I want to actually thank the huge number of fakes on here.  If it was not for them I would probably still be sitting around doing nothing more than wondering why people are the way they are.  I got bored with that as of today.  Now I wonder why I am the way I am.  It’s far more interesting and it definitely requires plenty more thought, and at times, adjustments within.  Learning is a power and submission is not for the weak as I have had confirmed recently.   

I seem to get plenty of messages (mainly from men) demanding that I serve them or I am not showing the true quality of a sub/slave.  Is this a form of humiliation tactic to make me feel shame and therefore submit immediately?  Silly me!  I was thinking that the lifestyle has far more intelligence than that.  I like an intelligent conversation.  I like to learn.  I like to teach.  I am not a teacher though.  Am I wrong in wanting to meet someone, dare I say it? As an equal??  Someone with values similar to mine? Someone who shows attention to detail?  Someone who recognises the difference between excuses and reasons?  Monogamous?  OMG Did I dare to say that?  S..s…shocking behaviour of mine.  Is it wrong that I will not just serve anyone who demands it?  Is it wrong for me to have a choice?  If I am given a choice does that mean that a Domme may not hold all the control? 

Just throwing all this out there at the moment…..   Maybe I could get into this journal thing.  I nearly gave this site up a week ago.  There is at least one genuine person out there.  So I will ignore the fakes and hopefully after they have messaged me and got a brief answer they will jot down my name so that when they start up their new profiles they know not to contact me again….  Could I be that lucky?  I doubt it….