. I'm a helluva risk taker, but I'm not reckless.
GRRRR oh and then I was going to look forward to a nice hot bath at his house... with my new bath pillow since I live in a shitty place where there is no working bathtub. Don't even ask. I can't fucking believe it. And then I wanted to NOT celebrate valentine's day by eating homemade dark chocolate cake and dark chocolate icing made from scratch cuz I thought HE might possibly like it. Sometimes it sucks being a perfectionist. And wanting someone's approval. I gave up on that so long ago. The feeling is taking some getting used to again. So here I am ranting like a teenager about blah blah blah blah blah blah. And if I was in front of him, he'd probably shut me up with just one look. So here I am again ambivalent!
And M, if you are reading this, HA! I know you care and you have my best interests at heart blah blah blah...thank you, I do appreciate it. It's just in this moment, I wish you didn't know me. Cuz you are the only one the has this fucking power over me..and at the moment I'm a little resentful. And I can't help but call myself a coward for not going...again it's not dangerous for ME...anyone else, yes...absolutely. No, I do not think that I am invincible....it just appears that way. So go ahead, next time you see me punish me all you want. Maybe you'll knock some sense into me. And maybe I'll finally say that little word.
So bitches, bring on the verbal abuse. Maybe I do need it. Molly throws her hands up in the air. EYE ROLL!!!!! |
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Age: 38 |
Albuquerque,
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