easy2loveatlanta

Is it so hard just to be human.  Just want to talk or friendly. No game. I want to play but not with feelinigs. Not sure about humans anymore.

And yes I can want for me and not want to own. That is so much work and I do not have that energy. I just want someone that might love me. Not enough time... just the sound of love in my ear

When You need 

Did I hear someone?

When more is wanted.

I was foolish to believe

I get it

how do I trust?

Alone 

How do I go on?

morning I will pretend.

I keep thinking I can find what I DREAM OF.

IS IT ONLY A DREAM?

The ach of failure. Why does my want elude me? Is it so hard to love me?

when you think you would change everything for someone. But when they dream out loud, you where not in the dream. It was she. They say the word love, but then don't call for days.  We talked everyday, at least I thought. What did I think? I am not a moment. I want to share moments. Is there love for me? Is it too late for me? my heart, so raw

One that wants as I want back

All I can say

I wanted

but interest was lost

I force nothing

I want to be given

never having to ask

My how I desire. Love the feel of a nice man. clean man. kind man. Pleasing man.

I waited and waited. He never came. Said he would be here for me. And I just waited. Why is it, that one. One not with me. I waited years. Why did I? Time.... TIme went by. I waited. I settled for crumbs. The cookie is gone. And I wanted so badly. I still want to smell you. Crumbs

The memory is in my soul.
In every pore of my being.


The change shocking
earth shaking reality 
The heart goes dark.

Darker still.

for D

You email here. I get excited.... I think maybe this is someone. Then some simple statement lets me know. I am not the one. How do you shatter over a few emails? How do I ever forget.