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LOST THINGS REMEMBERED

BY JAYCEE RAY

Ever lost something? Well, not lost, because it is somewhere, just not in your reach.  And in your search, you came across an old favorite CD or a Playbill from that great play you saw?

While you were searching, you came across other things, too … remember how much that silly key chain or ring meant to you? Oh goodness, there is the back to that earring! How can something, once so treasured, sit at the bottom of your junk drawer?

We consistently replace old with new … sometimes it is done without thought or conscious decision … follow me here, please.

We all have that long list of things waiting to be found again. I have my old Barbie collection from when I was a small child, that every few years or so, I revisit. As I open the Barbie case, there is a smell that brings me back to days of hours of fun, lost in my own world.

With what did I replace that safe place? Everyone has a “Barbie” memory somewhere, maybe in your closet or that junk drawer ... look under the bed.

And sometimes, people, like things, yearn to be acknowledged for the worth they once had in your life. I’m there somewhere among all your other lost things. Maybe someday you will come across an old note I wrote or an old photo …

I hope someday you will find me and remember what I once meant to you and how happy we were in each other’s lives.

written July, 2017 and dedicated to the love of my life ...He knows who He is

                                SHADOW IN THE DARKNESS                  

J.C. Ray 2004

Tossing and turning; unable to sleep;

dancing visions of the night.

She sees an alley, very dark and bleak.

The alley sets her body on fire; makes her weak. She feels submissive.

It intrigues her… so the girl walks down this path of darkness…

She cannot see the ground as her heals click on the pavement.

Why does she come to this place?

And she continues to walk.

Her body trembling, hand shaking …

Is that a shadow of a Man she sees lurking at the end of the alley?

Or is that just a fantasy fear playing tricks with her psyche?

It’s so very dark here in this place of unfamiliarity; heart races.

Girl needs protection from the darkness yet craves His presence.

She needs this Man, who lurks in the dark, to lead her into the light.

  Reaching out toward the figure; He quickly retrieves.

He terrifies her; quickly, she begins to run to what’s familiar.

Still unable to see or feel the ground beneath her feet; she continues to run faster, faster!

Then suddenly, she hears Him call out to her

“little one come to Me.” she turns to see the shadow of a Man .

His presence, ominous, dominant and surreal,  frightens the girl;

His unspoken words command her to stay as He draws her close.

 Heart beating rapidly now, He says to her, “don’t be afraid”

Does she dare follow down the dark path to where she’s never been?

With legs trembling, she follows Him, in full abandon.

“who are You?” she asks … “I am your Master; you my submissive”

“you will no longer fear the darkness for I am here to protect you.”

She feels safe in His presence, sheltered from harm.

Although she cannot see His face, His heart speaks to her.

Suddenly He reaches out and takes her into His arms…

Wrapping His hands up in her hair, He draws her close.

“you know you want me, don’t you, girl?” Her throat tightens.

under His spell, out of control; she is overcome with submissiveness

Softly, she speaks, “yes, Master, I do … take me.”

Kissing her like no Man has ever, He sets her body on fire.

She feels Him grow hard as He presses His body against hers.

She pulls away uncertain of His presence; uncertain of His demands

He has captured her soul and spoken to her heart.

She wants to feel Him inside her; having His way with her.

She does not know why she comes to this place.

Does she not know it’s dangerous here?

His voice is compelling; His touch sets her ablaze.

She needs to feel complete by Him and she knows this for sure.

she gives herself in full abandonment….

                                      “take me, Master, for I am Yours.”