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I have recently been released from service on good terms and taking time to adjust to this transition and missing the engagement of control and service focus. Not looking for ongoing pay-to-play/finDomme, not my kink. Healthy, fit, clean, sane, grad degree and full of wit, looking to broaden my experience for better service.
Released from service today on good terms. Readjusting to include reflection, learning, ambition, emotional reset, self-improvement. The prior JOURNAL entries were part of my diary under D's service and were directed as part of training.
Part of my training has broken barriers showing me that His needs are bigger than my discomfort in executing a task.? I have been undergoing nipple enlargement for weeks graduating in size and duration.? I had to wear a pair of inch long nipple suckers attached under a plain shirt to a public bar (dressed as 'male').? ?My mind could hear the unspoken snickers and extended stares as eyeballs freely groped my perky chest.??
From the beginning of my service I had to wear a pink fabric bow with lots of loops tied to my clit stick.  It is difficult sometimes to look down and see how far my 'manhood' has gone away as it's not used but to hang these cute ribbons.  I'm not perfect and sometimes the clit stick gets a life of its own that i feel displeases Sir.  It can't be touched and except gently and only by tissue to clean up when using the girls room.
I am being trained for deeper submission so I react without hesitation to all tasks, and orders. I am on a path for all D/s decisions to be given to Sir. I began as a somewhat tentative femme and Master named me 'effe' to wear as a scarlet letter, that I will become more EFFEminant. I immediately lost use of my boy clit and it has lead me towards being a horny slut. It's been months without a sexual release that will only come from my new pussy. I have to write these things as humiliation is part of training.